to a good soul. rest in peace mr. byars!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i realize that i am alone.
Or so i think
they say they help me
some of them do
others don't
Thinking about the day
you met them
that feeling of security
is still there
just its a tighter pull
The best kind of friends
are always there
no matter what
Realization kicks in
i know that they care about me
i can't help but be mad
that they are being
very protective of me
is it because i am young?
because i have no experience
because i am ignorant
or because i am dumb enough to make the same mistake twice.
or even 4 or 5 times
they were there
they will always be there
and now i know it
They will always be there
its the best
to have the best friends in the world
cherrish all that they give to you
repect them
because that is what i do now.
Once
Twice
Three times
I'm Out!!!!
It dies for no reason
there they go....
burning off
piece by piece
those stitches that held me together
burning off
what was once whole
dead
dying
GONE
they are GONE
why?? why???
WHY ME?!?!?!?!???
what did i do to deserve this?
Does fate not want me to be happy?
Do i deserve to be happy?
what is the wrong that i have done?
I guess its my fault...
i guess that i will never be truly happy
Darkness creeps into my mind and into my dreams
I'll just learn to deal with it somehow
and find a way to fix it
Twice
Three times
I'm Out!!!!
It dies for no reason
there they go....
burning off
piece by piece
those stitches that held me together
burning off
what was once whole
dead
dying
GONE
they are GONE
why?? why???
WHY ME?!?!?!?!???
what did i do to deserve this?
Does fate not want me to be happy?
Do i deserve to be happy?
what is the wrong that i have done?
I guess its my fault...
i guess that i will never be truly happy
Darkness creeps into my mind and into my dreams
I'll just learn to deal with it somehow
and find a way to fix it
What is death? A word used to decribe the afterlife? Who knows, nobody just another mystery. People say when you die you go to heaven, nirvana, they even say that your spirit leaves your body for another. I would feel cheated that I was left there by my self, not even my soul wants me.
Some say thats the feeling of alone is the worst feeling of all, I say a feeling is a feeling that is better than nothin at all. Nothin is to me the only pain anyone can really have nothin just simpley nothin.
Some talk about what you think when you die, they say that your life flashs in front of you. I would think of what is about to happen, i'm going to be nothin thats all just nothin, that is the worst pain.
But that is just what people belive but to me it's just another mystery never to be solved.
Writen by, Connor
Some say thats the feeling of alone is the worst feeling of all, I say a feeling is a feeling that is better than nothin at all. Nothin is to me the only pain anyone can really have nothin just simpley nothin.
Some talk about what you think when you die, they say that your life flashs in front of you. I would think of what is about to happen, i'm going to be nothin thats all just nothin, that is the worst pain.
But that is just what people belive but to me it's just another mystery never to be solved.
Writen by, Connor
What does the word life mean to you? Is it a clock counting down the time you have here on earth? Or is it a word that gives feeling, emotion, sadnes.
What would you do if you had a life of no joy, sadnes, feelings, emotions. Some say a life that only dreams can reach. Some say a life wearth aiming for, Me? I think life as a word used to cover the reason were here and why is that? The resaon were here is like the reason for all things, its a mystery never to be solved and never can be solved.
So now you know what I think when I here the word life, just another mystery never to be solved.
Writed by, Connor
What would you do if you had a life of no joy, sadnes, feelings, emotions. Some say a life that only dreams can reach. Some say a life wearth aiming for, Me? I think life as a word used to cover the reason were here and why is that? The resaon were here is like the reason for all things, its a mystery never to be solved and never can be solved.
So now you know what I think when I here the word life, just another mystery never to be solved.
Writed by, Connor
if u dnt like my writing then why the hell are u reading this?
Dying on the inside
Screaming my head off every night doesn't help
i don't cry anymore, i can't cry anymore
The pain.. it never leaves burning at the stitches on my once whole heart
Burning
waiting for those last few stitches to burn off completely
Burning Burning Burning
My eyes are red & burning from the tears that just won't come
I can't cry, i won't cry
the blood that runs through
my veins once again
runs down my arm
leaving behind my story,
un shed tears, and blood
I don't have much longer to live
I will sit and wait
until my day comes
red eyes and red arms
awaiting that day to just come
I shall not fear death for
my time will come
and i will FINALLY
be at peace with everything and everyone
Dying on the inside
Screaming my head off every night doesn't help
i don't cry anymore, i can't cry anymore
The pain.. it never leaves burning at the stitches on my once whole heart
Burning
waiting for those last few stitches to burn off completely
Burning Burning Burning
My eyes are red & burning from the tears that just won't come
I can't cry, i won't cry
the blood that runs through
my veins once again
runs down my arm
leaving behind my story,
un shed tears, and blood
I don't have much longer to live
I will sit and wait
until my day comes
red eyes and red arms
awaiting that day to just come
I shall not fear death for
my time will come
and i will FINALLY
be at peace with everything and everyone
how could you say we're bffs
and now your an ass who
would pick her over me
i always was loyal to u
as afriend
and you pick that bitch ova my
i pay for your moves we
under stand each other
better
but that bitch knew you
long so i got the boot
and now your happy
with your old bff
and now i have no sholder to
lean on i guess ill alway
be lonely i hate my choise of
bffs y try any more
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
fuckem all fuck the world
thats my story i hat my bff
so now im searching for a new
bff ahhhhhhhhh
new bff need
and now your an ass who
would pick her over me
i always was loyal to u
as afriend
and you pick that bitch ova my
i pay for your moves we
under stand each other
better
but that bitch knew you
long so i got the boot
and now your happy
with your old bff
and now i have no sholder to
lean on i guess ill alway
be lonely i hate my choise of
bffs y try any more
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
fuckem all fuck the world
thats my story i hat my bff
so now im searching for a new
bff ahhhhhhhhh
new bff need
I would go to the ends of the Earth for you
My love
My heart
My life
My Martha
No one else can have you but me
me and only me
Sure you don't want me
but i want you
forever and ever
My Martha...I Love You
You are my reason to
wake up every morning
and to go to school
and to cheerleading practice
When i see you
all the dark, bad, images
and clouds and thoughts go away
But once you leave those
clouds and thoughts and images
come right back to me
They haunt me everyday
every second of my life.
I will Love you forever and always
To you I mean another "stalker"
but remember I was your first
and will always be at the
top of you "stalker list"
As long as i am on the top of that list
i will be your friend. but
still
I LOVE YOU!!
My love
My heart
My life
My Martha
No one else can have you but me
me and only me
Sure you don't want me
but i want you
forever and ever
My Martha...I Love You
You are my reason to
wake up every morning
and to go to school
and to cheerleading practice
When i see you
all the dark, bad, images
and clouds and thoughts go away
But once you leave those
clouds and thoughts and images
come right back to me
They haunt me everyday
every second of my life.
I will Love you forever and always
To you I mean another "stalker"
but remember I was your first
and will always be at the
top of you "stalker list"
As long as i am on the top of that list
i will be your friend. but
still
I LOVE YOU!!