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Let me start by saying that I can easily develop a strong connection with fictional characters. I’m not sure why that is, but I suppose that’s what makes me a good writer. Because I can put myself in their shoes, see things from their point of view. So, when something happens to one of those characters I can be quite upset about it. I know it’s not real, but it feels real.

I’ve liked Debra Parker from the get go. I know a lot of people suspected her to be one of Joe’s followers, but I never doubted her innocence. Why did so many people think she was a follower? Because she gave Joe...

I'll always remember the day we first met
I was living life in paradise
Now I can assure you that I truly regret
Every time you were on my mind

I was too blind to see the truth
But now I can see right through

'Cause my eyes have been opened
Now I can see who you really are
And I'm not gonna sit and wait here
'Til I can reach your heart
I still believe there's a soul underneath your skin
But I just can't wait for it

I'll never forget the day you screwed it up
You insulted me in a painful way
Next morning it was my time of luck
He was like the answer to my prayers

I was too blind to see the truth
But now I can...

You look upon me with all of your arrogance
And I never know what to say
But I just can't help but always giving you another chance
'Cause when you smile I just melt away

I can hear the music playing
I don't get a word from what they're saying
After all their talking I still can't turn my back on you
I know it's less right than wrong
But without you I just can't go on
And if I have to I'll prefer the lie beyond the truth

Still I know that you're door
Will always be locked for me
I know we're not meant to be
But you know that I won't let go
I'll never walk away
'Cause I'm still hoping I'll be your girl someday...

I'm funny,I'm cheerful,I can make you smile
I'd do anything for you,I'd walk a thousand miles
But you killed the sparkle in my eyes
When you started to tell all your lies
So grab your stuff and leave my life
I won't be the one to sacrifice

Turn around and take a very close look
'Cause you'll never see me again
You can give it your very best shot
But I'll never let you in
So walk away and leave my life
I won't be the one to sacrifice

I'm broken,I'm sad,I wanna make you cry
I'm a mess,I confess,I want you to tell me why
I wanna push you through hell like you did with
I wanna cause you pain,so bad you couldn't...

What’s wrong with me
I no longer seem to find a reason to be happy
Trying to hold back the tears searching their way to my cheeks
Swallowing the scream that’s trying to escape my throat
What wrong with me
Trying to walk away from the darkness that’s surrounding me
Hoping there’ll be a day where I can see things clear
Hoping one day I’ll find my way back home

You better run, run, run, rus as fast as you can
Before I drag you down

I’m a pile of misery
I’m a tormented soul
I’m a prisoner of loss
Captured between my walls
I beg you nice from my knees
Take away this agony
I’m a wreck
‘Cause since...

I keep running to places I should stay away from
I keep committing actions I can’t make undone
I keep spilling words that should remain in my head
‘Cause I don’t want to spoil something this perfect

I keep changing the rules of this self invented game
I keep changing everything that should stay the same
I’m verbalizing words I wish I could take back
‘Cause I don’t want to ruin something this perfect

I want you to whisper my name
And make it sound like a scream
I want you to take me to places
I’ve never been
But I know if I’d listen to my heart I’d regret
‘Cause I don’t want to ruin...

Take my eyes from their sockets
And squeeze them till there’s no tear left to cry
Take my tongue from my mouth
‘Cause there’s nothing left for me to speak about
Take the skin from my bones
Till all is left is a bloody mess
And then take my heart from my chest

Take my heart
Rip it out
Shatter it to pieces
And crush it in the ground
‘Cause all the reasons
I had left to stay
Are one by one
Taken away

Take the spine from my back
‘Cause now there’s no place left for me to go
Take my hands from my arms
‘Cause I have nothing left worth fighting for
Take the skin from my bones
Till all is left is my bare...

My first thought when I wake up goes to you
Just another day I have to get through
And I know I’m overreacting
And I know there are worse things
But right now I feel like I’ve lost the only thing I knew

It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before
And though I want it to stop, I keep asking for more
Guess I rather wallow in hurt, instead of moving on
‘Cause I know the pain, the drama, the tragedy
The tears and the misery
Was worth it all

My last thought before I go to bed is one of despair
‘Cause I can’t figure out how to be when you’re not there
You’re all see, hear, all I can breathe
You haunt...

They say we should stick together
Create a chain and never let go
But I’m not gonna act like a hypocrite
‘Cause I’m fed up with your over-dramatic show
Your criticism doesn’t make any sense
It’s nothing but a bunch of crap
And I doubt I’m on my own in this one
I think a lot of people will confirm that

You wanna start a fight?
Let’s not hesitate
But I’m not the one to underestimate
You wanna start a war?
Let’s have it started
But I won’t be the one left broken hearted

You must be so frustrated
You must be filled with hatred
Living with only a brain cell or two
Knowing you’ll never fit...

Frustration is causing me to pull my hair out
Desperation is causing me to cry my heart out
Imagination has caused my head into the clouds
But realization has caused me to tumble down

Of all the guys I got to know you’re the one I will remember
And I won’t shed a tear, but inside I’ll cry a river

I’m falling back down to earth
My feet steady on the ground
If anything I’ve learned from love
It’s you get lost but never found
Broken down from these emotions
I realize how unfair life is
Still I can’t stop believing
There’s gotta be more than this

Acting like a bitch I abreact on my friends
Hoping...

It's been a while since I wrote a DE song, but here you go :)

I’ve got nowhere to go
Will you reach out your hand
I already know
They won’t understand
They’ll try to break us down
Tear us apart
But they can say all they want
Nothing’s gonna change our hearts

‘Cause I will wait forever for your love
I will keep my patience
And never push you away
And I’ll keep faith the best is yet to come
Doesn’t matter where we are now
‘Cause someday you’ll be mine
Someday

Don’t wanna leave this place
And leave you behind
When I’m with you every moment
I wish I could rewind
Don’t wanna feel so weak
With...

I don’t want to talk right now
I just want to run and crash into a wall
And I don’t want to hit the ground
So, will you be there to catch me when I fall

Will you be there in good times and in bad
Will you console me whenever I feel sad

I’m trying to get over it
I’m forcing myself to forget
But it’s just no use
You’ve got me under your spell
I clear my mind in an attempt
To get you out of my head
But it’s just no use
You’ve got me under your spell

I don’t want need you like
I’ve never needed someone the way I do now
And I don’t want to share my life
With someone who can’t push me up when...