My heart is heavy with greif. I don't know what to do. I just want to give in, and give up, but I refuse to make my friends and the people I know suffer, just because I can't take this sorrow anymore. I feel hopless and stranded. I feel like an outcast, but I don't mind it anymore.
The fact is I rather be alone than with others. I rather be in the dark than in the light. Although, my mum tells me not to, I want to tell her how I feel but I just can't.
I don't know what to do...
Thhey call me names, point out my flaws and so many things so now I'd rather be alone and have no friends so then I can't fight, get heart broken and get judged. The words don't hurt no more. Nothin does, well it does but i don't notice 'cause everything hurts.
Posted over a year ago