(end of chapter 4)
I ran as fast as I could deep into the jungle and to my surprise I didn’t even tripped once I continued running when I saw a boy he was 16 or 17 with blond hair he came closer when I noticed his red eyes I gasped and took a step back
-hello I'm matt
He said with a musical voice he took a step closer I didn’t know what to do I just stood still and looked at him I didn’t want to die I wanted to face edward someday and take my……………………..
-you don’t look scared ,now why is that?
Does always vamps want their victims to be scared? I shuddered at the memory of James and sighed
-why do you care don’t you want to suck my blood and kill me??
I asked bored what a stupid vampire!
-actually no , I have been alone for so long maybe 100 years or more I'm really not a fan counting years……….
I cut him off
-so you don’t want to kill me?
-so what do you want to do with me?
-I don’t know if your lucky and I could control my thirst I will like to change you and by some miracle you know what I am , how do you know did you know others?
-yes my BOY FRIEND that I HATE very much and his family
I said my voice full of anger and hatered
-wow your bf was a vampire?
He asked stunned
-so why do you hate him?
I told him the story and when the story ended there was sadness in his eyes
-Why are you sad?
I asked him but he changed the subject
-First of all I don’t know your name? now that's more important than my sadness
-I'm Bella ,Bella swan
-I love your name its Italian isn’t it?
-yes but you didn’t answer my question?
-your stubborn aren’t you?
-I am, so answer my question !
-you know you should be scared of me but here you stand arguing with me!!!
He said stunned again
-I'm really not like everyone else , and I know I cant escape from you if I wanted to , now answer my question why were you sad?
I groaned under my breath
-Bella I was like you 100 years ago I lived in London I had 3 sisters and 2 brothers we lived together then one day I saw this beautiful girl in the woods I went closer to see who she was we talked and talked and talked every day then she told me the truth , what she was but I didn’t care I really loved her one night she came into my room and said she wanted to change me into a vampire after 3 days I was like her but we were so happy together we lived in Alaska years passed and then….. then one day a big army of vampire attacked her I tried to save her but I couldn’t my gift wasn’t useful enough……………..
He looked so sad then he looked at me and forced a smile on his face and continued
-after searching fore years to see why they killed her I discovered why.
He stopped and sighed I really wanted to know why?
-why did they kill her?
I asked sadness in my voice
-long before I was born she used to live with this coven um, sherry , Sarah, Mary, Alex, Christopher ,carol ,Irina and her.
-what was her name?
I asked maybe I’ve heard of her
-Suzan , she had red ……. She was so beautiful but now I have moved on not going to ruin my life cr…………
I cut him off
-I know what you mean
-Bella would you stay with me foreve?r we could be together you know you’re the first person I told ypu this
-me too you just know my story
I said and moved closer to him something inside me told me his not dangerous
-will you ??
He asked again hoping I would say yes I thought about it I felt kind of complete with him ,not like edward that I hate now, like I could tell him anything and besides I had nothing to lose edward had moved on so should i.
I said a little happy and sighed he moved closer to me took in my sent and said
-thank you I really didn’t like being alone.
And he moved on to my neck still taking in the sent then he pulled over
-what if I cant do it??
He said pain in his eyes he wasn’t as good as edward in holding an emotion less face I liked it at list I could be sure what he was feeling
-I know you can do it , some have confidence
I smiled trying to comfort him
-you act like like I don’t know what to say!!?
He said frustrated
-just do it please
Then he bite me
(Edwards pov )
Me and my family were staying with the denalis Tanya as always was flirting with me well that helped a little to get distracted from Bella just a little bit everyone picked a room and got settled everyone but me they were a room short so Tanya suggested I could stay in here room until they built another room 2 weeks passed but she always made an excuse not to make that extra room so we decided not to
Still weeks passed and became months and Tanya never gave up! She was trying to make me forget Bella and be with her rosali bugged me like always thinking about the benefits being with a vampire like Tanya and how after years Bella will move on and marries someone that she could be with, Alice and jasper went to London for their 23 honey moon .
One day I was thinking maybe rosali was and is right I should forget Bella and move on I talked with Carlisle and he thought it would be better not to intrude in bellas life again so one day I walked up to Tanya and told her I have made my mind she was so happy jumping around singing and……………..
This was the first time I kissed a vampire it wasn’t as good as it was with Bella how she kissed me and didn’t want to let go I didn’t either but I was scared I would hurt her and if I ever hurt her I will never forgive myself I just needed to forget her and not go back to her so she could have a normal life and have a family.
Alice hated me for this she thought I’ve cheated on Bella so she wasn’t as nice as she waswitrh me and Tanya in the past.
One day when I was playing chess with Emmett Tanya called me from our room
Who can it be? !maybe Alice or rose calling from their shopping
I ran to are room Tanya laughed at my face I was worried and surprised my emotions were mixed then she handed me the phone and I kissed her on the lips
I asked seriously
Then someone screamed and threw the phone on the ground. was that Bella??
I called her home maybe she would answer Bella answered the phone subbing
-Bella,Bella can you hear me?sor…………………………..
Then she screamed again and threw the phone on the ground I was so worried what have I done to her??
Tanya came to comfort me
Then Alice came in the room shouting at me
-I told you ,you idiot !!how could you do this?? huh huh ?????? what happened to your love for Bella?? huh??
What happened to my love to Bella? I left her so she could be happy! Did she have any idea how much it hurts to think of her being with someone else in the future? How much it hurts to think I will never see her again?
-Do you know what this phone call is going to do to her??? there she sits crying all day! And here you are being all lovy- dovy with Tanya!!!??
Everyone came to see what is going on jasper trying to comfort her
-what's going to happen to her??
Esme asked worried for Bella. Alice looked at me disgust ,and turned around to esme
-i don’t know! She's changing her mind every second! One second she wants to jump of that damn cliff and the other………..
She trailed of
-and know she's trashing out the kitchen! breaking everything!
She showed me her vision Bella subbing and breaking everything like, like I couldn’t describe it she was broken how could I?!
Alice grabbed jasper and left the room
-where are you going?
Emmett asked Alice
-since no one here cares about Bella I'm going to help her! if she's still alive !!
-I’ll come with you, you comin rose?
Emmett turned around to face rose she really wasn’t happy to go anywhere near Bella but she didn’t want to be without him here
-ok ,for you
-were coming to
esme said, taking Carlisle hand now she even hates me I'm a real monster now!
Carlisle looked at me are you coming son? you know its your choice.
I just nodded then Irena and Carmen came in and asked jasper what happened I didn’t want to listen to the rest so I ran outside and stopped beside Alice she turned her back on me trying to see bellas future but she couldn’t see anything and that made her more frustrated
-Alice, I didn’t want this to happen I thought if I live her she could have a normal life, get married have kids, ……………………..
I sighed I hated myself the only thing I wanted now was that Carlisle shouldn’t have bothered to change me I don’t deserve this life I wish I was dead and Bella would have a normal life maybe dating mike or Eric I have ruined her life
-lets go Alice called everyone apparently she made an reservation
We drove in silence everyone thinking about Bella and what will happen to her
We got to the airport and got are tickets on the plane I heard jasper trying to reason with Alice
-Alice you don’t know how much pain edward is in its making me miserable! He did the right thing they weren’t meant to be he couldn’t just change her……………..
-but she was his soul mate they were meant to be I saw her like us they were both happy…..
She remembered her vision thinking what a jack ass I am from ruining her life my life and every thing this pain was worse than the venom changing me driving me crazy jasper tried to calm me but he couldn’t, I even broke my seat!
We got to forks in 6 hours and took a taxi to bellas house Charlie's car wasn’t there maybe he was at the station trying to find Bella but there was someone in the house Emmett went in first then Alice ,jasper, esme, Carlisle, me and rose I recognized who it was one of bellas childhood friends Jacob black and to my surprise he was a shape shifter when he saw us he stood up too face us jasper was comforting him and it worked then he walked towards me and said
-how could you do this to her!
-and before she disappears to god knows were she told me to tell you something
He showed me every thing how she broke everything what she said well I cant judge her if she hates me I hate myself my family hates me everyone hates me!
Alice came and asked Jacob what happened jake told everyone then we decided to go and search fore Bella Emmett,Rosalie went south esme,Carlisle went northalice and jasper went west and I went east I really wanted to find her and explain to her everything that happened….
After 3 hours of searching no one found anything we all gathered around to talk
-its been raining before we came so we cant follow her sent and we didn’t find anything
-we didn’t find anything either
So we explored the city she was nowhere Alice and I searched the sea but still nothing so we went back to Alaska and I went away to be alone I deserved it.