Guns

Its been five months,
Five whole months since we met,
Five months of pleasure,
And five months of love;

Five months for me to see,
An illusion of forever,
Five months to make me,
Love you forever;

For five whole months,
Ive learned to grow,
Learned to live,
To live to love you;

Tonight, or may i say,
Every night for five whole months,
I wish, I hope, and I want,
Not just five moths of our love;

But Five years,
Five decades,
Five Centuries,
Or better yet, An Eternity;

I love you so much,
I have nothing more to give you than my heart, my soul and my life,
My life will be yous until i die..

She sits there alone in a dark corner..a razor in one hand..a picture in the other. Alone with her thoughts, her mind is racing and she just wants to quiet the storm..such a permanent decision..never to return. She pulls the razor to her wrist and tells herself that soon the pain will cease to exist. This will all disappear for the end is very near. Thoughts of her family slowly cross her mind..what will they do when they find her lifeless laying on the floor..never to take a breath anymore. She couldn't put them through that pain so she tucks the razor away and sadly turns to face yet another day.

I look into your eyes
and all that I see
gazing right back
is a reflection of me.

What lurks inside
your soul so deep
there are happy times
memories too keep.

I could stare for hours
perhaps even days
into your spirit
and its mysterious ways.

Searching inside
for what I wish to view
I doubt that I'l find
a soul that is pure and true.

The cleanest of hearts
no anger or hate
that is guided through life
by destiny and fate.

An innocent mind
that imagines no sin
no greed or envy
the state god made it in.

I can honestly say
what I expect to find
is an emotional mess
beginning to unwind.

Within the heart
I find anger and hate
destroying this life
at an incredible rate.

Within the mind
there is envy and greed
plans are plotted
for temptation to feed.

I look into my eyes
and all that I see
gazing right back
is the soul that is me.

Sinking into the midst of forever,
floating dreams disappearing on sight ...
Your whispering voice filling my thoughts,
my soul's puzzle completed by your love ...

Brown eyes alive with a thousand promises,
a perfect smile that leaves me breathless ...
Laughter that could make anyone feel better,
your mere touch leaving me without words ...

Sitting on the edge of my aching heart,
controlling these actions of mine ...
Enchanting the mirror gaze you give,
my resistance crumbles before this temptation ...

These feelings so deep and real inside,
hurting inside because I continue to hide ...
Your heart beat echoing in my ears,
so far away and yet so near tonight ...

Hiding my acid tears when I think of you,
silently wishing that you were here ...
Tonight I miss you more than ever my dear,
know that I love you now and forever ...

Falling, I'm fading away
I'm gonna hit the bottom, soon, without delay
Nothing there to stop me or break my fall
All I can do is stand here, await the worst, try to stall
Spiraling downward, I can't bring myself to stand
When I know I'll fall again with no apparent place to land
Day after day, insult after insult, numbness fails, and I feel dead inside
I want to give up, I want to give in, now knowing that I've tried
I try to fight to save myself, but I'm weary, lost, and alone
I'm victim to these voices, whose intent was always known
Looking back upon these days I'll know I never stood a chance
How could I destroy what was invisible at first glance?
How can I defeat what no one else can help me fight?
I am helpless, disappearing, losing focus, losing sight
I'm lost in this battle, this one person war
knowing that I'm losing and can't take anymore

when The Voices are raised and i am pined in a corner... Can u hear me Know ... The Crimson River is released and is Dripping down my Body .... Can u hear me now ... As i Fall to my knees in the Emotional Pain u feel ..... Can u hear me now .... The Darkness Closes in on
me ...can u here me now .... The Pool Of Crimson Blood serenades me and ur standing there with the knife ... Can u hear me now ... Now that im Dead and Still alone in the world ... I hope u can still hear me and the scream i left u with ... i leave u now ....im alone and thats not gonna change

I cannot help but to see Red skies
Once an unknown threat, bright blue and happy
Now Crimson anger hate and pity
A Scarlet cloud darkening the contentment of my heart

I cannot see through the Bloodstained mist
The fog is heavy and all consuming
My heart once happy thriving and loved
Now bleeding battered and broken

Red sky unforeseen
Making it all the more difficult to accept
My tears stain Red tracks on my face
As my heart laments love lost

It is a bitter feeling, one I should forget
But the Red sky taunts me
and I cannot disregard my emotions
Red sky will never be forgiven

It won't matter when I'm gone
Because you won't care
You don't care about me
You never did

I'll dig myself a grave
And think of you as I fall to it's depths
If I can't have your love
I'll kill my love for you

Let it die with all my pain
The pain of loving you
Someone that doesn't share
All the love I have

The knife of pain has pierced my heart
And I hope my love pours out with the blood
I'll cut out the problem
And watch its love dissipate with every fading beat

You won't care when I'm gone
But I'll still do this for you
I still love you and it hurts
I don't want to love you anymore

I'll kill my love so I'll feel no pain
And you will have a burden lifted
No longer will I bother you
My love shall die with me tonight

As long as I'm here my love still lives
So I dig my grave tonight
And think of you as I fall to it's depths
So that my love does not escape

My love shall fall to hell with me
As you so will it to
Goodbye my love
Rest in peace

When you arrived home yesterday,
I never knew the news,
you would bring,
I never knew,
things would get so hard.
They found him in the swamp.
No, I don't believe this can be true,
Jeno, Simone, Josh, and Zach,
All in a row.
There they go,
Up to the heavens,
Four beautiful souls,
You were all so very young,
With much more to learn.
Zach, I love you and miss you,
Josh, so very talented but gone like the rest
Simone, so young and beautiful,
I still don't know how you,
could be gone.
Jeno, so beautiful my darling little boy,
the brightest smile in the world,
Jeno, bright smile and great
personality.
I miss you all.
So very much,
I know you'll party hard,
together,
up there in the heavens.
Up there with the angels.
Zachy, I thought you'd come home,
I never thought I'd join the group today.
I thought It'd be
"Welcome home"
But I guess this is life and I have to go on.
So good-bye my sweet angels.
I'll see you again some day.

You are my whelping,
My tear drop,
My spitfire.
You are the will of the forsaken,
You polymorph my icy veins.
Your distance amplifies the magic slowfall -and I want to attack you.
The deep freeze,
The living bomb,
The arcane barrage of this impact and master of elements you have on my heart,
Ignite this burning determination because my worlds on fire, in flames.
Shattered barriers no longer,
Until this ending winter comes,
Playing with fire we will,
With permafrost we’ll get to the bottom of this frozen core.
Before we both get frost bite,
Let’s Kiss, let’s pierce the ice to make ice shards,
Ice floes,
For this arcane stability will torment the weak,
Let us be slow,
Like frozen in time,
Teleport me back in time,
Back in time when we’re together forever,
Just blink,
It will be okay.