Chapter 18 A Second Honeymoon (Jake’s POV)

*** This chapter has adult content- you've been warned lol...***

I was worried about Kate, Garrett, Carmen and Eleazer and Tanya but part of me knew that if anything horrible was going on Alice and Amore would see it especially now that the Denali’s were out of Forks and no longer close to werewolves. Perhaps Kate and Garrett were just held up with friends or rounding people up. Since Sam and Emily had been spending so much time with us during Nessie’s pregnancy it was helpful that Amore could see the wolves otherwise with the possibility of the Volturi descending it would not have been safe for them to be here as Alice was blind with them near.
I felt a little selfish but I had to have some time alone with my wife. Our honeymoon had been spent for the most part with her being sick (little did we know she was pregnant) and then the past few weeks of our lives had been difficult to say the least. Now that I knew Renesmee was whole again and as strong as I was I needed to have her in my arms with reckless abandon. Just being focused on my time with her. I set up a plan in my mind to take her camping plus she really needed to go hunting her eyes had quickly blackened and circles ensued yet she kept her composure around our babies. She was just as controlled as Seth, Leah and I were when we were first changed. I pulled Bella aside and spoke with her briefly explaining all of this and she smiled at me.
“It is completely understandable Jake. You two need some time alone. We will gladly take care of the babies. What are your plans?”
I smiled widely. “Well she needs to hunt so I figured I would take her to Rainier for 1 or 2 days.
Bella chuckled, “Well hopefully there will be some mountain lion left for her.” I hugged her in response.
“Thanks Bells.” She gripped my arms tightly and pulled me back so that she could meet my eyes.
“No, Jake. Thank you. I couldn’t have chosen a better husband for my daughter the way that you stood by her… I am sorry that this has been so hard for you and that I was so difficult. I never should have treated you the way that I did-” her voice broke. I pulled her into a big hug.
“Bells don’t apologize she is your daughter I can understand that connection now I can’t imagine how I would have reacted if it was one of my girls.”
She straightened herself up and grinned, “Well now it is all over and we can just put it behind us.”
The smile left my face, “I can’t. Every time that I look at her I will remember that I killed her…”
She smacked my arm and it was so loud that the voices in the other room stopped momentarily. Bella poked her head into the room and smiled to let everyone know it was ok and then she turned back to me whispering violently, “Knock it off Jacob. It is not your fault everything is fine. If you are expecting a romantic get away with her you had better not talk like that. You know that she won’t put up with it.”
I sighed and decided to try to keep my self hatred disclosed I truly would not ever forgive myself for what had transpired.
I followed Bella back into the living room and took kissed Nessie’s cheek. I have to go and do something, I will be back soon.
Her eyes clouded over briefly and then she smiled at me, “I love you,” she trilled.
“I love you too.”
She whispered in my ear, “Hurry back.” The feeling of her breath on my ear sent chills down my spine.
“Of course.” I whispered back as I pulled her into my arms carefully so as not to squish Eli who was still in her arms sleeping contentedly. My lips found hers and as our kiss became more intense numerous throats cleared mingling with a few groans of disgust.
“Ew Jake,” Leah thought silently.
I snickered as I kissed Nessie’s nose and headed out. I got on to my motorcycle for the first time. I had never been happier my wife and children were fine, I was riding a freaking Ducati and I was heading to a jeweler in Port Angeles for the first step in plan for second honeymoon for my beautiful wife.
After I purchased some random items from Port Angeles I stopped in to see my father in La Push.
He was waiting by the door with a big smile on his face.
“Renesmee called me, congratulations Son.”
Thanks dad.”
“So when do I get to meet my grandkids?” He asked with a glean in his eye.
“Just as soon as we know that they won’t bite.” I chuckled.
My father shuddered slightly but smiled back, he was getting used to the fact that he was a blood relative of his mortal enemy but there were times such as no that it still caught him off guard.
“I am going to be out in the garage, I am making something for Nessie.”
“Oh?” I let my father in on my plan and he smiled.
“Jake that is a wonderful idea, she is going o love it.”
“I hope so,” I grinned. He hugged me and then I set off for the garage.
It was amazing to me how much more I could accomplish as a vampire. My little project would have taken months before and I finished it in a little over an hour. I wrapped the box carefully and said good bye to my father promising that I would call him to come for a visit as soon as we knew that it would be safe and then I headed back to the house to get some last minute things that I had asked Alice to gather for me before heading to the sight of our camping trip. Once I had everything set up satisfactorily, I headed back to gather my stunning bride and the mother of my children.
She didn’t want to leave the babies and I felt horrible to make her go when I noticed that she was moments away from falling apart.
Sarah reached for her imperiously and Nessie took her into her arms. Sarah placed a hand on my cheek and a hand on hers.
“Mommy, you need to go spend some time with daddy. I will keep my brothers and sisters under control.
Baby Jake emitted what sounded like a tiny attempt at a snarl.
Sarah’s little head whipped over in his direction, her eyes taking on the same somber yet calm expression that her Uncle Sam had flashed in my direction many times. Her little voice filled our heads as she spoke to her unruly Beta.
“Jacob that is enough. Mommy and daddy will be fine.”
He wrinkled his little nose at her angrily.
Sarah’s voice rang out again only this time it was severe; she was issuing an alpha command.
“Jacob Edward Black I am the Alpha not you, you will listen o me. Now ENOUGH. They will be fine, daddy can protect her just fine.” Jacob whimpered into silence unhappily. Sarah turned back to us and nodded.
“Like I said it will be fine, I am in control. Go, have fun.”
Nessie and I stared at our daughter in amazement.
Nessie’s voice broke, “But Sarah honey you are a newborn, you need us.”
Sarah looked into her eyes wisely, “Daddy needs you too mama…” I squeezed my wife’s hand as she clasped Sarah to her chest. “I love you… nothing was you fault understood?”
Sarah nodded solemnly as Nessie kissed her.
We both went down the line kissing each of our children goodbye. The family promised to take care of them and Seth and Leah vowed to send me reports of the kids well being.
“As long as YOU don’t send US play by plays of your little excursion.” Leah said snidely. Nessie laughed and I pulled her out of the door. The whole time she stared behind us watching as our babies drifted farther and farther behind us. It didn’t feel natural it was hard but we needed this…

“Where are you taking me?” She finally asked in her lilting voice of velvet.
I pulled her closer to my side as I whispered into her ear, “You know some of the best things in life are those that remain a surprise.”
She giggled, “I think that I have had enough surprises to last me for eternity.”
I grimaced as I realized what she was referring to and caved.
“I set up a campsite for us we are staying in Rainier for a couple of days so that you can hunt some of the mountain lion that you love so much.”
Her little nose wrinkled in disdain, “Ugh.”
“What?” My body tensed itself out of reflex from the past few weeks.
“The thought of mountain lion… I –uh have had my fill…” she shuddered visibly but quickly recovered it when she saw my face. I thought that had taken her to do something that she would be excited about.
“Oh, Jake its fine sweetheart you are so thoughtful, you are truly too good to me. I am sure that I will find something that I want I am just happy to be with you.”
I looked down she thought that I was good to her? I killed her.
“What is it?” Her blackened eyes searched me.
I was going to attempt to hold it in but I couldn’t I grabbed her shoulders and my voice quivered.
“Renesmee how can you say that I am good for you? I KILLED you…”
She advanced on me speaking firmly,
“Jacob Black you listen to me and listen good because we will not be having this discussion again. None of this was your fault.”
I snorted and looked down but a snarl ripped through her throat as she forced my face back up to hers viciously pulling it so that inches separated us.
“What happened in the past stays there,” she hissed. “ You have done nothing wrong you gave me what I wanted, you stood by me, took care of me and loved me putting me first the entire time.
“Nessie –I’m no good for you…” She pulled my shirt and slammed my body into hers.
“Stop talking shit about the man that I love,” she growled as she pressed her lips against mine. I groaned as her once soft lips held their own against mine for the first time. Her tongue found mine and wrestled it into submission. Although neither of us needed to breathe we were both gasping as she pulled away.
She placed her hands on my face and her voice rang through my mind.
“Every time that you speak poorly of yourself you are hurting me- so please stop. I love you more than anything, I do not blame you, it is no ones fault and it is over. Understood?”
I nodded my head, if it was going to hurt her I wouldn’t say anything further about the matter.
She smiled as she purred silkily in my ear, “Good now lets hunt…”
I grinned at her as we tore through the woods together.
Renesmee had always been perfect in my eyes but after changing she was beyond me. She was a goddess, watching her hunt was by far one of the most seductive things I had witnessed in my existence. As I began to drain a deer myself I watched Nessie. She came upon a deer and immediately crouched down and then silently stalked her prey. There was something different about her since the birth of our children and her changing. She appeared older somehow, wiser and definitely sexier. As she leapt onto the deer and sunk her teeth into it something inside of me snapped I had to have her… now.
I dropped the beast that I had emptied and was at my wife’s side in one fluid movement she had pulled back from the deer for a moment still unaware that I was by her side. Her head was tilted all the way back and her eyes were closed. Blood dripped down her chin as she groaned in pleasure the blood must have felt amazing on her parched throat. Her head snapped up as she realized that I was next to her and she gasped at my expression; what must have looked like the lustful eyes of a wild man.
She dropped her deer in shock her breathing became uneven as mine was. I scooped her up into my arms and ran to the campsite my eyes never leaving hers. I followed my scent that led me to the trail from when I had come out and set it all up.
As her eyes fell upon what I had created for her she took in a sharp breath.
“Jake!” She whispered as she stared at the Eastern style paradise I had arranged only for her. The tent was set up with the flaps open and the mattress full of silk throw pillows with the gauzy overlay billowed gently in the breeze. Candles burned and a fire roared outside of the tent.
She opened her mouth to speak but I just shook my head all the while my eyes burned into hers. I placed her down onto the mattress and leaned in close to her. It was so odd that her heart wasn’t beating out of her chest like it normally would- it kind of made me uneasy but I got over it.
As I leaned down she brought her face to mine to kiss me… but that wasn’t what I was going for. I gently brought the tip of my tongue to her chin and followed the trail of blood down her neck, to its end in the middle of her chest. I felt my breathing pick up the combination of the taste of blood on my tongue mingling with her new and stronger scent was fascinating, blood had never tasted so good. It awakened such a deep desire in me that I was in awe. Here I had thought that Nessie and I were perfect together before she was changed little did I know it would be even better afterwards. I was beyond addicted to her.
She had stared at me questioningly in the beginning but once she figured out what I was doing her perfect eyes fluttered shut and her hands were in my hair as she breathed in little gasps.
I brought my lips back to hers and she growled flipping me onto my back as she clamped down firmly on my lower lip. I realized with satisfaction that her animalistic side had developed more fully and was apparently now a part of her personality. If every night could be like that night in the Rain Forest... I groaned as she tore my shirt off of me. Her smooth lips danced across my neck causing me to shiver. I felt myself losing control and started to get a hold of myself when I had a realization.
I never had to worry about that again. She was just as strong as I was- she was no longer part human. She couldn’t bleed, and I didn’t have to worry about her heart stopping. Imagine the possibilities… I growled and clawed her shirt off and then my hands trailed down to her hips as I pulled her as close to my body as possible. She draped herself over me, our eyes locked onto each other and our bodies shared the same rhythm.
The desire for the combination of blood and her skin took me over again as I gently lifted her off of me and placed her on the bed. She groaned unhappily as I exited the tent.
My eyes lit up as I caught the scent of what I was looking for. I came across a rabbit- I didn’t need anything large. I broke its neck and then ran back to the tent where she was waiting for me. She was propped up with her elbows supporting her behind her back. Her hair fell past her shoulders covering her exposed chest. I froze in the entry way staring at her. The fire was casting shadows and highlighting her already perfect body accentuating every painstakingly beautiful feature. Her sultry crimson eyes penetrated me as a smirk parted her perfect lips.
“Did I intimidate the big bad wolf?” She snarled playfully.
I shook my head. I couldn’t speak I was literally stunned by her beauty. I slowly walked over to her. She looked confused as I pushed her back onto the mattress and pushed her silky hair back. I took our prey and bit into its flesh until blood spurted out. I dripped it in a trail along her chest and stomach, where most of it pooled in her belly button. She closed her eyes at the warmth of it and a moan started to form on her lips. I fell over her and I dragged my tongue along the bloody trail along her chest and stomach collecting the drips of blood as she gasped and moaned my name.
I brought my mouth to hers our tongues entwined as I shared the blood with her. Our breathing came out in frantic intervals. She brought her hands to my chest and trailed down to my abdomen. Her fingers shot currents through every cell in my body down to my toes I groaned as I ripped at her pants removing them in one swipe. She rolled on top of me destroying my shorts as she clawed them off. I hoisted her onto my lap appreciating the feel of her skin on mine. It awakened every square inch of my body heart and mind from the coma it had been in since she had begun to die. I literally needed her to survive.
I met her gaze, her eyes were slightly unfocused as though she were in a different time and place.
“Renesmee?” My voice was husky as I addressed her.
“mmm?…” she said breathlessly.
“ When I thought I lost you… I can’t be away from you. I need you. I would die without you.”
She brought her lips to my ear and grazed it with her tongue.
“Well then it’s a good thing that I am never going anywhere again, isn’t it. You have me now and forever Jacob Black.”
My voice caught in my throat, “Just when I thought that I couldn’t possibly love you anymore than I already do…” I whispered.
She pressed her hands against my cheeks, “As I do you…” trilled through my head.
I was caught up in so many emotions that I couldn’t describe it, I thought back to less than 24 hours ago when I thought that I had lost her. Now I had everything my wife and children. The happiness and fervor that overtook me was indescribable. Her scent and touch became too much for me to resist. I growled and pulled her onto me fully as she gasped pressing her forehead against mine. I whispered her name over and over again, her hair enveloped me and a moan immediately left her lips.
I groaned flipping her so that she was laying on her back and falling into her deeper as her moans turned into screams of passion that I quickly silenced with my lips. Her nails dug into my back holding me to her in a death grip; yet it wasn’t necessary. I was already held to her by a force much stronger than life and death.