Sick Puppies :P

The window's cracked, I'm looking out
I see her and I'm filled with doubt
I don't know if this parking place
Is just another empty space
Words I've said aren't coming true
I don't know if it's me or you
This promise is too hard to keep
I have to speak

So what, I lied
But the truth would've been suicide
Monogamy is all she wants from me
But I see my life
And it's way too short
Don't blame me for not being subservient to others'
needs
I'm at the point where honesty just doesn't fucking
work for me

I did my best to try and be
A mirror of society
But we both know the mirror's cracked
And everybody's in the act
Faking...

Take me for a ride when I don't even know the set-up,
Get into a fight just to make the sex better,
You got a hold of me but there ain't nothing here that's holding you down.

I believed in this except it wasn't getting better,
You got me in the middle but I never found the center,
Even when you know what I know it's not stopping you now.

I can't always see what's in front of me.
No I can hardly breathe,
Suffocating me,
Bleeding it out,
All over the ground.

Tell me when it's over,
Wake me when I'm sober,
The scars [are] too hard to hide,
I should've known better,
If only I could be strong enough to see that...

Age five just a little boy shy is he ready for the big surprise
Hell be playin lego in a dream when the shadows come to life
Age nine well he shoulda been fine with a secret hes sure to keep
Two times had to tell a little lie for the sake of him and me
Now its over
I need closure

HEY! look what you did to me
When you where takin me home gettin me stoned leave me alone
Ive waited for mom to comfort me
But when i open my mouth
Dont say, nuthin, shhh

Age 12 and it isnt goin well
Now its three years to the day
Confused but unlike you this feelin wont go away
16 and the woman down the street
Has invited him to...

I held onto you for as long as I could but today
You fell away
Now what I hold are the memories we barely made
I stood on the edge of your bridge until I felt the rain
Wash me away
My confusion left me fast as the vertigo came

What I believed to be true it was only a dream
Believed in me
I just projected it over your beautiful screen
I self medicated my way through this mess that we made
So I could stay
There was nothing, but I waited
I waited

This was my mistake
Broken are plans we made
So I will be traveling any place
Cuz anywhere's better than
Here we rest in peace
Rubble beneath the feet

I shouldn't have...