I have slightly different versions of Elena after Damon’s death from the books (“Nothing was real. Didn’t they understand? She could not imagine a universe, no matter how many dimensions there were, without Delena in it. There was no world for her, if there was no Delena. They couldn’t do this to them.”, “No physical pain could compare with what was in her heart, with the pain of losing what she had lost. No physical pain could express how she felt.”, “And nothing was real again, and there was no one else in the world for her, and she didn’t even care if this meant death.”, “But she herself still felt very wrong. And she had the feeling that now everything was gone. She was hollow: a girl who looked solid, but whose insides were missing.”, “Time lost all meaning. So much had been lost. She couldn’t get her head around it, and she didn’t want to do anything but cry until the kind darkness took her mind again.”) and from the show (“But every time, I let it sink in, I feel like I’m gonna die.”, “Because I don’t think I can live forever without them.”, “And I didn’t see an end to the pain.”, “Which means, for the rest of eternity, I’m gonna have a hole in my heart.”) in my head during the day.
Well, just like with every devastating event, I'll probably stare blankly at the screen once the episode is over. Then, I'll do something to occupy myself. Then, I'll go seek the privacy of my room, and have an emotional breakdown like only Elena Gilbert has them.
Ugh I have no idea what I'll do! I'll probably sob for a week and then I'll try to get myself occupied with studies. But I don't care what happens in the series, they'll always be endgame for me. I really hope Nina at least comes back for a series finale so that we can get the ending that we all deserve.