Hey you guys, it's finally Friday! So now here's the next chapter of the new story, Incarnate.
Edward's POV
Edward Alice. I didn't turn around. I just stared at the ground in the meadow with a blank expression.
You can't just stand here. It will cause too much pain.
I took a deep ragged breath. What can I do now? My life, meaning, love is gone. She won't come back. I know that an angel like her would be in Heaven, where she belongs. But I still can't imagine a life without her, it hurts too much to think about it.
I will never crititize Romeo ever again. I need to be with her.
Then I heard a mongrel coming up behind me. I didn't have the anger in me to talk. But then I realize that he had been crying.
"I... found... this." the dog, Jacob said to Alice while handing her a note.
He didn't say anything as he walked away.
It was the stupid bloodsucker's fault. If he had never left her, none of this would have ever happened. Bella would still be my best friend, and she would be alive.
I shut out everyone's thoughts. I didn't want to hear them. I already know this was my fault.
Alice gasped suddenly. I turned slowly to see her face starting to sob all over again.
"Alice?" I asked, so low, that I could barely hear my own voice.
"B-Bella said a goodbye note." Alice whispered.
I walked towards her and grabbed the note from her hands.
To everyone, who have cared for me through my months of darkness, suffering, and sadness. (especially Jacob),
I'm sorry. I just can't deal with the pain any longer. It's impossible. I know that all of you guys think that I'm strong enough to endure the pain, but honestly for the last several months. The pain just got larger and more painful.
I've been trying to stay alive as long as I could possibly can, but I can't find the courage to hold it any longer. I hope that I'm in a better place that's pain-free. I'm terribly sorry to leave you guys at the wrong time, since Harry Clearwater just passed away.
I promise that I will always love you guys.
For my father Charlie, give him this note and please tell him that I'm sorry to leave him alone and he have been the best father anyone could ever had, even if he doubt himself.
Jacob, I have to thank you. For loving me, understanding me, and helping me get through the pain as long as I could. I will always think of you as a brother, and my best friend.
If.... by some miracle, that the Cullens heard about this, or even Edward, I don't have words to explain what I did. I just don't understand why I have suffered so much for the lost of a future with them. I can't understand. It's impossible. I especially despise and hate them for what they did, to me, to the pack, and to Charlie. Nevermind, I can't blame them for my reaction. But as much as I hate them..... I will always love them, even you, Edward.
Goodbye,
Bella
I held onto the sheet, rereading it over again and again over twenty times. I still couldn't believe it. I cursed myself for letting my angel suffer like this. I thought I was protecting her, but I was doing to opposite. Then I heard more footsteps behind me, it was the rest of my family, standing right before the place where my Bella passed away. I closed my eyes, and for the first time in nearly forever, I prayed to Bella, begging for her forgiveness for letting any of this happened.
I can hear all of my family grieving before this scene, even Rosalie. As I continued to close my eyes, I heard a soft angel's voice.
I forgive you..... I love you.... nothing changes that.
Ok, I cried, literally, while writing. Isn't that sad? The genre of this story is hurt/comfort, tragedy, and romance. Ok, tears are running......
Edward's POV
Edward Alice. I didn't turn around. I just stared at the ground in the meadow with a blank expression.
You can't just stand here. It will cause too much pain.
I took a deep ragged breath. What can I do now? My life, meaning, love is gone. She won't come back. I know that an angel like her would be in Heaven, where she belongs. But I still can't imagine a life without her, it hurts too much to think about it.
I will never crititize Romeo ever again. I need to be with her.
Then I heard a mongrel coming up behind me. I didn't have the anger in me to talk. But then I realize that he had been crying.
"I... found... this." the dog, Jacob said to Alice while handing her a note.
He didn't say anything as he walked away.
It was the stupid bloodsucker's fault. If he had never left her, none of this would have ever happened. Bella would still be my best friend, and she would be alive.
I shut out everyone's thoughts. I didn't want to hear them. I already know this was my fault.
Alice gasped suddenly. I turned slowly to see her face starting to sob all over again.
"Alice?" I asked, so low, that I could barely hear my own voice.
"B-Bella said a goodbye note." Alice whispered.
I walked towards her and grabbed the note from her hands.
To everyone, who have cared for me through my months of darkness, suffering, and sadness. (especially Jacob),
I'm sorry. I just can't deal with the pain any longer. It's impossible. I know that all of you guys think that I'm strong enough to endure the pain, but honestly for the last several months. The pain just got larger and more painful.
I've been trying to stay alive as long as I could possibly can, but I can't find the courage to hold it any longer. I hope that I'm in a better place that's pain-free. I'm terribly sorry to leave you guys at the wrong time, since Harry Clearwater just passed away.
I promise that I will always love you guys.
For my father Charlie, give him this note and please tell him that I'm sorry to leave him alone and he have been the best father anyone could ever had, even if he doubt himself.
Jacob, I have to thank you. For loving me, understanding me, and helping me get through the pain as long as I could. I will always think of you as a brother, and my best friend.
If.... by some miracle, that the Cullens heard about this, or even Edward, I don't have words to explain what I did. I just don't understand why I have suffered so much for the lost of a future with them. I can't understand. It's impossible. I especially despise and hate them for what they did, to me, to the pack, and to Charlie. Nevermind, I can't blame them for my reaction. But as much as I hate them..... I will always love them, even you, Edward.
Goodbye,
Bella
I held onto the sheet, rereading it over again and again over twenty times. I still couldn't believe it. I cursed myself for letting my angel suffer like this. I thought I was protecting her, but I was doing to opposite. Then I heard more footsteps behind me, it was the rest of my family, standing right before the place where my Bella passed away. I closed my eyes, and for the first time in nearly forever, I prayed to Bella, begging for her forgiveness for letting any of this happened.
I can hear all of my family grieving before this scene, even Rosalie. As I continued to close my eyes, I heard a soft angel's voice.
I forgive you..... I love you.... nothing changes that.
Ok, I cried, literally, while writing. Isn't that sad? The genre of this story is hurt/comfort, tragedy, and romance. Ok, tears are running......