Basics: Hannah Meyer age 17, Born August 1, 1995. Lives in Bradenton, Florida
Blond hair, blue eyes.
What is your happiest memory? My happiest memory was when I finally got to meet my mom's
parents. They lived on the east side of Berlin and did something that got them put in prison for a while.
I'm not sure what they did because my mom won't talk about it.
What don't you want anyone to find out about you? I am afraid to let my guard down. What I mean is, I've seen so many of my friends get hurt in relationships or by their parents breaking up. I hear my parents fighting a lot and so I'm afraid to show any TRUE emotions or to trust people. You just never know when they are going to dump you or hurt you. It sometimes paralyzes me to the point that I sit back and watch things happen and do nothing. I'm scared that if my life really depended on it or if my family or friends lives depended on me me doing something or risk getting hurt, I would do nothing. It is safer to build walls around my feelings so that I don't get hurt.
What is the best part of your personality? I can be very fun to be around. I am very creative. Whenever we have any projects to do my friends all want me in their group because they say I'll come up with a "fun" idea, and I usually do. I can be the life of the party if I let my wall down.
How would your best friend describe how you look? My best friend would say I have honey colored hair. I have really weird eyes. They are blue. The thing is she says she can tell what kind of mood I'm in when she looks at me. When I am happy and everything is going well she says my eyes are the color of a crystal clear blue lake in winter time. When I am in a bad mood they go to a blue gray color. She must like lakes because she said is it like looking at a lake under a cloudy sky. You can see the blue but it is severely gray. I am 5'8 and have a medium build. My best friend says she wishes she had some meat on her bones so she didn't look anorexic all the time. I think is is her way of saying I'm not too thin or too fat. She likes to borrow clothes from me because I have a bohemian style of dressing. That doesn't mean I can't get dressed up if I need to.
What irritates you? I can't stand someone who just keeps running their mouth. You know the kind that has to tell you every single fact and detail about everything that is in their head. I want to slam them in the face.
Tell me about your family. What's to tell? My mom's name is Ivonne and my dad's name is Stefan. They both grew up in East Berlin. After they moved to West Berlin they got married and then a few years later moved to the United States. That is all I know about their life there. Here in Bradenton my mom has an art gallery. She works with glass and pottery. She has always loved this. My dad works in construction. He started his own design firm but then decided he had to build his designs as well. He builds custom treehouses, playhouses, and things like that. He says he feels the most freedom when he is creating with his own hands.
What do you think of yourself when you look in the mirror? I think that I need to take more chances and live. I see someone who always has a frown or pout on her face. I see someone who feels sad and scared more than she feels happy. I see someone who feels trapped behind a wall of her own creating, yet feels there is another wall, that if she could just break through it would hold the answers to tearing down her own walls. I hope that makes sense to you.
What's the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you? My mom sold this really beautiful glass lamp to a lady. The lady asked me to carry it to the car for her. I didn't really want to because I'm always afraid I will break something my mom has made. My mom insisted I carry it for her. I went to open the door for the lady at the same time she reached for it. She bumped into me, sending me and the lamp into the door breaking it. I immediately burst into tears. The lady kept telling me she was sure my mom could fix it and that it was her fault for running into me. I was so embarrassed. My mom let her pick a different lamp, one that was more expensive at no extra cost. I refused to go to my moms gallery after that.
Do you have a crush on anyone? I have a crush on one of the soccer players at school. I would never let him know this because you know how it goes, he might reject me, or we might get together and then break up. I'm not ready for that yet.
What do you really, REALLY want more than anything else in the world? I want to go to Germany and find out what it is my parents don't want me to know about their past. I think it would help all of us so much. They won't talk about any of it. I have read about East Berlin and East Germany and the Wall, but I only have one side of the story. Sometimes I think that is what they are fighting about.
Is there anything you would die for? I would die for my family, friends and my freedom. I think if it came right down to it, at least I hope, my fears would not get in my way.
Is there anything you are really good at? Besides reading? Yeah, I guess I kind of got some of my parents crafting or artistic genes. I like to create things from fabric. For example, one day I was at the park with a basket of fabric scraps. I just felt like sitting under a tree and creating for a while. A little girl came up and asked me what I was doing. I told her I was going to make something. She asked if I could make her a little doll because she lost hers. I told her mom to come back in an hour and I'd have a small doll for her daughter. It was just a simple rag doll, but the look on that little girls face made me feel so good about that doll.