I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness what so ever. You dont want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you dont want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.
You feel like your heart is falling appart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like its falling appart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feel's impossible to stop loving them.
And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones that you love the most. People tell you 'It's going to be ok....' but deep, deep inside you know it will never be ok. It leaves deep scars in your heart that will stay there foever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you have been hurt, no matter who they are or what they have been through, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday, so you learn that your basically alone in all of this.
Then the feelings start to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down right there, because you know you have had enough, the tears just start to instantly fall across your face and you get to the point where you dont care who sees.
After a few weeks you look back at all of this, you laugh to yourself and realise people are horrible. You're still hurt but you learn to hide it so people think your okay and try to move on.
So everytime you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart for them to just love you back, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it.
And you sit back and wonder how one stupid person could have caused all this ...