I’m quiet on the outside
An all-wrecking, raging storm on the inside
I can’t speak,
Because I fear I can only produce inhuman cries
But my inner screams overwhelm any external sound
I don't blame you for not seeing behind my hollow eyes
I don't blame you for not hearing anything but silence
And I don't blame you for not feeling my heart breaking in my chest, over and over again
But I wish you would just hold me, and tell me I'll be okay.
That somehow, this all-consuming pain is not going to kill me.
That I will come out of this, stronger.
I wish I could distance myself from this destruction,
But I belong in the center of the hurricane
Because I need this pain, like I need oxygen
So, let my ravel in my agony,
Without it I am nothing
An all-wrecking, raging storm on the inside
I can’t speak,
Because I fear I can only produce inhuman cries
But my inner screams overwhelm any external sound
I don't blame you for not seeing behind my hollow eyes
I don't blame you for not hearing anything but silence
And I don't blame you for not feeling my heart breaking in my chest, over and over again
But I wish you would just hold me, and tell me I'll be okay.
That somehow, this all-consuming pain is not going to kill me.
That I will come out of this, stronger.
I wish I could distance myself from this destruction,
But I belong in the center of the hurricane
Because I need this pain, like I need oxygen
So, let my ravel in my agony,
Without it I am nothing
Chapter 1:The begaining
It started with the fighting,the endless fighting.It was mid Febuary 2001 when a couple with a small boy and another child on the way,split.They had been aurguing for hours on end and the husband,Jason,decided to leave and live with a friend for a while.While the wife,Sandra,cried and wept to no avail Jason left.Jason had contracted pnemonia and was placed in a hospital only days after his fight with Sandra.Sandra was also in the hospital but for a different reason,she had given birth to a girl named Emily.And that was the begaining of Emily's life,a life full of sadness and missery that will come to a halt and be cut short by the evil hands of fate and the mind.
It started with the fighting,the endless fighting.It was mid Febuary 2001 when a couple with a small boy and another child on the way,split.They had been aurguing for hours on end and the husband,Jason,decided to leave and live with a friend for a while.While the wife,Sandra,cried and wept to no avail Jason left.Jason had contracted pnemonia and was placed in a hospital only days after his fight with Sandra.Sandra was also in the hospital but for a different reason,she had given birth to a girl named Emily.And that was the begaining of Emily's life,a life full of sadness and missery that will come to a halt and be cut short by the evil hands of fate and the mind.
A silhouette standing alone,
Amongst a field of arid snow,
Waiting for something still unknown,
Not any further from the tombstone.
Awaiting a sign of life and hope,
Letting out a deep sigh,
“It’s not getting any easier to cope”
A whisper carried by the wind.
The stars: my aspirations,
But city lights in the distance,
Taunted it from their foundations,
Caustic lights ending its existence.
An unattached shadow standing in solitude,
Amongst a field of caustic cold,
Tired of waiting, wanting to end,
I was everything untold.
Amongst a field of arid snow,
Waiting for something still unknown,
Not any further from the tombstone.
Awaiting a sign of life and hope,
Letting out a deep sigh,
“It’s not getting any easier to cope”
A whisper carried by the wind.
The stars: my aspirations,
But city lights in the distance,
Taunted it from their foundations,
Caustic lights ending its existence.
An unattached shadow standing in solitude,
Amongst a field of caustic cold,
Tired of waiting, wanting to end,
I was everything untold.
tell me why do you pretend
to let the agonizing memories
of your damaged past let you
be the person that you are
now,
please let your body,
mind, heart, soul,and
feelings escape the
tragic night-mares and
feel my: "etreindre de'
amour" around you for-
ever.
my etreindre de' amour
is what i can offer to you,
through this time that you
will feel from me.
will you feel my ever-
lasting touch of love as
you grieve over the lost
memories and moments
that you never gotten back.
let me take your
emphasized wounds
and give them to the
crumbling world that
never lets you feel the
love that you need to
feel in your life now.
but you look for my
casual-words that will
give you strength that
you need to go on with
your life.
your endless obession
for living this lie trying
to get past this pain, that
will forever remains inside
your soul now.
to let the agonizing memories
of your damaged past let you
be the person that you are
now,
please let your body,
mind, heart, soul,and
feelings escape the
tragic night-mares and
feel my: "etreindre de'
amour" around you for-
ever.
my etreindre de' amour
is what i can offer to you,
through this time that you
will feel from me.
will you feel my ever-
lasting touch of love as
you grieve over the lost
memories and moments
that you never gotten back.
let me take your
emphasized wounds
and give them to the
crumbling world that
never lets you feel the
love that you need to
feel in your life now.
but you look for my
casual-words that will
give you strength that
you need to go on with
your life.
your endless obession
for living this lie trying
to get past this pain, that
will forever remains inside
your soul now.
My anger came that day,
i tried to stay calm through
it all but my emotions just
gave way without me telling
them too.
She saw my frustration
taking shape and took
me in her loving arms
and told me it would be
okay.
I knew that my personal
emotions would show,that
i would pretend not to be
upset, and playing them
off as casual-words and not
the hurtful words as to what
they sounded to me.
I wanted to barricade
myself inside my head
and listen to those supposed
hurtful words that were being
said about me,
The thoughts that raced
through my mind were not
the words that i heard coming out
of his mouth that day,
All i can say to you is
that i accused him of
being wrong and that
was unfair for me to do,
i tried to stay calm through
it all but my emotions just
gave way without me telling
them too.
She saw my frustration
taking shape and took
me in her loving arms
and told me it would be
okay.
I knew that my personal
emotions would show,that
i would pretend not to be
upset, and playing them
off as casual-words and not
the hurtful words as to what
they sounded to me.
I wanted to barricade
myself inside my head
and listen to those supposed
hurtful words that were being
said about me,
The thoughts that raced
through my mind were not
the words that i heard coming out
of his mouth that day,
All i can say to you is
that i accused him of
being wrong and that
was unfair for me to do,
I look out my window the rains pouring down
I can't seem to turn this frown upside down
You moved far out of town
Now I have no one around
I used to love you
Sadly you don't love me too
Pain and agony runs through me
So much you can see
But not you, you only look for my happiness
but I'm out and in distress
You want the green fresh from the press
I just want to be better than the rest
Attention is what I want
But all you give is a load of taunt
Are you ready for love
Not really, so I'll get a dove
A dove's the bird of passion and feelings
But you left me to rot like a banana's peelings
Sweet lover, I miss you
Do you miss me too?
Sweet Lover, give me your all
Don't let it fall
Give me a call
I get nothing at all
Sweet love, Goodbye
I will love you always *sigh*
Signed,
Your Sweet Lover
I can't seem to turn this frown upside down
You moved far out of town
Now I have no one around
I used to love you
Sadly you don't love me too
Pain and agony runs through me
So much you can see
But not you, you only look for my happiness
but I'm out and in distress
You want the green fresh from the press
I just want to be better than the rest
Attention is what I want
But all you give is a load of taunt
Are you ready for love
Not really, so I'll get a dove
A dove's the bird of passion and feelings
But you left me to rot like a banana's peelings
Sweet lover, I miss you
Do you miss me too?
Sweet Lover, give me your all
Don't let it fall
Give me a call
I get nothing at all
Sweet love, Goodbye
I will love you always *sigh*
Signed,
Your Sweet Lover
My heart is filled with sorrow and pain
You hurt me for your own gain
But I'm moving on to greater things
No matter how much your words sting
I'll always love you
But why couldn't you say I love you too
Keep moving is what I tell myself
Crying my eyes out all by myself
I'm gone for good not coming back
Go in the closet my clothes are off the rack
My pain goes with me wherever I go
I wanna go back but my heart says no
Tell me do miss me
Probably not because your searching for your key
Don't you miss having me around
If not then but now too late I'm out of town
You hurt me for your own gain
But I'm moving on to greater things
No matter how much your words sting
I'll always love you
But why couldn't you say I love you too
Keep moving is what I tell myself
Crying my eyes out all by myself
I'm gone for good not coming back
Go in the closet my clothes are off the rack
My pain goes with me wherever I go
I wanna go back but my heart says no
Tell me do miss me
Probably not because your searching for your key
Don't you miss having me around
If not then but now too late I'm out of town
Sometimes I don't understand
I disconnect my heart and my head
why
why things happen to the people they happen to
why people hurt other people
why we, he, she got hurt
why you hurt me the way-
pardon me-the ways you did
no twelve year old should be hurt and treated the way I was
no one should be hurt and treated the way I was
and I know I danced around the truth
and I know I covered up your tracks
your lyin', cheatin', abusin' ass
you hurt me
but, as they say,
pain demands to be felt
I disconnect my heart and my head
why
why things happen to the people they happen to
why people hurt other people
why we, he, she got hurt
why you hurt me the way-
pardon me-the ways you did
no twelve year old should be hurt and treated the way I was
no one should be hurt and treated the way I was
and I know I danced around the truth
and I know I covered up your tracks
your lyin', cheatin', abusin' ass
you hurt me
but, as they say,
pain demands to be felt
