As most of you know I wrote a letter to my friend who's a girl that I'm in love with. I gave it to her early at school, I told her not to read it until she got home and not to tell anyone about it, especially her boyfriend. When she got home and she read it she called me and it turns out she loves me too. I use to ask her if she had those kind of feelings for me and she said no but today she told me she lied. So this is what disney love feels like! WE'RE IN LOVE! She's going to break up with her boyfriend but it's not just because it me. Actually she thinks he's really clingy and that he's kinda a creepy stalker with disturbing thoughts. CuteDiana suggested that I show everyone my letter, so here it is.
Hey Candice, it’s me Chris! Look I know you’re moving away but I wish that I could do something to stop you from leaving. I’ve had other friends move to different schools but it was different with you because you’re more than just my best friend. In choir I was trying not to cry and to hold back the tears so you wouldn’t see me cry. I got really mad at you and said that I hated you but you know I didn’t really mean it. Actually the truth is that I actually think of you as more than a best friend or a sister. When I got home I listened to sad love songs and I cried, than I realized why I was crying because it takes something really strong to make me cry. When I was thinking about you I had knots in my stomach and I really care about you. Actually I felt that every time I thought about you, and it took me a long while to realize it but I’m in love with you.
I know that we sort of tried to date during freshman year but that didn’t really count because it was only for a day. Messing that up by breaking up with you was the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. I was just scared because I was afraid of committing to a relationship and if it didn’t work out what would happen to our friendship. I know what you and Ryan are together but I really wanted you to know how I feel. If you truly love Ryan more than anything and would to anything to be with him, I’ll just leave you alone. Ryan’s our friend and I don’t want to make him mad at me for stealing you from him. You and Ryan have known each other since kindergarten and I’ve only known you since freshman year. However ever since we broke up I kept thinking if you and me were meant to be. I even sometimes had dreams where we were at school and a natural disaster happened, I thought we would die and I said that I loved you. I kept thinking if you and me were like one of those stories where the main character and the best friend fall in love, but they were unaware of their real feelings until the end.
I know you use to think of me that way and I don’t know if you still do but if you do than tell me. Even if you don’t we’ll always be best friends. Also I wish you would try to convince your mom to let you stay here and not go to a different school because you’re the only one at school who keeps me sane. You’re the only unique girl at the school the others are either stuck-up snobs, perky girly girls, girls who are messed up(like on drugs, smoking, or got pregnant) and angry with their parents, or Emo’s/Goths who cut themselves. I can’t go on without you! I need you by my side at school! I can’t live without you because my life wouldn’t be complete without you. Please just try to convince her! Even if you can’t and you do love me, I’ll get my license and drive to see you every Saturday. I’ll call you everyday to talk to you! Even if you don’t love me I’ll still call you every day to talk to you. I would give up everything to have you stay here! I’ll be a nicer person, I’ll be less aggressive, I’ll be less hotheaded, in fact I’d even give up my career as a book writer!
Even if you’re heart was never meant to be mine, we’ll always be best friends. I wanted to take a chance and see what would happen. If you’re truly happy with Ryan and love him than I’ll be happy for you. You’re happiness is my happiness! I know you don’t want to leave and you won’t be happy so you really should try to stay! Please stay! I don’t wanna lose you! Without you I won’t be able to make it through high school. Even if you don’t love me please at least try! I didn’t know what would happen if I didn’t try to tell you about this and I’m still scared. So what do you have to lose? Your mom is just running away from her problems and that’s something parents are suppose to teach kids not to do! I’d do anything to help you stay! I love you! You’re nice, funny, pretty, entertaining, a good friend, and the most unique person I’ve ever met! Please don’t leave me, I love you!