Fanpopping since August 2012

  • Female, 22 years old
  • Florence, Italy
  • Favorite TV Show: Many many things tbh
    Favorite Movie: Also many many things
    Favorite Musician: T-Swizzle
    Favorite Book or Author: The Hunger Games & Harry Potter
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HOW DARE YOU TO COME HERE AND NOT EVEN SAY HI??? REPORT NOW!!!!!!!!!!! Posted over a year ago
panther-jewel gave me props for my articles
Thank you, not only for your kind words, also for checking on me; but I don’t want to pull you down, I just needed you to know that I don’t have a problem with you. It is just that nobody can help someone as long as that person doesn’t want to feel better and allows help. And I get a satisfaction from my suffering, I don’t want to lose my loyal true self, and deep mourning is the exclusive acceptable way for me and the only thing that causes me to not break down completely. Posted over a year ago
panther-jewel commented…
The Delena endgame is the only thing that I wish for, the story itself allows no other way to be ended, and I put everything else aside in the last eventful years (taking care of my Dad, mourning with my family after that, making a real start in working life, losing my unborn nephew, feeling with my sister after that, …) and made DE what kept me going through everything because I had no doubt about them truly belonging together and ending up with each other (hints, signs, parallels, …). I am still very hopeful, but I don’t have them that present anymore to get me through whatever I have to face, and I can’t get over all of it until the story – or at least, Damon’s part (the remaining Delena part) – will be over for good. I have never been so obsessed about something, I desperately NEED their happily-ever-after, but my condition already improved in me being able to eat eggplants again and coming back to enjoy watching DE fan videos. over a year ago
panther-jewel commented…
Delena scenes from the show have silent moments that allow me to think, and it is hard for me to deal with times when I have nothing to do and my always present sadness hits me even harder. I have no experience with strong emotions, I have always been a rational person with not many emotions, and I haven’t cried in I don’t know how many years before; but I now tear up several times each day for already much more than half a year. And I can’t tell many people around me what is wrong, I wouldn’t understand someone being broken because a fictional couple was put on hold, so that I can’t even work things out with other people around. over a year ago
panther-jewel commented…
But Delena will always be my true life purpose, and although I am grateful for the on-going DE beauty and have never lost my confidence in the final end of the story, I am unbelievable sad and devastated as well as incredible emotionally empty and numb at the same time. It can only be healed by the Delena endgame, that is the only hope that I have left, while a part of me is probably broken beyond repair for good. over a year ago
panther-jewel gave me props for my links
I didn’t want you to think that I keep my distance because of you, because the problem is only that I am deeply lost in suffering and pain. And although I am aware of how lucky I am in life, I am too broken to appreciate what I have left. Delena got me through the last years and I feel like they are everything that I care about, and I haven’t felt happiness and joy and haven’t laughed or smiled in more than half year now – and I still can’t imagine a change even after so many months. Posted over a year ago
panther-jewel commented…
I can only continue because of our wonderful DE family, and I always feel better when I see your beautiful Delena posts. I would also appreciate new posts on your Damon spot, but nobody can really help me these months, and I only survived because I truly am a strong person. I tend to feel even worse though when I have to see how sad and helpless my loved ones feel because of my condition, that is so emotional and completely different from my so far rational and emotion-weak character. over a year ago
panther-jewel commented…
But I agree with and like your motto about not having to apologize for surviving, I hope that you had a great time in Paris (sorry for being late with that wish), and to answer your question: It changed here just a couple of months ago, but like you said yourself, not that much. over a year ago