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As I woke up in bed I replayed images of last night. As I did I realized I loved being with Ethan and that scared me more than anything. Seeing as it had only been a day. How do you love being around a person so quickly? How do you like someone so much in just one day? It was insane but true. So did that make me insane?
My thoughts were quickly interrupted by my sister. She came bursting through the door and jumped on my bed.
“Ok so about yesterday… Forgive me but I am so glad you let me take Seth home” She sighed at time mention of his name.
“Don’t worry about it.”
Then she gasped.
“What? What’s the matter?” I said in panic.
“No. No. No… Relax I just can’t believe I didn’t see this before” She said in amazement.
“See what?” I asked a little confused.
“You like Ethan don’t you?” I blush so red I could feel the hot blood rush to my cheeks.
“Ooh! Don’t you even try to lie! I know you do. I can see it! It’s written all over your face!” She said excitedly.
“So what?” I groaned “Nothing’s going to come of it anyway. I mean come on he is gorgeous and I’m… well look at me!” My voice got higher and higher.
She glared at me.
“You do not see yourself like everyone else does. It’s kind of annoying!” Then she stormed out of the room.
I looked at the clock great 9:00 a.m. and what was I suppose to do all day. Well I certainly wasn’t going to sit around all day doing nothing.
I went down stairs and wasn’t hungry but I still had to go through the kitchen to get the keys to the car.
“Where do you think you’re going?” My sister sneaked up behind me.
“Umm… Out. Is that okay MOM?” I made sure she heard the sarcasm in my voice.
“Fine I was going to tell you that you were invited to a party but I guess not.” She said a bit proud of herself.
“And why should I care!” I said annoyed.
She smiled a mischievous smile that frightened me a bit.
“Cause Ethan’s going to be there.” She simply stated.
She had my attention the very second she said his name. Okay what can I say? I had it bad for him.
“Hmm…” My sister was famous for this.
“What!?” I was in no mood for this.
“I’m going to dress you and do your hair.” She said with a sparkle in her eye.
“Why?” Not today, not today, not today.
“I cannot afford my younger sister looking bad at a party that’s why. Besides you will thank me later.” She ran upstairs.
I groaned and that was that.
I turned in the mirror. When I looked at myself I couldn’t believe my eyes. The light blue long sleeved shirt I was wearing complemented my eyes. She had me in a light blue jean skirt. Wow. What was she thinking? Ha I laugh at that! And HEELS now she really had to be kidding.
“You look amazing thanks to whom?” She was excited as if I couldn’t look good by myself. “Me… That’s who…”
“Oh. Just get over it.” I growled. “Thank you.” I said though clench teeth.
“I told you! That you would thank me later.” She said.
I didn’t see Ethan at the party yet but I got a lot of attention from the guys. I had lots of time to look at the house. It was amazing! I walked outside. It was sprinkling rain. So I never left the back porch.
“Enjoying the scenery…” Ethan stood right behind me. I had to admit he had scared the crap out of me more than once. I never use to put up with it before so why should I start now.
“Yes… And the next time you sneak up on me I’m going to return the favor.” I threatened.
He laughed as if it were amusing.
“You always surprise me.” He said a bit more serious.
I opened my mouth to say something but he interrupted me.
“Do you want to go for a walk?” He asked
“But it’s raining.”
He laughed again. “I can see that. I was asking you if you want to.”
“Sure.” I finally said after a long pause.
Sorry! I would have posted sooner but things at home were out of hand.
As I woke up in bed I replayed images of last night. As I did I realized I loved being with Ethan and that scared me more than anything. Seeing as it had only been a day. How do you love being around a person so quickly? How do you like someone so much in just one day? It was insane but true. So did that make me insane?
My thoughts were quickly interrupted by my sister. She came bursting through the door and jumped on my bed.
“Ok so about yesterday… Forgive me but I am so glad you let me take Seth home” She sighed at time mention of his name.
“Don’t worry about it.”
Then she gasped.
“What? What’s the matter?” I said in panic.
“No. No. No… Relax I just can’t believe I didn’t see this before” She said in amazement.
“See what?” I asked a little confused.
“You like Ethan don’t you?” I blush so red I could feel the hot blood rush to my cheeks.
“Ooh! Don’t you even try to lie! I know you do. I can see it! It’s written all over your face!” She said excitedly.
“So what?” I groaned “Nothing’s going to come of it anyway. I mean come on he is gorgeous and I’m… well look at me!” My voice got higher and higher.
She glared at me.
“You do not see yourself like everyone else does. It’s kind of annoying!” Then she stormed out of the room.
I looked at the clock great 9:00 a.m. and what was I suppose to do all day. Well I certainly wasn’t going to sit around all day doing nothing.
I went down stairs and wasn’t hungry but I still had to go through the kitchen to get the keys to the car.
“Where do you think you’re going?” My sister sneaked up behind me.
“Umm… Out. Is that okay MOM?” I made sure she heard the sarcasm in my voice.
“Fine I was going to tell you that you were invited to a party but I guess not.” She said a bit proud of herself.
“And why should I care!” I said annoyed.
She smiled a mischievous smile that frightened me a bit.
“Cause Ethan’s going to be there.” She simply stated.
She had my attention the very second she said his name. Okay what can I say? I had it bad for him.
“Hmm…” My sister was famous for this.
“What!?” I was in no mood for this.
“I’m going to dress you and do your hair.” She said with a sparkle in her eye.
“Why?” Not today, not today, not today.
“I cannot afford my younger sister looking bad at a party that’s why. Besides you will thank me later.” She ran upstairs.
I groaned and that was that.
I turned in the mirror. When I looked at myself I couldn’t believe my eyes. The light blue long sleeved shirt I was wearing complemented my eyes. She had me in a light blue jean skirt. Wow. What was she thinking? Ha I laugh at that! And HEELS now she really had to be kidding.
“You look amazing thanks to whom?” She was excited as if I couldn’t look good by myself. “Me… That’s who…”
“Oh. Just get over it.” I growled. “Thank you.” I said though clench teeth.
“I told you! That you would thank me later.” She said.
I didn’t see Ethan at the party yet but I got a lot of attention from the guys. I had lots of time to look at the house. It was amazing! I walked outside. It was sprinkling rain. So I never left the back porch.
“Enjoying the scenery…” Ethan stood right behind me. I had to admit he had scared the crap out of me more than once. I never use to put up with it before so why should I start now.
“Yes… And the next time you sneak up on me I’m going to return the favor.” I threatened.
He laughed as if it were amusing.
“You always surprise me.” He said a bit more serious.
I opened my mouth to say something but he interrupted me.
“Do you want to go for a walk?” He asked
“But it’s raining.”
He laughed again. “I can see that. I was asking you if you want to.”
“Sure.” I finally said after a long pause.
Sorry! I would have posted sooner but things at home were out of hand.
Stewart had some apprehensions about shooting that scene. She didn't want the scenario of two teens, one being a vampire who happens to be many years older than his facade of 17, deciding to marry one another to look silly or unbelievable.
"Well, to decide you're gonna marry someone at 18 is a pretty hefty decision," she told MTV News from the red carpet of the premiere of her new movie, "The Yellow Handkerchief." "And I didn't want to look stupid. I didn't want it to look like kids getting married. You know what I mean?"
Stewart said she had to find an emotional space that allowed her to make a teenage engagement seem plausible. "I wanted to be, like, 'Oh! Wow! I would say yes too!' You know what I mean? So I don't know how you do that. You try to do it for real, and it felt good. I hope it turned out alright."
"Well, to decide you're gonna marry someone at 18 is a pretty hefty decision," she told MTV News from the red carpet of the premiere of her new movie, "The Yellow Handkerchief." "And I didn't want to look stupid. I didn't want it to look like kids getting married. You know what I mean?"
Stewart said she had to find an emotional space that allowed her to make a teenage engagement seem plausible. "I wanted to be, like, 'Oh! Wow! I would say yes too!' You know what I mean? So I don't know how you do that. You try to do it for real, and it felt good. I hope it turned out alright."
one of them is you,
because we're split in two,
all of my life,
I dreamed to be your wife,
it isn't real,
you don't know how I feel,
it took me so long,
to figure out you're wrong,
I drive down the road,
not knowing where to go,
might as well jump off a cliff,
I have no idea if I'll live,
so now I'm at the bottom of the ocean,
my mind going through all of this confusion,
I have no more air,
I still don't see you anywhere,
but you're trying to save me,
I thought you still hated me,
as my fingers slip through yours,
I now touch the sea floor,
knowing that I won't exsist anymore.