I'm crying.
I'm scared.
Why do I have to go through this?
The pain.
The hate.
I know why I have to go through this.
A pure sould died with my life.
Dieing.
Screaming.
Yearning.
I can not take this any longer.
In the bathroom.
Lights are out.
The tub is full of hot water.
I look at myself in the mirrow.
Ugly.
Stupid.
Horrable.
All I see is a ugly red head with clear eyes.
Someone who should have never been born.
I play it over and over in my head.
*You killed your mother*
It never stops.
It never will.
I hold the razor in my hand.
I hear the voises.
I cut.
The cool razor slices into my skin.
The heat for the blood.
I lay down in the tub.
The water is hot.
but I am cold.
I close my eyes and call for my mom.
no answer.
I sink lower.
The red water covers my face.
A life for a life.
I killed my mom.
So I must suffer and die.
Laying in blood like she was.
I do not care anymore.
I welcome death.
Mom I am coming home.
I'm scared.
Why do I have to go through this?
The pain.
The hate.
I know why I have to go through this.
A pure sould died with my life.
Dieing.
Screaming.
Yearning.
I can not take this any longer.
In the bathroom.
Lights are out.
The tub is full of hot water.
I look at myself in the mirrow.
Ugly.
Stupid.
Horrable.
All I see is a ugly red head with clear eyes.
Someone who should have never been born.
I play it over and over in my head.
*You killed your mother*
It never stops.
It never will.
I hold the razor in my hand.
I hear the voises.
I cut.
The cool razor slices into my skin.
The heat for the blood.
I lay down in the tub.
The water is hot.
but I am cold.
I close my eyes and call for my mom.
no answer.
I sink lower.
The red water covers my face.
A life for a life.
I killed my mom.
So I must suffer and die.
Laying in blood like she was.
I do not care anymore.
I welcome death.
Mom I am coming home.
I sit here my dark corner.
Crying.
Screaming.
Cutting.
Not careing.
Wanting to die.
I am lost.
I am alone.
I am unloved.
Thats all I ever wanted.
Someone to call me theirs.
Someone to love me.
Someone to hold me.
Someone to tell me they love me.
That they want me.
That they need me.
Someone to hold me threw this storm.
I am screaming for help.
no one ever answers.
No one ever does.
I stand alone in the cold world.
Dressed in all black.
Welcoming death.
Praying for death.
There is no way out for me.
Lost,Alone,Unloved.
Crying.
Screaming.
Cutting.
Not careing.
Wanting to die.
I am lost.
I am alone.
I am unloved.
Thats all I ever wanted.
Someone to call me theirs.
Someone to love me.
Someone to hold me.
Someone to tell me they love me.
That they want me.
That they need me.
Someone to hold me threw this storm.
I am screaming for help.
no one ever answers.
No one ever does.
I stand alone in the cold world.
Dressed in all black.
Welcoming death.
Praying for death.
There is no way out for me.
Lost,Alone,Unloved.