I was born
though i shouldn't be
I should have died
I would have died
but i didn't
It would have been better for me to die
and leave this world behind me
it's full of liars and fear
I nearly died twice
Why didn't I?
I would feel so much better now
I would never have been betrayed
by three guys
I would never have seen my mom
lying on the floor and trying to kill herself
I would never have heard my parents
having huge arguments everyday
I would never have known what it's like
to live without money
I would never have been the daydreamer
everybody makes fun of
But then I thought god would have mercy
he sent me one of his angels
I thought he was meant to be my true love
and I was on cloud nine
but now
this cloud is breaking as well
and i fall through it
I'm in hell now
but I'm not dead
So I'm not happy
My heart is nothing but a flesh wound
and if you touch it you fall into a deep hole
I'm a zombie living to die
Though i wanted to live for love
I still love
and that's why I'm hurt
I still can't let the angel go
holding his wings
probably breaking them
but I don't mind
maybe it's selfish
but that's just me
and I will burn in hell
but I already do
I can't find a way out of this misery
I'm screaming for god
to kill me
and make me leave this mad world
Interesting. Very teen angst. Are these your actual thoughts, or just a poem reflecting an emotion of yours? I can give you some advice, if you are looking for some (and I'm assuming you are because this is in the advice spot. If it were in the Creative Outlet spot I would help you with your style).
First: Thoughts of suicide-- if this leads to that-- are extremely serious and I don't think anyone here is equipped to deal with that. If you ARE serious (I have no idea), do one or more of the following:
# Send a confidential e-mail to The Samaritans.
# Call 1-800-SUICIDE in the U.S.
# Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999
# Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line
# Call a psychotherapist
# Carefully choose a close friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen.
NEXT: I'm sorry if you're feeling upset with your love life, and I don't mean to be condescending when I tell you that you have a LOT of time to find Mr. Right. If some asshole breaks your heart now, go out and key his car, and then go and eat a lot of ice cream with your friends while you watch vengeful chick flicks like John Tucker Must Die.
THIRDLY: Parental troubles are no fun. But most of the time, parents don't understand how much they're alienating their kid. They love you a LOT, and if you sit down and talk to them about what's upsetting you, I assure you they will listen. If you're worried about your mom, ask her to get help.
I think that's all... If you do want a poetry critique, however, I wear that hat too. ;o)
Wow, that was very moving! I nearly cried, because I often feel like that, too. (excluding the "betrayed by three guys" part, cause I don't have a boyfriend). I'm so sorry for you, yet so glad that I'm not the only one! And please don't die... you're not the only one who feels that way. If you weren't on my buddy list already I would add you. :)
thanx for trying to help me - i gotta move on somehow - i'll try but i can't promise it at all and no Cinders it's not just a poem - it's all what happened to me.
Cinders is right if these your actual thoughts get some help.
And again like Cinders said i don't think anyone here equipped to deal with this but you should let your family or fiends know how feel it can only get better if you let people know what's going through your head.
Feel free to message me I don't know if I'll be of any help but I can try.
you know what ness? ur the only one that's keeping me sane. so if u die, then even if i didn't want to i'd soon go to. i'll alwayz be there for u and i'll cry with u if that's what u want. but you can't hold on to the angels wings because he's not an angel at all, only a devil with a 99 cent halo... i luv u like my own sister and i can't bear to lose you. ur MY guardian angel and i need u like bella needs edward... pleez don't leave me...
omg. i totally know how you feel. except, i have different reasons for feeling that way, but still.
i am so sorry you feel that way. i don't think anyone deserves to live like that
I remember when I read this the first time. I was shocked and really worried about u :| So worried, that I felt the need to send u a message... I'm sooo glad I did that^^ now, 3 months later, you're my girlfriend *-* who would have guessed it?^^ *sigh* I'm sooooo in love with you Nessie *-* *kisss & huug*
First: Thoughts of suicide-- if this leads to that-- are extremely serious and I don't think anyone here is equipped to deal with that. If you ARE serious (I have no idea), do one or more of the following:
# Send a confidential e-mail to The Samaritans.
# Call 1-800-SUICIDE in the U.S.
# Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999
# Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line
# Call a psychotherapist
# Carefully choose a close friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen.
NEXT: I'm sorry if you're feeling upset with your love life, and I don't mean to be condescending when I tell you that you have a LOT of time to find Mr. Right. If some asshole breaks your heart now, go out and key his car, and then go and eat a lot of ice cream with your friends while you watch vengeful chick flicks like John Tucker Must Die.
THIRDLY: Parental troubles are no fun. But most of the time, parents don't understand how much they're alienating their kid. They love you a LOT, and if you sit down and talk to them about what's upsetting you, I assure you they will listen. If you're worried about your mom, ask her to get help.
I think that's all... If you do want a poetry critique, however, I wear that hat too. ;o)
And again like Cinders said i don't think anyone here equipped to deal with this but you should let your family or fiends know how feel it can only get better if you let people know what's going through your head.
Feel free to message me I don't know if I'll be of any help but I can try.
i am so sorry you feel that way. i don't think anyone deserves to live like that
3 HEART BREAKS????
HORRIBLE!
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