Ok so you can ask all my friends I can't stand leyton, im a total brucaser, but even I was completely touched by the new promo for 6x17! It seriously broke my heart! I love Peyton and I hope that she is okay, so this is for her! This is also for all my leyton friends who are probably crying right now! So i hope you guys enjoy this, its a short poem and its sad so tell me what you think!
SPECIAL SHOUT OUT TO MY GIRL LAURENCIA! WITHOUT HER I WOULD NEVER HAVE VENTURED OVER HERE! SEE I LOVE YOU THAT MUCH B/C YOU KNOW I NEVER WOULD HAVE POSTED THIS HERE OTHERWISE! TEAM CHAUREN RULES!
"How can this happen in a month?"
I can't believe its been one month, a moment really can change it all.
Lying on the floor cradled in his arms, the world feels so big and I feel so small.
Small, that's what my baby is, our baby something we created, this precious miracle growing inside of me.
I press my hand to my stomach hoping to feel him or her still with me, it was supposed to be us, all three.
He's looking down at me with those amazing blue eyes, i hope our child has those.
I hold onto the teddy bear that he decorated the babies room with, a surprise that he didn't get to show.
How can everything just change.
We had the world at our feet and now its just all deranged.
I close my eyes and drift to another place.
A world where we're chasing after our children a big smile plastered on my face.
30 days, i've carried this baby for thirty days.
It's apart of me how could i ever just give that away
He's yelling at me now screaming at me not to do this.
"Lucas you saw its heartbeat you saw its tiny little fingers" how can he stand there and act like this baby doesn't exist.
"Just stop it" he doesn't want to hear what i'm saying.
"No i want stop" i cant get the image of those sonograms out of my head, they'll never stop replaying.
I'm sitting now, looking out the window.
It's only been a day, but it feels like another lifetime ago
He walks in and hands me the picture of our baby.
"Peyton i love our baby too, but i want let you put your life in jeopardy."
"That's my choice to make" i didn't mean it the way it came out,
but he's not angry he doesn't scream and shout.
Instead he pulls me up and looks me square in the eye.
"If you have this baby you could die."
He doesn't get it, he doesn't understand.
The love a mother has for her baby, the love I have for my baby, is bigger than the life we have planned.
"You can't ask me not to have this baby" i say and hold onto his hand.
I place it on my growing belly and we hold onto each other for dear life as we stand.
"I love you Lucas, I do"
"I know" he says sadness evident in his eyes "that's why I can't lose you."
A SINGLE MOMENT CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOREVER!