The Two Sides of Me
Nobody knows it but there is a canyon in me
It splits me in two
Across the gap stretches a rope that is starting to unwind
And separates the sides of me
On one side there is the child me
She created a world where pain never existed
She is perfect
Time has never touched her
Shes sweet and innocent
She will never grow up
She will always remain a child
She will never learn that the world is a harsh place
She wears a tiara and a pretty pink party dress
She will always be playing tea party with her Babies
She sits in the middle of a friendly forest
She is surrounded by her family and friends
She will always believe that her father loves her
And would never hurt her
She will always be able to swim in the sea
She will always be able fly above the clouds
She refuses to look at the canyon, instead she pretends it doesnt exist
She believes that if she doesnt look at it, it will eventually go away
She exists because thats what my mother needs me to be
On the other side is the adult me
She lives in a world where all she knows is pain.
She is imperfect
She has lived a life
She knows the truth
She knows her father wants her dead
She is sarcastic
She is tired of living
She doesnt remember what its like to be happy
She's forgotten how to smile
She has given up on the world
Shes lost in a labyrinth of pain
Her jeans are faded and torn, her shirt is in tatters
Her arms are covered by a million little cuts
She holds a needle in her hand
And her tears are blood
Her eyes are lifeless
She died a long time ago
She no longer laughs
She is being forced to live a life that she has grown to hate
The ground crumbles beneath her feet
She watches the little girl across the canyon
Wishing she could get over there
But she doesnt see the rope
She is what Im becoming
Holding onto the rope is the ghost
She lives in a world of uncertainty
A cold wind tries to knock this fragile spirit from her precarious perch
She is bruised and battered
She hangs onto the rope for dear life with one hand
Her other hand is reaching out to the adult me
Ready to catch her if ever she were to fall
She has the innocence of the child but the wisdom of the adult
She hasn't given up yet
She still remembers how to hope
She doesnt want to disappear
She doesnt want to fall
But the longer shes there
The deeper the canyon gets
And the wider the crevice becomes
So more of the rope breaks
Another strand snaps, cutting into her skin again and again
Her blood runs down
She knows that no one will come to the rescue
She has to save herself
She knows if her grip were to slip
If ever she were to fall
The other two will die as well
She knows that she is the only one that can bind the other two together
She refuses to see that the situation is hopeless
She refuses to die
She is ignored by the other two
So she calls out again and again
But its hard to get someones attention when they dont know you exist
She is who Im supposed to be
How can a person ever be whole
When there is a windswept canyon
Residing in her soul
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