I'm sorry but I was so depressed last night and vented out my feelings in an article and blurted out private things about my life. I woke up today asking what was going on through my mind. But anyway, since it's been written, here's the clean version lol.
13. Snow White
I'm pretty much the opposite of Snow White so once again, I cannot save her from hitting rock bottom. As much I would like the be an organized person, I'm a chaotic mess. And as much I would like to be optimistic, I get depressed easily when things don't go as expected. I also wouldn't describe myself as naive, I'm super suspicious of everything. I guess I'm motherly but that's really the only thing.
I usually get Aurora in Which Princess are you most like quizzes so it's ironic she's in my bottom placements. But I just don't relate to her on a personal level. I don't let my shyness and passive nature define me so that's why. I have a sense of duty but there a limits to that.
So I have the Classics as my bottom 3, but it makes sense since times have changed and feminism hits it with women's aspirations. I can relate to Cinderella's circumstances... kinda. I don't have evil steps but I know how it feels to feel uncontrollable hatred towards your steps. And I guess I daydream and have undying hopes. Other than that, I can't relate to her. Patience is one of the most beautiful qualities and sadly, I do not possess it.
I know I am surrounded by book lovers on Fanpop but I'm just going to say it, I dislike reading, mostly because of my attention deficiency. Reading aside, I can relate to her being an outcast but isn't that a phase everyone goes through? So it doesn't count to me. While there needs to be this base of attraction in a healthy relationship, I honestly am not so drawn to outer appearances. Also, I've met plenty of Gastons and having to deal with them is a pain.
Naturally, you are going to get into fights with your mom or dad or both. You live with that person and reality check, people can't be on the same page 24/7. That aspect doesn't really count to me. I have the best mom and try to obey her but for one thing, I will never change myself to fit her ideals so I guess I relate to her with that. While I previously said I have a sense of duty, I still want to be in control of my own destiny. I also love the outdoors
I am an introvert, being surrounded by people drains me out and I need to be alone to restore myself. Being alone is great, what I absolutely loathe is the feeling of loneliness, just like Anna. I crave human interactions while simultaneously cherishing solitude. There was a time where I was desperate for finding true love and in need of that form of affection, not so much anymore though. I used to not bother whenever someone would piss me of but I learned to throw a little love their way to bring out their best instead from Anna xD
I have anxiety and the fear is eating me up alive, all the thoughts constantly swirling inside my head. I often find myself drowning in my own storms. I can relate to Elsa a lot, thinking things are getting better when something else is about to fuck me over and getting back to where I used to be. Although I've found that the more I grow up, the less I relate to Elsa. Since I no longer need to be alone to be myself and I find it a lot easier to face my own problems now. And even though my brother hurts me on a daily basis, I remain protective of him as a big sis should be.
Recently, I've lost interest and passion for everything because of my anxiety attacks. But there was a time in my life (mainly my teenage years) where I was so driven towards my goals and felt on top of the world. I was also a bit boy crazy and would have literally done anything for my boyfriend. I've been hurt and now know better not to give my wounded heart out like that. The downside is that now I'm more scared to go through things and that gets me stuck in wonder. Anyway, I can also relate to how unhappy I am with my life where I'm stuck in a routine and wish to escape. So I related to Ariel more when I was younger but something that sticks with me to this day is that I'm still impulsive and do things without forethought.
''If I do marry, I want it to be for love'' I love this line so much. Of course, I 100% understand the importance of financial security and I don't go against other people's life choices beliefs but I'm much more of a feelings girl. I'm a pretty calm person in general but when it's that time of the month, my temper is much worse than Jasmine's, so in a way you can say that I am short tempered. I'm also not afraid to stand my ground and don't take shit from anyone. And also something I can't cut her some slack for is that she gives up way too easily and so do I. That's the worst quality anyone could have, how do you expect to accomplish anything when you give up after one try?
A lot of people seem to have a hard time relating to Tiana but I don't. Sure, I'm not nearly as hardworking as she is but still. I consider myself to be the laziest person but when I get involved in something, I'm usually the opposite. I'm just a ball of contradictions aren't I? I already had 2 jobs at the same time before because I was in need of money and I was working my fingers to the bone. There was also a time in my life where I was so focused on a goal (becoming an animator) that nothing else in my life mattered. I was emotionally independent to the extreme, figured that that career alone would have given me full satisfaction. I was so infatuated with my dream job, I didn't realize that I had an unhealthy obsession. Then I've come to the realization that I needed to find a balance in my life. As for my cooking skills, I can't tell how good I am but I wish I was as good as Tiana.
''I’ve been looking out a window for 18 years, dreaming about what it might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be? '' This really hits home since what I've been longing for to study wasn't what I expected. I also randomly find myself wondering when life will take its turn on me, because I feel like I'm missing out when seeing other people my age. Also... the crown is a metaphor of Rapunzel's virginity, I am 100% so please don't comment on how I have a dirty mind on this, a lot of people noticed. I think many girls have been there and while I'm still *confession time* a virgin, I am not completely pure and know how shitty it feels when men leave right after you give it to them. I relate to Rapunzel in a lot of ways, but I wish I got involved in more activities and had multiple hobbies like her.
Besides from being inevitably awkward, I'm most definitely the black sheep in my family, I flunked out of College. I still need to find my calling/myself in order to please my family and I badly want that. One of my biggest flaws is that I lose motivation really quickly, I think I am naturally unmotivated just like Mulan. I need someone like Shang in my life to discipline me or else there will just be endless moping around coming from me.
My top 2 are spot on but I think Pocahontas is a little bit more unique and more flawed which is why she is over Mulan. Walking into College, I was so sure I wanted to major in 3D animation since I've been dreaming about it for the longest time. But after a while, I questioned myself whether or not it was really for me and I couldn't be more confused atm. I gave up and kept changing programs and felt SO lost and stuck. I was seeking guidance from the more wise (Grandmother Willow) but even with them giving me advice, I couldn't stop moping around because I no longer had a goal in life. I didn't think straight and even when the answers were right in front of me, I couldn't solve anything. I had a serious lack of common sense and had a hard time making decisions. Aside from not having myself well put together, I'm also kind of in tune with nature and all living things. That's why I'm trying out veganism.