Story: "Don’t leave me behind"
Author: edwestwick (Ana)
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gossip girl or used songs.
Summary: Chuck is going to leave New York for good after he saw Blair with Nate. Will Blair see who she really has butterflies for and what if it’s too late?
Yay quick update! I felt bad I left in that moment so I had to write quickly. Thanks for reviews – they really made me happy. I’m not sure how many more chapters I will write, probably 2-3 but we’ll see :)
"Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands.
I need someone, someone who hears
For you, I've waited all these years.”
"Till Kingdom Come" Coldplay
I can't believe I just said to Chuck Bass that I'm in love with him. God and what with my plan? My brilliant idea how win him back. Instead of come here and try to be friends and then give him a hint that I feel something to him so this way I wouldn't risk getting hurt like I know he can hurt me, I'd just knocked at his door and said it. Just like that. And now I'm waiting. And he looks like he's going to have panic attack.
"What did you say?" I heard him ask.
Great. Now he's making me repeat it so he can crush me easier.
"I said that I love you. I love you. I'm in love with you. I don't want Nate or anyone else and it's true so don't start with your speech again because it's not true. I know I shouldn't go to Nate without letting you explain anything and I'm really sorry about it and I'm sorry I didn't tell you how I feel at the airport but I came here to say it and I'd do anything to make things like they were before... Do you think we can come back there?"
Ok this is it. I gave myself to Chuck Bass and he can do with me anything he wants.
"I don't think so."
I felt like someone just ripped my heart in million small pieces. I know it sounds stupid but I don't care. I really believed we can make it right.
"Oh... ok. I'll just go."
Bravo Blair you screwed up next thing. Probably best thing in your life. I turned around and started going towards the elevator. I'll just get a cab, go back home and continue living my hopeless life. Yes I Blair Waldorf don't even want shame to get revenge on Chuck. God he destroyed me completely. I was almost inside when I heard steps and him calling me.
And what could he have to tell now? Can't he understand I want to be alone?
"Yes Bass? I understand you can't forgive me so I'll just go and leave you to your scotch and sluts. Have a wonderful life."
"Blair you don't understand! I said we can't go back to before because I don't want it to be like before. I don't want to be your dirty secret. I don't want to sneak around so no one would see. I don't want to pretend that I don't care about you, that I'm not jealous when you dance with other guys. I want to hold your hand and kiss you for everyone to see that you are my girlfriend."
Am I delusional? Or did just Chuck Bass say he wants me to be his girlfriend?
"You want to be my boyfriend?"
"Well if you want to..."
Yes! Yes yes yes! Thank you whoever is up there!
"If you're asking..."
He just smiled and I couldn't stop myself anymore so I myself on him and kissed him with everything I feel. As he kissed me back I couldn't think of anything other than I'm kissing Chuck Bass my boyfriend. That's right he belongs to me now.
When we finally had to break apart to take a break he took my hand and led me back to his suite.
"So what do you say I show you my bedroom?"
I nodded and kissed him again. We continued to kiss as we walked to his bedroom and then he pulled me on the bed with him. I got lost in the feeling of his lips on my body. Chuck started to take off my shirt and bra at the same time kissing my chest and down my stomach. I moaned when he kissed my right breast and sucked my nipple. After he was done with the second he got rid of my skirt leaving me in my panties. While he continued licking and kissing my thighs I freed him from his clothes. I started to kiss his chest in the way I know he loves and he took my panties off. Then he kissed me a few more times and looked me in the eyes as he positioned himself between my legs.
"I love you."
It was amazing to hear it again, to know he still loves me after all that happened.
"I love you too."
I said back and screamed his name as he entered me. I love this man I thought before I couldn't think before anything besides the pleasure I felt.