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i reached downstairs and headed to carlisle's office. i silently walked near the door and listined to his conversation with his workers. but these people had been very quiet, as carlisle spoke fast strong words i couldnt make out. then, i heard steps coming toward the door. i ran to the nearby sofa and sat acting like i had been there the whole time. "thank you for coming gentlmen, see you all at work" carlisle told the unfamilar faces.
once they were gone, carlisle looked at me. i breathed slowly. he smiled as he said "loraine, you look as if you hadnt slept in days...want to go back to bed?" he gestured toward the stairs. i remembered i hadnt taken off my lingerie-ish looking pj's yet. i crossed my legs as i sat. i glanced at him, blushing probably, looking like a dumb person. i looked down. "carlisle, these pj's are kind of...i dont know...will you not look if i go upstairs? i mean at least till im hiddin by the covers..." i said fast and nervous. "of course i wont look, whatever makes you happy" he smiled. he walked up first, me second, while he kept his promise.
i went to the bed as i covered myself in. i glaced at the door, and carlisle stood. with some unrecognizable look on his face. i have seen carlisle sad, happy, confused, angry (not THAT angry) but not this face. then i noticed something every girl could find in a man, the WAY he was looking at me. he had both hands in his pockets, leaning on the door frame, with a slight grin. "carlisle, is there something wrong?" i asked. he didnt look at me for another 20 seconds.
"no, you just look beautiful as always..." he said as if he was miles away from me. i sat up. i had no idea what i was doing...but i got out of the bed (yes, i wasnt even thinking on the flashy pajamas) and stood in front of him. he got wide eyed and cleared his throat. "carlisle, something is on your mind, please tell me?" i said pleadingly. he looked at me right in the eyes..."i wont tell you.." he had his arms around me. then he got REALLY close to my face..."but can i SHOW you?" he leaded me toward the bed. i suddenly realized what carlisle was thinking..should i go along with him?
i reached downstairs and headed to carlisle's office. i silently walked near the door and listined to his conversation with his workers. but these people had been very quiet, as carlisle spoke fast strong words i couldnt make out. then, i heard steps coming toward the door. i ran to the nearby sofa and sat acting like i had been there the whole time. "thank you for coming gentlmen, see you all at work" carlisle told the unfamilar faces.
once they were gone, carlisle looked at me. i breathed slowly. he smiled as he said "loraine, you look as if you hadnt slept in days...want to go back to bed?" he gestured toward the stairs. i remembered i hadnt taken off my lingerie-ish looking pj's yet. i crossed my legs as i sat. i glanced at him, blushing probably, looking like a dumb person. i looked down. "carlisle, these pj's are kind of...i dont know...will you not look if i go upstairs? i mean at least till im hiddin by the covers..." i said fast and nervous. "of course i wont look, whatever makes you happy" he smiled. he walked up first, me second, while he kept his promise.
i went to the bed as i covered myself in. i glaced at the door, and carlisle stood. with some unrecognizable look on his face. i have seen carlisle sad, happy, confused, angry (not THAT angry) but not this face. then i noticed something every girl could find in a man, the WAY he was looking at me. he had both hands in his pockets, leaning on the door frame, with a slight grin. "carlisle, is there something wrong?" i asked. he didnt look at me for another 20 seconds.
"no, you just look beautiful as always..." he said as if he was miles away from me. i sat up. i had no idea what i was doing...but i got out of the bed (yes, i wasnt even thinking on the flashy pajamas) and stood in front of him. he got wide eyed and cleared his throat. "carlisle, something is on your mind, please tell me?" i said pleadingly. he looked at me right in the eyes..."i wont tell you.." he had his arms around me. then he got REALLY close to my face..."but can i SHOW you?" he leaded me toward the bed. i suddenly realized what carlisle was thinking..should i go along with him?
By the time Benjamin was a full grown boy, the girls were almost grown too. It saddened me to know that, yes I would have to KILL my own daughters to make them live on with me.
I had realized that not one of my older daughters or sons stood behind me anymore. They had quickly dispersed after Rennesmee's death. Now we were alone, forever moving around the world. I knew something was coming though, something to do with Benjamin.
I sighed, once again, I was pregnant. I couldn't deal with not having a baby now that I'd experienced it. Carlisle didn't care anymore, he wasn't even around. I had my suspicions, Bella. But he wouldn't do that again, would he? This time it wouldn't be worth it if he did.
But I didn't care. I didn't care about any of it anymore. Nothing mattered except.....I knew my son, and my son was not pure. He was evil. Possessed by Rennesmee I knew I would have to kill him, for good.
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I had realized that not one of my older daughters or sons stood behind me anymore. They had quickly dispersed after Rennesmee's death. Now we were alone, forever moving around the world. I knew something was coming though, something to do with Benjamin.
I sighed, once again, I was pregnant. I couldn't deal with not having a baby now that I'd experienced it. Carlisle didn't care anymore, he wasn't even around. I had my suspicions, Bella. But he wouldn't do that again, would he? This time it wouldn't be worth it if he did.
But I didn't care. I didn't care about any of it anymore. Nothing mattered except.....I knew my son, and my son was not pure. He was evil. Possessed by Rennesmee I knew I would have to kill him, for good.
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