If it Kills Me
This is a songfic I wrote in about… um… 35 minutes. I got super inspired, because this song makes me think of stuff that leads to me thinking about Duncan and Gwen’s relationship. So it’s this whole, really complicated train of thought thing. I had to write this really quick, so sorry if a few of the lyrics are off. The song is If it Kills Me by Jason Mraz. ENJOY!
~~~Gwen’s::P.O.V.~~~
I was on my bed listening to my iPod on shuffle. I was trying to get my mind off of things. You see, I was in love with my best friend Duncan. But he had a girlfriend. All of a sudden, the song came on. The song that described my situation to a T. If it Kills Me by Jason Mraz. I sighed, listening to the lyrics I’d listened to countless other times.
Hello. Tell me you know, yeah you figured me out
Something gave it away
It would be such a beautiful moment to see the look on your face
I know that I know that you know now
I don’t know exactly what would happen if Duncan knew how I felt about him, but I wish he would figure it out. It would make it a lot easier for me. Plus, I’m sure the look on his face would be priceless.
Well, Baby, that’s a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
*Sigh* But wishes don’t get you anywhere. He didn’t know my feelings, and probably never would.
ou and I, why we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better than you and your boyfriend
I loved it when we just talked and teased each other and laughed for hours. Come to think of it, we did get along way better than he and his girlfriend, Courtney. Those two were always arguing about something.
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
I just want to love him. As more than a friend. I wanted us to be together more than anything else in the world. I wish I could say it, but I just can’t, even after everything we’ve been through together.
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me
I just wanted him to feel the same way I did. And my love for him just builds and builds every day.
How long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you
Before I rightly explode
I want to kiss him so badly every time I see him. I nearly explode trying to keep myself from it.
Well, this double life I lead isn’t healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught, I could be risking it all
I can’t keep going on like this, pretending I only want us to be friends. It’s not healthy. But if he finds out, I could be risking our entire friendship.
But maybe there’s a lot that I’ll miss in case I’m wrong
But if I’m wrong, and he WOULD feel the same way, I could be missing out on so much.
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
All I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me
If I should be so bold, I’d ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I’d tell you from the start how I’d longed to be your man
If I were bold enough, I would tell him everything. I would tell him how I longed for us to be together, and ask him to be my boyfriend.
But I never said a word
I guess I’m gonna miss my chance again
But I’ve never said a word. I guess, if I continue to sit back and not say anything, I’m going to miss my chance yet again.
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel my as the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me
I will find a way to be with Duncan. Even if it kills me.
It might kill me
And it just might.
I hope you like this. It’s my first songfic, and I tried pretty hard on it, despite what little time I had. The new chapter for my other fanfiction will hopefully be up tomorrow. I hope this satisfies your reading needs. Please REVIEW! The more reviews I get, the more inspired I get, and the faster I update my stories. Thanks in advance!
This is a songfic I wrote in about… um… 35 minutes. I got super inspired, because this song makes me think of stuff that leads to me thinking about Duncan and Gwen’s relationship. So it’s this whole, really complicated train of thought thing. I had to write this really quick, so sorry if a few of the lyrics are off. The song is If it Kills Me by Jason Mraz. ENJOY!
~~~Gwen’s::P.O.V.~~~
I was on my bed listening to my iPod on shuffle. I was trying to get my mind off of things. You see, I was in love with my best friend Duncan. But he had a girlfriend. All of a sudden, the song came on. The song that described my situation to a T. If it Kills Me by Jason Mraz. I sighed, listening to the lyrics I’d listened to countless other times.
Hello. Tell me you know, yeah you figured me out
Something gave it away
It would be such a beautiful moment to see the look on your face
I know that I know that you know now
I don’t know exactly what would happen if Duncan knew how I felt about him, but I wish he would figure it out. It would make it a lot easier for me. Plus, I’m sure the look on his face would be priceless.
Well, Baby, that’s a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
*Sigh* But wishes don’t get you anywhere. He didn’t know my feelings, and probably never would.
ou and I, why we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better than you and your boyfriend
I loved it when we just talked and teased each other and laughed for hours. Come to think of it, we did get along way better than he and his girlfriend, Courtney. Those two were always arguing about something.
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
I just want to love him. As more than a friend. I wanted us to be together more than anything else in the world. I wish I could say it, but I just can’t, even after everything we’ve been through together.
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me
I just wanted him to feel the same way I did. And my love for him just builds and builds every day.
How long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you
Before I rightly explode
I want to kiss him so badly every time I see him. I nearly explode trying to keep myself from it.
Well, this double life I lead isn’t healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught, I could be risking it all
I can’t keep going on like this, pretending I only want us to be friends. It’s not healthy. But if he finds out, I could be risking our entire friendship.
But maybe there’s a lot that I’ll miss in case I’m wrong
But if I’m wrong, and he WOULD feel the same way, I could be missing out on so much.
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
All I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me
If I should be so bold, I’d ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I’d tell you from the start how I’d longed to be your man
If I were bold enough, I would tell him everything. I would tell him how I longed for us to be together, and ask him to be my boyfriend.
But I never said a word
I guess I’m gonna miss my chance again
But I’ve never said a word. I guess, if I continue to sit back and not say anything, I’m going to miss my chance yet again.
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel my as the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me, if it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me
Well, all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me
I will find a way to be with Duncan. Even if it kills me.
It might kill me
And it just might.
I hope you like this. It’s my first songfic, and I tried pretty hard on it, despite what little time I had. The new chapter for my other fanfiction will hopefully be up tomorrow. I hope this satisfies your reading needs. Please REVIEW! The more reviews I get, the more inspired I get, and the faster I update my stories. Thanks in advance!