Star then italics is Loretta speaking. Just italics is Kayla.
I pushed against Loretta, pushing her away. I knew I had a chance to regain control of my body again. It was me who had screamed after Edward. I fought her, feeling her spirit near to me. It was strange being in my own head but not able to do anything other than watch and think. She was in command of everything while I sat helplessly in a small space in the back of my own head. All I could really do was sort of hit myself against my skull, annoy her into recognising I was here. It caused her some moderate pain but not me.
“No!” she screamed. “No! I want to stay!”
“Loretta, let her have her body back,” Zachariah said. He held her still to stop her fighting me. I didn’t know what to do exactly to get her out of my head. All I could do was push her to the back of my mind and keep her there by building a little wall around her.
I could feel myself flying forward in my own mind, feel strength and power returning to me. I moved my head to the right and then to the left and smiled for a brief second. I had my body back.
“Zachariah,” I said. I felt his hands on my arms. His skin was warm and soft on mine and for a second I didn’t want him to let me go. Then I realised that was Loretta thinking. “It’s Kayla. Let me go, I have to go after Edward.”
His eyes narrowed and his grip became tighter.
“How do I know you’re really Michaela?”
“Because Loretta is too weak to do this.” In one fluid movements I broke his grip and decked him. He looked up at me from the ground, his eyes sad.
“Is she gone?” he asked quietly.
“No,” I sighed. “She’s still here. But she’s not going just yet.”
“Why?” He picked himself up.
“I need her to prove to Edward I wasn’t trying to get off with you.”
*Why should I help you? She said to me.
You were the one who destroyed my life. I shouted at her. You waltz on in to my mind, thinking you own my body and then try to cop off with your still living husband while forgetting that I might just have a partner of my own.
“Tell Charlie I’ve gone to see Edward,” I told him. “But don’t tell him what happened. He doesn’t need to know.”
Zachariah nodded and walked away slowly. I turned around just at the exact moment he did. I could feel all of Loretta’s emotions and it killed me. Not only could I feel my own pain of losing Edward but I could also feel hers of losing Zach and Kyo. That’s the pain I had been feeling this morning. I wasn’t grieving over her death. I certainly wouldn’t now.
*You’re not a nice person.
Because I’m the body snatcher here.
I tuned her out to think of where Edward would go to. I knew he wouldn’t come back to me. He’d be thinking all sorts now. We were both alike in the way we thought of ourselves. We both thought we didn’t deserve each other. I was just a human/Azdi. There wasn’t much about me that Edward would like. I wasn’t extraordinarily beautiful like Rosalie, I wouldn’t live forever, he had to resist my blood. Edward considered himself a monster, he couldn’t spend his life with me because he lived forever while my days were numbered, he said he didn’t have a soul and the list continued.
“Kayla!” Charlie again. I turned around to see him walking towards me with my cell phone. “Alice for you.”
“Thank you.” I took the phone and as soon as it was against my ear Alice’s silver voice, distorted with rage, was shouting down my ear.
“You! You’re the reason why the wedding isn’t there! You’re running off with another man! How dare you break his heart like that?! I am not happy with you, Kayla, I am furious! I am coming down there and I am going to beat some sense into you! Why did you do it?! Why?!”
Alice wouldn’t let me speak. She continued to shout at me and ask why and accuse me of killing Edward and breaking his heart and she called me a few nasty names that was unnatural to hear from someone like her.
*Will she really do all she’s threatening? Loretta asked, her voice nervous.
If she does I am so going to beat your supernatural spirit ass. I replied.
Alice didn’t need to breathe so there was no pause in her rant in which I could drop in a word so I just cut across her.
“Alice, listen to me.” I said quickly before she could pick up from where I had interrupted. “It wasn’t me trying to get off with Zach. It was the spirit of his dead wife that’s possessed me with the aid of her young son.”
“Please, spirits of dead people?”
“Point taken.” Alice paused for a moment, evidently thinking. How could I prove to her some dead woman was sharing my head with me?
*I have a name.
And I chose not to use it. Now be quiet or I’ll mentally kick you.
BANG. BANG. BANG. BANG. BANG.
Quit that, you dead hag!
* What’s my name?
How old are you? Five?
“Kayla, are you listening to me!” Alice’s voice shouted down my ear bringing me out of my argument with Loretta.
“Sorry,” I said. “I’m arguing with the dead woman.”
DEAD WOMAN! DEAD WOMAN! DEAD WOMAN!
*Who’s five now?
“Kayla, please be sensible for two minutes,” Alice said wearily down the phone. “Edward is thinking of things that he shouldn’t be right now and they’re leading to some bad situations. You have to get to him.”
“Where is he?”
“He’s at the house but he’s leaving in ten minutes. No one can stop him.”
He was leaving? No he couldn’t leave. He couldn’t. How would I explain to him if he left? I wouldn’t be able to catch him.
“Where’s he going?”
“I’d rather not say.”
That meant something bad. Where was so bad that Alice wouldn’t tell me.
“It isn’t Italy, is it? Alice, please tell me it’s not Italy.”
“You told him to go, Kayla.”
Loretta, if you weren’t dead I’d kill you with my bare hands!
*What’s in Italy? She had the decency to be scared.
“If what you’re saying is true then the spirit told him to go, but he thinks it was you. When you told him to go he took it as if you’d broken up with him and didn’t want to see him. He accepts that you don’t want him anymore but you know he can’t live without you.”
*Is he going to kill himself?
I ignored her and tried to think of a way to explain to Edward what was going on. Alice was sceptical about what I telling her. I could hear the doubt in her voice. No one would believe me and I could hardly use Zach as a witness. Edward would think he was just covering for me so I didn’t feel responsible for his suicide.
“Alice can you stall him?”
Alice hesitated. “I’m not sure. Carlisle is trying to reason with him and Emmett and Jasper are threatening to physically restrain him.”
“Let me speak to Carlisle,” I asked her. “He’ll believe me.”
“I didn’t say I don’t believe you,” Alice sounded annoyed.
“But you didn’t say you did, now put Carlisle on.”
*Edward is a vampire? Loretta asked me.
Then how can he commit suicide? He’s virtually indestructible.
“Kayla, what is going on?” Worry was dominant in Carlisle’s voice but I also heard a little bit of anger too.
“Carlisle, please believe me when I say this. It wasn’t me. I would never do that to him.”
“I have repeatedly told him that, Kayla, but he is adamant that it was you.”
“There is a spirit of a dead woman possessing me and it was her. The man I was supposedly leaving Edward for is her husband. It was her all over him not me. I didn’t tell Edward to go. He won’t believe me if I tell him and I don’t know how I can prove it to him.” I was crying now. “Help me Carlisle. Please.”
“Get here as fast as you can. Run, Kayla, run.” It was all he said before I heard the dial tone.
So I ran.