Story: "Don’t leave me behind"
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gossip girl or used songs.
Summary: Chuck is going to leave New York for good after he saw Blair with Nate. Will Blair see who she really has butterflies for and what if it’s too late?
Here’s next chapter and please review if you’re reading I really want to know what you think. And if you have time read my oneshot “Missing Butterflies”.
“I forgot to say out loud
How beautiful you really are to me,
I can't be without
You're my perfect little punching bag,
And I need you
“Please don’t leave me" Pink
After I gave Serena my letter I went to my suite to grab some things I will need most. I threw some clothes not even looking at them and went to my waiting limo.
“Where to Mr. Bass?”
I looked last time at Nate and Blair’s photo in NYT and answered:
I remember when I found out she’s having this thing in newspaper. I was so angry and jealous. So I made a scene in front of this stupid reporter and of course she was mad.
“What was that?”
” I should ask you the same question. Perfect gentleman? Perfect date? That broken record was a hit last year. Get with the times, he bores you.”
” You almost made a fool of me in front of the New York Times. Which proves my very point; you can't be trusted. Nate is a gentleman; he would never cause a scene.”
” Never get your blood going, either.”
Sure he’s perfect gentleman. Perfect date who sleeps with his date’s best friend when they’re together at the wedding.
I didn’t even notice that we’re here. I had Arthur buy me ticket (first class of course – I’m not that desperate). As I went through the gate I thought I saw familiar chocolate curls. I really have to leave. I’m starting seeing her everywhere. It’s sick. I was sleeping with her few weeks! I was going to go through the door when I heard someone calling my name. No it couldn’t be. What would she be doing here? I started waking again but as I heard it again I turned around.
I ran to the cab and yelled at the driver to take me to the airport. I have to stop him. I just have to. How is it that now I realized that I need him? That he was always here. When Serena was away. When Nate was busy. He sat with me for hours when my dad had left. He watched my favourite movies with me even thought he hates it when I had been upset. He was always here to tell me I look beautiful when Nate would only look at perfect Serena or take me for dinner when Nate had stood me up again because of his never ending family problems which were mostly just excuse so he wouldn’t have to spent time with me.
I jumped out of the car throwing money at the driver and ran to his terminal. I knew from Arthur who I called earlier which it is. I saw his form almost disappearing.
Please let him hear me. He stopped but after a while went ahead thinking probably that he imagined it. Not that I can blame him.
I yelled again and this time he turned around. He looked like he saw a ghost. He stood there most likely thinking what to do and I almost jumped from joy when he started walking towards me.
“What are you doing here? Don’t tell me Nathaniel is that bad you had to find me to fuck you.”
Ok I knew he will react like that and I deserved it but still it hurt. But now I have to convince him that I want him not Nate.
“I didn’t sleep with Nate.”
“And? I have a flight to catch so say what you have to and go back to your Prince.”
“I don’t want Nate.”
“Well congratulations you’re just like him. Can’t decide much?”
God couldn’t he see that I want him not anyone else?
“I want you. You’re my Prince. I’m sorry I went back to Nate I was just angry at you for destroying my Cotillion. And Serena gave me your letter so I know you want me too.”
He seemed to think about it as he was quiet for few moments.
“Well I’m going. You can go with me.”
Is he crazy or something? I can’t leave everything and just go to Monaco. Things like that happen only in Chuck Bass’s world.
“Chuck you know I can’t just leave. Please if what you wrote in this letter is true don’t go.”
“It is true. But I can’t stay if it isn’t true for you too and I know it isn’t”
“What? I said I want you not Nate.”
“Exactly. You WANT me but you don’t love me. You never did and I knew it so don’t worry I didn’t have any wrong images. But I’m not going to stay here just so you would have your fuck buddy. No worries thought I’m sure you’ll find new one soon.”
“Do you? ... Love me?”
I know I do so why can’t I say it? If Chuck Bass could I can for sure too! I said it like million times to Nate for god’s sake and what I feel for Chuck is so much stronger. Come on Blair! Say it and you’ll have him forever!
He waited for few moments but I knew I wouldn’t be able to do it.
“Yeah. Bye Blair.”
“But you will be back right?”
He looked me in the eyes then and I knew he wouldn’t be back after Christmas break. I had tears in my eyes as he kissed me probably last time and disappeared. All I could do was just standing there and watch empty space after last passengers made their way inside. After fifteen minutes security guard asked me if everything’s ok. Of course it wasn’t! I just lost what might been the love of my life and he ask if everything’s ok? But instead of telling him this I nodded and went home to spend all night crying. Good thing my mother isn’t home.