*Note* This is a true story. Everything in this article is true, and if you're a friend of mine, you should be able to accept my past and who I am today. If not, then that's that. Get your fake ass off my club.
A long time ago, in 2009... I joined Fanpop for the first time.
Back then, there was a main chat that everyone could log into, and everyone could talk in one chat room at the same time. I thought it was interesting, so I decided to enter the chat. I entered multiple times, but nobody ever cared to talk to me, and whenever I'd say something, people would ignore me.
I don't have any friends. Well, I didn't have friends back then either. I haven't had friends since fifth grade. And so it hurt to be ignored in real life AND online. It hurt a lot.
Well... While I was in the main chat, I noticed that everyone talked to the boys consistently. I was jealous that they got so much attention...so I made a fake account. I posed as a boy in order to gain friends and to gain popularity with people.
Eventually, my popularity grew. It got to the point where EVERYONE knew who I was. Whenever I'd enter the chat, people would go wild. Literally. That's how I met Cassi.
My username was Dizzo, but everyone knew me as Dizzo the DJ. Dizzo is a character I came up with before I even found Fanpop, and I figured that everyone would love his personality, so I pretended to be him for the crowd. Cassi and Dizzo became the best of friends.
We'd talk every day. But soon, after three years of lying, my parents found out about my double life. They threatened to take away everything. They wanted me to expose who I was to Cassi and to all of my friends I'd made. My mom made me leave Fanpop multiple times, because I refused to expose who I really was. I was scared Cassi wouldn't like the real me.
I was scared about what everyone would think - to find out their friend, Dizzo, was actually a teenage girl looking for friends. Everyone would probably be more shocked than you could imagine. I had more friends than you could think of. I told so many lies. I was very deceitful, and a lot of problems came up along the way. Cassi fell in love with Dizzo. She developed feelings for him, and that was hard to deal with.
I didn't want to hurt her. I didn't want to tell her that her crush was actually a girl. It would devastate her. I was so scared... I'd gotten myself into some deep, deep shit... >____> I kept sneaking on to talk to everyone behind my parents' back. It went on like this for awhile, until my mom found out AGAIN.
I was screaming and crying and pleading with my mother in the living room to let me figure it out on my own. But she kept persisting.
She kept telling me to end my double life for good, or she'd do it for me. It was the scariest three years of my life... But eventually, my mom relented. She let me continue the lie, because she knew that it was hard for me, and she wanted me to come to terms with what I'd done on my own.
So...this year...in February... On February 17th, I made a video. It was about fifteen minutes long, and I exposed who I really was. It became too much for me to bear. The guilt was excruciating. I told everyone everything through the video. I told them who I was. I told them why I did it. I answered questions I thought might come up.
And I apologized with tears in my eyes for hurting them so badly... Cassi WAS devastated... She was really hurt... Everyone was... But they all forgave me. Even though Cassi had a crush on the boy I'd pretended to be, she still felt that she wanted to be my best friend. I deleted Dizzo's account on February 17th, and I had 1,478 fans. Some people still don't know. I only shared the video with my closest friends and left it at that. So now, here we are - in the present. I created this account shortly afterward in March. And this is the way it's been since...
A long time ago, in 2009... I joined Fanpop for the first time.
Back then, there was a main chat that everyone could log into, and everyone could talk in one chat room at the same time. I thought it was interesting, so I decided to enter the chat. I entered multiple times, but nobody ever cared to talk to me, and whenever I'd say something, people would ignore me.
I don't have any friends. Well, I didn't have friends back then either. I haven't had friends since fifth grade. And so it hurt to be ignored in real life AND online. It hurt a lot.
Well... While I was in the main chat, I noticed that everyone talked to the boys consistently. I was jealous that they got so much attention...so I made a fake account. I posed as a boy in order to gain friends and to gain popularity with people.
Eventually, my popularity grew. It got to the point where EVERYONE knew who I was. Whenever I'd enter the chat, people would go wild. Literally. That's how I met Cassi.
My username was Dizzo, but everyone knew me as Dizzo the DJ. Dizzo is a character I came up with before I even found Fanpop, and I figured that everyone would love his personality, so I pretended to be him for the crowd. Cassi and Dizzo became the best of friends.
We'd talk every day. But soon, after three years of lying, my parents found out about my double life. They threatened to take away everything. They wanted me to expose who I was to Cassi and to all of my friends I'd made. My mom made me leave Fanpop multiple times, because I refused to expose who I really was. I was scared Cassi wouldn't like the real me.
I was scared about what everyone would think - to find out their friend, Dizzo, was actually a teenage girl looking for friends. Everyone would probably be more shocked than you could imagine. I had more friends than you could think of. I told so many lies. I was very deceitful, and a lot of problems came up along the way. Cassi fell in love with Dizzo. She developed feelings for him, and that was hard to deal with.
I didn't want to hurt her. I didn't want to tell her that her crush was actually a girl. It would devastate her. I was so scared... I'd gotten myself into some deep, deep shit... >____> I kept sneaking on to talk to everyone behind my parents' back. It went on like this for awhile, until my mom found out AGAIN.
I was screaming and crying and pleading with my mother in the living room to let me figure it out on my own. But she kept persisting.
She kept telling me to end my double life for good, or she'd do it for me. It was the scariest three years of my life... But eventually, my mom relented. She let me continue the lie, because she knew that it was hard for me, and she wanted me to come to terms with what I'd done on my own.
So...this year...in February... On February 17th, I made a video. It was about fifteen minutes long, and I exposed who I really was. It became too much for me to bear. The guilt was excruciating. I told everyone everything through the video. I told them who I was. I told them why I did it. I answered questions I thought might come up.
And I apologized with tears in my eyes for hurting them so badly... Cassi WAS devastated... She was really hurt... Everyone was... But they all forgave me. Even though Cassi had a crush on the boy I'd pretended to be, she still felt that she wanted to be my best friend. I deleted Dizzo's account on February 17th, and I had 1,478 fans. Some people still don't know. I only shared the video with my closest friends and left it at that. So now, here we are - in the present. I created this account shortly afterward in March. And this is the way it's been since...