i love my boyfriend

it was a year ago an after 2 really bad relationships (on here) I was done ready to give I said my goodbyes I had my bottle of pain pills and pepis ready to end my life at home I was going through abuse I was covered in bruises I figured my life wasn't worth living so I was done the night before I was ready to take my life I checked my fanpop wall and there was one post that said *im wounded* so I checked it this user had been dumped lied to hurt just like I had been I had never talked to this user before but now I was on his wall posting a *what happened ans how can I help* a few posts back...

He stares at you a lot- He hits you a lot(playfully)- He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a converstaion with you- He yelled, "HI"to your mom that day she picked you up from schoo- He blew off his buds to go see "Brown Sugar" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone- He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process- His voice gets softer when ever you two talk-You hung up on him. He called you back- You where invited by him to a group outin- He called you to talk about nothing at all.- He imitates your laugh Which...

Poem-
Love is patient
Love is kind
Love is psycho
Plays with your mind.
I still need you
And you need me too.
Mea Culpa, Mea Maxima Culpa.
My fault, my grievous fault.
When you're hurt
By my hand
It's Mea Culpa, Mea Maxima Culpa.
To love is to destroy.
It's a contradiction.
When I've tried my hardest to keep you safe
Shield you from the world outside
I try to kill those who breathe on you
I feel apathy.
You're warmth on my skin
Chills me within, I push you away
I run away from you, my fears of losing you
Overcome my love for you
Cut myself, dreams of you deteriorating slowly kill me
Driving me insane
You ask of...

Main characters: 
Kerry- 14 
Dillon- 16

Other characters:
Parker- Kerry's little brother, Travis and Lukas's best friend- 10

Trevor- Dillon's little brother- 13

Lukas- Dillon's little brother, Travis and Parker's best friend- 10

Will- Dillon's little brother- 7

Lucy- Kerry and Dillon's neighbor, Sam and Travis's little sister- 9

Sam- Lucy and Travis's older brother, Kerry's best friend- 14

Travis- Lucy's older brother, Sam's little brother, Parker and Lukas's best friend- 10

(this whole story is in Kerry's POV)
Chapter 1
     I picked up the phone and called Sam. Sam has been my best friend since third...