Gym passed by very slowly today; our team won every game in volleyball. That was of course because of Sammy and Kessiah. Coach 2 let us go change early, and by the time I was done Landon was their waiting for me. I came out of the bathroom, and Landon grabbed me up in a big bear hug and gave me a kiss. He put me down and grabbed my hand. We walked to class just like this: hand in hand. We had English together to so I'd get more time with him. Blair and Blake were already there sitting together. It was weird because wasn't Blake dating Jamie. I choose a seat in the back of the room right next to Landon of course. Landon pulled out the chair for me and I sat down. Landon sat down and put his arm around me pulling me closer to him. He kissed the top of me head as Blake turned around and gave me a note.
Blair,
Uh-oh that is a very bad sign.
Are you going out with Landon???
Ugh! Blake is about as nosy as Evan.
No Blake! What does it lo0k like we just found out we are brother and sister. Of course I'm going out with Landon.
I wondered if Landon saw the note, but then I heard him snicker and I knew he had saw the note. Blake passed me back the note saying.
Darn it Blair, Evan's going to be so ticked off!!
What, why would Evan be ticked off. Then I thought back to how Evan had been treating me this morning. Plus how he had been looking at me in the cafeteria and in class. Oh no!!!!!!!
Wait so you mean to tell me that Evan was going to ask me out???!!!
Oh-no this can't be true. I hoped with all my heart that it wasn't true. Maybe Evan just wanted to protect me, not want me to get hurt. My hopes Blair as I thought of other alternatives, but of course they fell when I read the note.
Yes dummy! He was going to ask you out later today.
No, no, no,no! How could this happen I don't want to hurt Evan, but I am going out with Landon now. This is horrible how am I even going to tell him that we are going out. He needs to know though, I also don't want to hurt him. This is so complected.
Well......! What should I do then??
I sent it back to Blake; I was so desperately hoping he had an idea because I had none. It came back in less than a minute. I didn't understand how he wrote so quick and neat it took me about a minute or two before I was done writing a paragraph.
1)Well, you could always not tell him.
2)You could tell him and be like were so happy.
3)Just be all I'm going out with Landon, sorry. I didn't know you wanted to go out with me.
That's all I got right now, but you do know your screwed.
I think I would kind of do a mixture of one and three. I will walk in hand in hand with Landon and sit down at the desk I choose with Landon right next to me.
Yes, I do know I'm screwed but you gave me an idea of my own.
I relaxed in my seat to endure the next ten minutes of this class. We learned that we were going to start learning about classical books this semester. Our first book would be Far from the Madding Crowd. Ugh! Such a drag, classical books are the worst, but what was I supposed to expect. Mr. McArthur passed us each out a copy. He wanted us to read the first chapter tonight. What homework on the first day of school!!! I looked up at Landon to see what he thought of the idea. He didn't show anything he was just looking down at me. I flashed him my Don't-Worry-Everything-Is-Okay smile. I did wondered how much of the conversation he had read. I really don't know and I really don't care. Class finally ended and I stood up and stretched. I hated sitting in class for forever. I went to grab my books and a hand stopped me. I looked up to see Landon staring at me with a crooked grin on his face.
“What Landon, What's so funny?” I had no idea what he thought was so funny.
“Oh nothing, I just thought it was funny that you want to carry your own books when I'm here!!”
“Well, if I'm not going to carry my own books then who is? You!!” Why couldn't I carry my own books. I may be a cheerleader, but I'm not that weak.
“I am silly.” He laughed, kissed me on the forehead, and started to the door. I hurried to catch up with him. We rounded the corner when he slipped the books onto the side of his hip and took my hand. I guess he had read the note and decided he would help me tell Evan that I was dating him.
“Hey, Evan.”
“Yes, Blair.”
“Are you going to Catherine's party this Friday night?” If he wasn't invited, he was now. I wanted to show him off; everyone probably already knew though. The word was probably already out, and Blair would be telling everyone she knew.
“Um-hmm. Do you want me to pick you up?”
“Sure, that would be great!!!” Awesome we would be going together and everyone could see how happy we were. I thought of all these awesome ideas, and I had a huge smile on my face. That was until I walked into class and saw Evan's face. He looked upset, past upset he looked furious. I walked to my seat with Landon right beside me. I tried to keep from looking at Evan as much as possible, it didn't work. I found a seat kinda far way from Evan so I could try to keep my mind off him,but it didn't work either. I sat down next to Landon I snuggled in close to him and he pulled me into a big hug. During the middle of class I got a note addressed to Blair.
I can't believe you!!!
It made me sick to my stomach to see Evan mad at me. I felt bad for Evan, really I did, but how was I supposed to know he was going to ask me out later today.
Shut up Evan!! How was I supposed to know that you were going to ask me out? If you should be mad at anybody you should be mad at yourself for not asking me out earlier.
I sent it back feeling sicker to my stomach than earlier. I looked up to see Landon's face for encouragement. I saw the sympathy in his beautiful vibrant blue eyes as he pulled me into another hug. I almost started crying, but I knew it wouldn't help the cause. The note flew back to the table in a matter of seconds.
Okay, cool it. I know it's just I still like you.
Ugh! Why does he have to make this so complicated. I mean couldn't he just be like I don't like you anymore can we just be friends. I think I have a way to end this though.
Well Evan I didn't like you once, I loved you. But guess what you left me that was your choice. I cried for months in and out, but guess what you didn't come back and it defiantly didn't help. I had to move on like you didn't even exist anymore. There still and always will be that whole in my heart. How am I supposed to forgive you for that. So yeah I loved you with all my heart, and I moved on so now have to do the same.
I sent the note back, at that moment it hit me. The tears came like a waterfall, all the tears from before and the pain I went through came back. Landon looked down in alarm. He whispered in my ear “what's wrong Blair?”
“Nothing, I was just remembering back to a couple of years ago!” I couldn't stop sobbing not even to read the note. I read it with tears dripping on it making the paper see through.
You know I didn't want to go. I'm so, so sorry. I know I could probably never make it up to you, but please give me a chance.
I knew this would kill us both, mostly me, but it had to happen sometime. I was dating Landon and that was that.
NO Evan! Goodbye. Blair:(
It hurt me to hurt Evan, but he didn't have to worry himself over me anymore. He could go on with his life now. It's not like I could break up with Landon, and say yes to Evan. That's just not right. Another class gone by quickly, I finally persuaded Landon to go to lunch with out me. I told him I would be right there after I put my books up. I went to put my books in my locker. I was still trying to get over my crying fit I had in French. I popped open my locker when a letter float down onto the floor. It was addressed to me.
Blair,
I can't believe so harsh as to hurt my brother like that. He never wanted to leave you know. He fought us all to get back to you, but we finally convinced him it was for the best. So why don;t you go and talk to Evan. He's probably in his car. You know Blair, he really loves you. ~ Blake and Eden
I already felt bad enough, why did they have to make me feel worse. I had to go to lunch, or else Landon would come looking for me. And if he saw me with Evan who knows what will happen. I headed to the lunchroom feeling worse than before. I passed the school parking lot and someone in the Bugatti, I guessed it was Evan. The car door opened and I saw Evan step out. We locked eyes for a few minutes, I couldn't stand it anymore so I hurried to the lunchroom. I ran as fast as my legs and boots would let me. I finally reached the lunchroom; I could see Landon with his football friends and the whole Livingston family sitting together. I took a breath to calm myself down and pushed open the doors. I walked over and sat down right beside Landon. Landon flashed me a worried look and I sent back another Don't-Worry-I'm-Okay smile, and the worry disappeared. He smiled and put his arm around me. He continued his conversation about who was going to win the big SHS vs. Clover game this Friday. I felt a couple pair of eyes staring at me from across the room. I turned around to see Blake and Eden staring a t with hatred in Eden's eyes and sympathy in Blake's. I couldn't stand it anymore; I told Landon I forgot to do something and headed out to the school parking lot. I walked over to Evan's car and opened up the passenger side of the car. I slid in and shut the door, Evan must have been sleeping because his eyes flew open. I grabbed Landon's face and kissed him. We finally broke away from each other.
“Evan, you know I still love you, but I can't go out with you. I was able to get over you, but now I'm falling back in. I can't do it Evan I can't. Not now.”
“I know Blair I still love you. I just thought that you seeing me would mean that everything would be forgotten and that you could forgive me.”
“Evan, I had to get over you. You don't know how many times I wished I could die because the pain was so unbearable. Every time I was alone I thought right back to the moment you left me. When I went out with my first boyfriend since you left I broke up with him thirty minutes later because when I kissed him it made me think of you. Don't think it didn't only hurt only you Evan. I just can't do it. Now now and please don't ask me to.”
“Blair, I would never ask you to give up something that made you happy. You should know that already, but please do understand that I would never have left you unless I didn't have another choice. I'm so sorry Blair, let's ditch class and I'll show you how sorry I am.”
“Evan, I can't I'm still dating Landon.” I opened the door to step out Evan caught my hand as I stepped out.
“Blair, please understand that I love you and that I'm so sorry.”
“Evan, I know that you love and that your sorry. One more thing when I said all that stuff today in class. I was only saying it for your own good. I never really wanted to say goodbye, but you don't need to worry or protect me anymore.”
“Blair, I will always worry and protect you nothing you ever say or do will change that. I love you Blair.”
“Love you to Evan.” Biology went fast today we finally got down are pyramid in cheerleading and it was time to go. I dropped Blair off at her house and speed up to around eighty again in about two seconds. I pulled into our driveway ready to finally be home and relax. Today had been very stressful and crazy. There was another Aero just like mine parked beside my mom's 2009 Jaguar XF. I pulled the key out of the ignition and grabbed my bags. I almost tripped on my own two feet going up the steps. I walked into the house and saw my mother with a women seated across from her. I shut the door and both heads snapped to look at me.
“Uh, hey mom who is this?”
“Oh well this is my friend that gave you your car.”
“Oh,wow thanks ma'am. I really love the car.”
For the first the first time since I walked in the house the woman spoke. “Oh, your welcome Blair, you can call me Venus though. Sit we have something to talk about.”
“Okay just let me go put me things up in my room.” I ran upstairs and threw my bags on the bed. I very gracefully floated back down the stairs and into the kitchen. I sat down right beside the lady. She was very young and beautiful; she had light blond hair just like me. With vibrant brown eyes another feature just like me. She started talking again in a very musical voice.
*If u wnt more tell me or else this is the last.*
Blair,
Uh-oh that is a very bad sign.
Are you going out with Landon???
Ugh! Blake is about as nosy as Evan.
No Blake! What does it lo0k like we just found out we are brother and sister. Of course I'm going out with Landon.
I wondered if Landon saw the note, but then I heard him snicker and I knew he had saw the note. Blake passed me back the note saying.
Darn it Blair, Evan's going to be so ticked off!!
What, why would Evan be ticked off. Then I thought back to how Evan had been treating me this morning. Plus how he had been looking at me in the cafeteria and in class. Oh no!!!!!!!
Wait so you mean to tell me that Evan was going to ask me out???!!!
Oh-no this can't be true. I hoped with all my heart that it wasn't true. Maybe Evan just wanted to protect me, not want me to get hurt. My hopes Blair as I thought of other alternatives, but of course they fell when I read the note.
Yes dummy! He was going to ask you out later today.
No, no, no,no! How could this happen I don't want to hurt Evan, but I am going out with Landon now. This is horrible how am I even going to tell him that we are going out. He needs to know though, I also don't want to hurt him. This is so complected.
Well......! What should I do then??
I sent it back to Blake; I was so desperately hoping he had an idea because I had none. It came back in less than a minute. I didn't understand how he wrote so quick and neat it took me about a minute or two before I was done writing a paragraph.
1)Well, you could always not tell him.
2)You could tell him and be like were so happy.
3)Just be all I'm going out with Landon, sorry. I didn't know you wanted to go out with me.
That's all I got right now, but you do know your screwed.
I think I would kind of do a mixture of one and three. I will walk in hand in hand with Landon and sit down at the desk I choose with Landon right next to me.
Yes, I do know I'm screwed but you gave me an idea of my own.
I relaxed in my seat to endure the next ten minutes of this class. We learned that we were going to start learning about classical books this semester. Our first book would be Far from the Madding Crowd. Ugh! Such a drag, classical books are the worst, but what was I supposed to expect. Mr. McArthur passed us each out a copy. He wanted us to read the first chapter tonight. What homework on the first day of school!!! I looked up at Landon to see what he thought of the idea. He didn't show anything he was just looking down at me. I flashed him my Don't-Worry-Everything-Is-Okay smile. I did wondered how much of the conversation he had read. I really don't know and I really don't care. Class finally ended and I stood up and stretched. I hated sitting in class for forever. I went to grab my books and a hand stopped me. I looked up to see Landon staring at me with a crooked grin on his face.
“What Landon, What's so funny?” I had no idea what he thought was so funny.
“Oh nothing, I just thought it was funny that you want to carry your own books when I'm here!!”
“Well, if I'm not going to carry my own books then who is? You!!” Why couldn't I carry my own books. I may be a cheerleader, but I'm not that weak.
“I am silly.” He laughed, kissed me on the forehead, and started to the door. I hurried to catch up with him. We rounded the corner when he slipped the books onto the side of his hip and took my hand. I guess he had read the note and decided he would help me tell Evan that I was dating him.
“Hey, Evan.”
“Yes, Blair.”
“Are you going to Catherine's party this Friday night?” If he wasn't invited, he was now. I wanted to show him off; everyone probably already knew though. The word was probably already out, and Blair would be telling everyone she knew.
“Um-hmm. Do you want me to pick you up?”
“Sure, that would be great!!!” Awesome we would be going together and everyone could see how happy we were. I thought of all these awesome ideas, and I had a huge smile on my face. That was until I walked into class and saw Evan's face. He looked upset, past upset he looked furious. I walked to my seat with Landon right beside me. I tried to keep from looking at Evan as much as possible, it didn't work. I found a seat kinda far way from Evan so I could try to keep my mind off him,but it didn't work either. I sat down next to Landon I snuggled in close to him and he pulled me into a big hug. During the middle of class I got a note addressed to Blair.
I can't believe you!!!
It made me sick to my stomach to see Evan mad at me. I felt bad for Evan, really I did, but how was I supposed to know he was going to ask me out later today.
Shut up Evan!! How was I supposed to know that you were going to ask me out? If you should be mad at anybody you should be mad at yourself for not asking me out earlier.
I sent it back feeling sicker to my stomach than earlier. I looked up to see Landon's face for encouragement. I saw the sympathy in his beautiful vibrant blue eyes as he pulled me into another hug. I almost started crying, but I knew it wouldn't help the cause. The note flew back to the table in a matter of seconds.
Okay, cool it. I know it's just I still like you.
Ugh! Why does he have to make this so complicated. I mean couldn't he just be like I don't like you anymore can we just be friends. I think I have a way to end this though.
Well Evan I didn't like you once, I loved you. But guess what you left me that was your choice. I cried for months in and out, but guess what you didn't come back and it defiantly didn't help. I had to move on like you didn't even exist anymore. There still and always will be that whole in my heart. How am I supposed to forgive you for that. So yeah I loved you with all my heart, and I moved on so now have to do the same.
I sent the note back, at that moment it hit me. The tears came like a waterfall, all the tears from before and the pain I went through came back. Landon looked down in alarm. He whispered in my ear “what's wrong Blair?”
“Nothing, I was just remembering back to a couple of years ago!” I couldn't stop sobbing not even to read the note. I read it with tears dripping on it making the paper see through.
You know I didn't want to go. I'm so, so sorry. I know I could probably never make it up to you, but please give me a chance.
I knew this would kill us both, mostly me, but it had to happen sometime. I was dating Landon and that was that.
NO Evan! Goodbye. Blair:(
It hurt me to hurt Evan, but he didn't have to worry himself over me anymore. He could go on with his life now. It's not like I could break up with Landon, and say yes to Evan. That's just not right. Another class gone by quickly, I finally persuaded Landon to go to lunch with out me. I told him I would be right there after I put my books up. I went to put my books in my locker. I was still trying to get over my crying fit I had in French. I popped open my locker when a letter float down onto the floor. It was addressed to me.
Blair,
I can't believe so harsh as to hurt my brother like that. He never wanted to leave you know. He fought us all to get back to you, but we finally convinced him it was for the best. So why don;t you go and talk to Evan. He's probably in his car. You know Blair, he really loves you. ~ Blake and Eden
I already felt bad enough, why did they have to make me feel worse. I had to go to lunch, or else Landon would come looking for me. And if he saw me with Evan who knows what will happen. I headed to the lunchroom feeling worse than before. I passed the school parking lot and someone in the Bugatti, I guessed it was Evan. The car door opened and I saw Evan step out. We locked eyes for a few minutes, I couldn't stand it anymore so I hurried to the lunchroom. I ran as fast as my legs and boots would let me. I finally reached the lunchroom; I could see Landon with his football friends and the whole Livingston family sitting together. I took a breath to calm myself down and pushed open the doors. I walked over and sat down right beside Landon. Landon flashed me a worried look and I sent back another Don't-Worry-I'm-Okay smile, and the worry disappeared. He smiled and put his arm around me. He continued his conversation about who was going to win the big SHS vs. Clover game this Friday. I felt a couple pair of eyes staring at me from across the room. I turned around to see Blake and Eden staring a t with hatred in Eden's eyes and sympathy in Blake's. I couldn't stand it anymore; I told Landon I forgot to do something and headed out to the school parking lot. I walked over to Evan's car and opened up the passenger side of the car. I slid in and shut the door, Evan must have been sleeping because his eyes flew open. I grabbed Landon's face and kissed him. We finally broke away from each other.
“Evan, you know I still love you, but I can't go out with you. I was able to get over you, but now I'm falling back in. I can't do it Evan I can't. Not now.”
“I know Blair I still love you. I just thought that you seeing me would mean that everything would be forgotten and that you could forgive me.”
“Evan, I had to get over you. You don't know how many times I wished I could die because the pain was so unbearable. Every time I was alone I thought right back to the moment you left me. When I went out with my first boyfriend since you left I broke up with him thirty minutes later because when I kissed him it made me think of you. Don't think it didn't only hurt only you Evan. I just can't do it. Now now and please don't ask me to.”
“Blair, I would never ask you to give up something that made you happy. You should know that already, but please do understand that I would never have left you unless I didn't have another choice. I'm so sorry Blair, let's ditch class and I'll show you how sorry I am.”
“Evan, I can't I'm still dating Landon.” I opened the door to step out Evan caught my hand as I stepped out.
“Blair, please understand that I love you and that I'm so sorry.”
“Evan, I know that you love and that your sorry. One more thing when I said all that stuff today in class. I was only saying it for your own good. I never really wanted to say goodbye, but you don't need to worry or protect me anymore.”
“Blair, I will always worry and protect you nothing you ever say or do will change that. I love you Blair.”
“Love you to Evan.” Biology went fast today we finally got down are pyramid in cheerleading and it was time to go. I dropped Blair off at her house and speed up to around eighty again in about two seconds. I pulled into our driveway ready to finally be home and relax. Today had been very stressful and crazy. There was another Aero just like mine parked beside my mom's 2009 Jaguar XF. I pulled the key out of the ignition and grabbed my bags. I almost tripped on my own two feet going up the steps. I walked into the house and saw my mother with a women seated across from her. I shut the door and both heads snapped to look at me.
“Uh, hey mom who is this?”
“Oh well this is my friend that gave you your car.”
“Oh,wow thanks ma'am. I really love the car.”
For the first the first time since I walked in the house the woman spoke. “Oh, your welcome Blair, you can call me Venus though. Sit we have something to talk about.”
“Okay just let me go put me things up in my room.” I ran upstairs and threw my bags on the bed. I very gracefully floated back down the stairs and into the kitchen. I sat down right beside the lady. She was very young and beautiful; she had light blond hair just like me. With vibrant brown eyes another feature just like me. She started talking again in a very musical voice.
*If u wnt more tell me or else this is the last.*
