posted by Broody_4_Cheery
I am a brucas fan, and i must admit a huge part of the reason i watch this show is because of bl, but still there are others reasons, like i simply love it and enjoy it and have gotten so caught up with all the characters. yes im a bl fan, but first off im an oth fan... or i use to be, im not sure anymore.
I have kept watching, okay and i fully admit what got me through the bad times was picking at leyton and my inability to view lp as anything other than a joke, but something else always drew me to it as well, whether it be naley, brooke, a specific touching storyline or the humour, something helped me see the greatness amongst the mess that is lp and lp is a mess and it aint my mess.
But i feel like 611 was just going too far, there is only so much i as a fan can take, only so much before the show itself looses meaning. the degrading, the demeaning, the understatements, you know what im talking about. it just went from worse to worse, one extreme to another. but this is the first time ive been pushed to seriously consider not watching the show, i feel like they slapped me in the face, what 611 did was more than slapping me as a bl fan, but also as a oth fan, as a lucas fan, as a peyton fan, as a brooke fan, as a fan of the writers, a fan of mark, a fan of chad. all in all it took away the respect i held for these things, and without the respect that is owed to bl and blers and the respect i had for the show i dont know whats left. i feel empty as an oth fan.
i'll always believe with an unbendiable strength that bl are meant to be together, should be together, and i will hold dearly onto the brilliance they and the show use to have, i just no longer believe that the show is the same show, the same quality, the same meaning, its just off, its a lie. its being slowly ruined for me.
that said ill probably watch every single episode like always, still think of lp as a joke, get angry at the anti bl, get excited at the slightest pro bl, enjoy naley, enjoy brooke, still hope and have faith that bl can somehow clean up the mess and find their way back together. i'm going to fight, because after all these years i cant just give up. and if my hope and faith is not rewarded i'm going to cry, and i'm probably going to unleash seasons of locked up emotion. i just really really hope (even more than my hope for bl getting back together)that what bl use to be and have is going to get its respect back from the show, because disrepecting brucas is disrespecting everything they were, everything the show was built around for three seasons, it weakens it, and its the biggest slap of all.
maybe blers could learn to accept the past and future, learn to move on if they allowed us to, if they stopped messing with the past maybe we could leave the past in the past.
okay so this article changes emotion alot, but i am unsure how i'm feeling, but if they want a war, they got one.