sorry i didnt finish this but here is some more of the first book of breaking dawn sorry bought the wait...
i threw my arm over my face i didnt wwont her to see the pain in my eyes. it was quite for a long aganizing moment.
there was a light touche on my arm i didnt move i didnt wont to move. she wrapped her fingers around my wriste and tried to pull but it was worthless she was so weak so fragile. that brought it all back. everything i have done to her.
i didnt move
"edward?" she tried again
"im not sorry edward.....im i carnt even tell you. im so happy. that doesnt even cover it. dont be angry. dont. im absulutly"- i had to stop this she was driving me crazy.
"do not say the word fine" i knew my voise was harsh but she needed to be angry at me to. "if you value my sanity do not say that you are fine" i spat the last word i needed to calm down before i did something rash like breake something.
" but i am" she whispered
"bella" i moaned into my arm "dont"
"no you dont edward" finaly she had snapped
i moved my arm and watched her warly.
"dont rurin ths i`am.happy" she spock the last slow.
"i have allready rurined this" i moaned i have she wonted a nice honeymonn and i had to rurin it by herting her like this i will never forgive myself.
"cut it out" she snapped and my teeth groad together .
"urgh why carnt you read my mind allread its so incosencit ti be a mental mute" whoa i wasnt expecting that what she wonted me to read he mind she never wonted that before. i was desracted and quite easily dine.
my eyes widened.
"thats a new one you love that i carnt read your mind" i was shocked but still angry but still wow she wonted me to read her mind and of corse i did.
"not today" she was angry.
"why?" i had to know but what she did next really shocked me more. this was an angry bella. and i liked it.
she trew her arms in the air and they came down at me with a load smack noise
"becase all this anger will be completely unessercery if you could see how happy i was right now. or a minute ago anyway i was happy totaly blissed out- well now im sosrt of pissed acutaly" ahe was angry at me
"you should be angry at me" she needed to. i wonted her to hate me like i did i wonted her to run so i could beg for her to come back and promise her what ever she wonted but no she was happy with me abut now i was gettin some of what i wonted.
"well i am does that make you feel better" did she wont the truth i might as well tell her at this moment she couldnt be anymore angry.
"no i dont think anything could make me feel better now" i sighed.
"that right there is why i m angry. your killing my buzz" she snapped more apparntly i was wrong she could get more angry.
i rolled my eyes i shook my head.
i heard her take a deep breath. i think she was trying to calm herself down even thought i wonted her more mad but she wouldnt give me what i wonted. so i made a vow never ever to do this again not ontill she has been changed she may not like it but i will never put her throught pain ever again.
she swollowed " look we knew this was going to be diffivult. i thought that was to be expected well it was a lot easier then i expected this is nothing" sh brushed her arm "i think for the first time we did it. with some more paractise"- she stopped and i was glad i was getting really mad and i was going to have to get it out but i didnt wont to yell but thats how it came out.
"assum? did u expect this bella?was you antisipating that i would hert you? were you thinking it would be worse? do you consider it a sucsess because you can walk away from it? no broken bones that equels a victory" i snapped and spat it all there well she just sat there letting me why didnt she give it all back. ehy?
she kept waiting and as soon as my breathing was back to normal
"i didnt know what to expect but i didnt expect how...how... just how wonderfull and perfect it was" she thought it was wonderful and perfect what was she hinking?
"i mean i dont know how it was for you but thats how it was for me" she dropped her eyes and looked at her hands as she said this.
she thought i didnt enjoy myself i had to calm down before i said this. but i couldnt so this would have to do.
i slid my finger under her cjin to lift her face so i could read her eyes.
2is that what you worried for" i said through my teeth " that i dint enjoy myself?"
she kept her eyes down why? " and know its not the same. your not human. i was just well as a human i think life couldnt get any better then that" she just noticed im not human well she could have before we did, did.... that.
i stayed quite for a short moment well it was short to me but bella looked up to read my face. i could see it throught hers. i lokked calm good i didnt feel it.
"it seams i have more to appoligize for" i frowned.i
"i didnt dream that you would construe the way i feel about what i did to you to mean tthat last night wasnt....well the best night of my exsisdence. but i dont wont to think of it that way not while you were....."
her lips curled up into an awkarad smile. "really/ the best ever?" she asked in a small voise. of corse that was all she would pick out of that.