I turned my head and he aimed his lips on my cheek.then he backed up slowly and looked at me with a depressing expression on his face.
Me:Kendall,i really like you but...I'm not ready.sorry.
Kendall:i understand,it's my fault,i was pushing us too fast.
He was staring at my lips.. i really wanted to kiss him,i just—it didn't feel right.not the right time or moment,and i didn't want people to see us making out in his car.
Me:no,you weren't.it's just um.. maybe we should get out now.
I didnt know how to end or finish this conversation,so i tried to go around it.Kendall hopped out and opened the car door for me.i waited for him to unlock the door so i could go in the bathroom and let out my feelings.i still cant believe i had an abortion (read part 11 to know about the abortion) the doctors didnt even tell me what caused it,but i think i already knew.Satan.Satan caused it,he does his best to make me unhappy and it works most of the time.he's not that slick though.i ran inside the house,headed into Kendall's room,and cried my little heart out.i balled my eyes out so much that you could've sworn it rained in there.Kendall was in the living room all that time,but then i heard a little knock at the door.
Kendall:can i come in?
I tumbled out of bed and opened the door,he glanced at me for a few seconds.
Kendall:[name]....
He stepped closer to me.he touched my cheek with one hand,and took my hand with the other.
Kendall:is this about the baby? (Once again,read part 11 to know about the abortion and part 4 for the making of the aborted baby ;) )
Me:y-es
I mumbled through my cracked voice,my throat hurt from the crying.apparently sobbing your eyes out gave you a head ache AND messed with your sinuses.
Kendall:im so sorry,i dont know why this happened.you are healthy and you're young.
Kendall kinda started waltsing with me.we were hugging and we moved our bodies side to side then back and forth.
Kendall:—so there's no reason why this would happen,but dont worry,im going to help you through this.
He looked into my eyes and started studdering,he always gets lost in my eyes.his eyes were easy to get lost in too.he then stepped back a bit so he could look at my face,he had his hands on my waist still,he just moved his head back a little.
Kendall:i know this is very difficult for you,but you're going to make it through this.
He smiled at me and i stopped crying,he wiped my eyes and cheeks with his thumb,and put his hands on my shoulders.
Kendall:Do you feel better now?
I sighed and took a few deep breaths before answering.
Me:i guess so,thanks.
He smiled and i smiled back.
Kendall:so.. maybe we should have some dinner and watch a movie?
Me:i'd like that
We had chicken nuggets and fries,fancy right?we were in the middle of the movie Dodgeball when the phone rang.
Kendall:ill get it!
Kendall said after still laughing at the movie a bit.
Kendall:great.ok.sure.we'll be there.
He put the phone back on the hook.
Kendall:Logan is feeling a lot better and he wants us to come and visit.
Me:sounds good to me.let me go grab my jacket.
I went and got my jacket when i saw baby pictures of when Kendall was a baby on his dresser.
Me:aww,what a cutie!and he still is.
I said to myself smiling when i heard footsteps behind me.
Kendall:lets go!
Kendall started talking to me when we finally got into the car.
Kendall:so i've heard you think i'm cute.
He winked,my cheeks were now like two tomatoes.he giggled at my reaction.
Me:i never said that!
I said quickly and turned the radio on full blast.Kendall shook his head and started the car.when we arrived at the hospital,Kendall had his arm around my waist and we walked in together.when we were walking down the hall people were calling us cute and saying "aww".Kendall felt very uncomfortable because he was blushing so badly and he had the funniest expression.
Kendall:hey buddy!
Me:hey!
I hugged Logan once we saw him.
Logan:hello right back at ya,beautiful.
Kendall:why thank you!
Logan:i was talking to [name],dumb ass...
I laughed,Kendall looked at me then i started to fake a cough.Logan laughed.
Kendall:when do you get out of here?
Logan:tomorrow.
Me:that's great.
The doctor came in finally.it was a woman who was probably in her mid 20's.
Doctor:hello how are you!
She shook our hands.
Doctor:aww,you guys are such a cute couple!
Kendall and i looked at each other at the corner of our eyes.i was waiting for him to say something like "she's just my friend" but he just looked at me.
Me:uhh.. we're just friends.
Doctor:oh,im sorry,but you guys just look so happy together.
Kendall gave me a one armed hug and never did let go.
Doctor:anyways,you guys are gonna have to leave in a few minutes,we're gonna do a few more tests on Logan just to make sure he is ok before he goes back home tomorrow.
Kendall:ok,we were just about to leave.
The doctor smiled and headed out.
Me:well,bye Logie Bear.stay well.
I played with his hair.he looked depressed.it was probably because the doctor thought me and Kendall were a couple,Logan told me he loved me that one time and we kissed when James and i were dating,that's why he's in the hospital and James in jail. (Read parts 8,9,and 10 to know about the drama and why and also how it happened.you can read 11 and 12 too if you want)
Kendall:are you ok?
Logan nodded yes slowly while looking at me with that same depressing look on his face.i could sense that Kendall knew why he seemed so hurt.
Kendall:we're gonna go now,take care!
Kendall waved before we left.we were singing along to HeffronDrive on the way home.i got ready for bed in some appropriate lingerie and went outside on the balcony as soon as possible.i looked out at the stars and just thought some things through.then suddenly i felt two hands grab my waist.
Kendall:are you feeling alright?
Me:yes,i just have a lot on my mind.
Kendall:like what?
Me:things you wouldn't understand.
Kendall:i see.
Me:Kendall..
Kendall:yes?
Me:thank you so much.
Kendall:for what?
I turned to face him,i put my hands on his neck and he kept his on my hips.i stared into his perfect eyes for about five minutes.
Me:for everything.
I kissed him.his lips felt so good against mine.it was perfect.we kissed repeatedly and our bodies pressed up against each other's.he held my face and we kissed once more.we finally released our lips.i felt a spark.we stared at each other for a while and smiled.i then turned back around to look at the stars,and he held my waist and whispered into my ear.
Kendall:those stars aren't even close to being as beautiful as you,not even halfway or almost.
He kissed my head and i smiled.it was very silent then,i broke the silence after 15 minutes.
Me:I'm tired.
Kendall:yeah i guess we can go cuddle,i mean... go to bed.
He smirked.he held my hand and walked me to bed,he get in first and i laid my head on his chest and he had his arm around me,he whispered sweet things in my ear before i fell asleep.
Kendall:i wish we can lay here forever,but we can only stay here until morning.
Me:if only there was no such thing as a morning.
I said against his chest.
Kendall:i love you.
I freaked.i didn't know what to say back,i didn't expect for him to say i love you so fast,and when he said it,i tingled inside.when James said it,nothing went off in my body.
Me:i love you too.
We both then fell asleep.
Me:Kendall,i really like you but...I'm not ready.sorry.
Kendall:i understand,it's my fault,i was pushing us too fast.
He was staring at my lips.. i really wanted to kiss him,i just—it didn't feel right.not the right time or moment,and i didn't want people to see us making out in his car.
Me:no,you weren't.it's just um.. maybe we should get out now.
I didnt know how to end or finish this conversation,so i tried to go around it.Kendall hopped out and opened the car door for me.i waited for him to unlock the door so i could go in the bathroom and let out my feelings.i still cant believe i had an abortion (read part 11 to know about the abortion) the doctors didnt even tell me what caused it,but i think i already knew.Satan.Satan caused it,he does his best to make me unhappy and it works most of the time.he's not that slick though.i ran inside the house,headed into Kendall's room,and cried my little heart out.i balled my eyes out so much that you could've sworn it rained in there.Kendall was in the living room all that time,but then i heard a little knock at the door.
Kendall:can i come in?
I tumbled out of bed and opened the door,he glanced at me for a few seconds.
Kendall:[name]....
He stepped closer to me.he touched my cheek with one hand,and took my hand with the other.
Kendall:is this about the baby? (Once again,read part 11 to know about the abortion and part 4 for the making of the aborted baby ;) )
Me:y-es
I mumbled through my cracked voice,my throat hurt from the crying.apparently sobbing your eyes out gave you a head ache AND messed with your sinuses.
Kendall:im so sorry,i dont know why this happened.you are healthy and you're young.
Kendall kinda started waltsing with me.we were hugging and we moved our bodies side to side then back and forth.
Kendall:—so there's no reason why this would happen,but dont worry,im going to help you through this.
He looked into my eyes and started studdering,he always gets lost in my eyes.his eyes were easy to get lost in too.he then stepped back a bit so he could look at my face,he had his hands on my waist still,he just moved his head back a little.
Kendall:i know this is very difficult for you,but you're going to make it through this.
He smiled at me and i stopped crying,he wiped my eyes and cheeks with his thumb,and put his hands on my shoulders.
Kendall:Do you feel better now?
I sighed and took a few deep breaths before answering.
Me:i guess so,thanks.
He smiled and i smiled back.
Kendall:so.. maybe we should have some dinner and watch a movie?
Me:i'd like that
We had chicken nuggets and fries,fancy right?we were in the middle of the movie Dodgeball when the phone rang.
Kendall:ill get it!
Kendall said after still laughing at the movie a bit.
Kendall:great.ok.sure.we'll be there.
He put the phone back on the hook.
Kendall:Logan is feeling a lot better and he wants us to come and visit.
Me:sounds good to me.let me go grab my jacket.
I went and got my jacket when i saw baby pictures of when Kendall was a baby on his dresser.
Me:aww,what a cutie!and he still is.
I said to myself smiling when i heard footsteps behind me.
Kendall:lets go!
Kendall started talking to me when we finally got into the car.
Kendall:so i've heard you think i'm cute.
He winked,my cheeks were now like two tomatoes.he giggled at my reaction.
Me:i never said that!
I said quickly and turned the radio on full blast.Kendall shook his head and started the car.when we arrived at the hospital,Kendall had his arm around my waist and we walked in together.when we were walking down the hall people were calling us cute and saying "aww".Kendall felt very uncomfortable because he was blushing so badly and he had the funniest expression.
Kendall:hey buddy!
Me:hey!
I hugged Logan once we saw him.
Logan:hello right back at ya,beautiful.
Kendall:why thank you!
Logan:i was talking to [name],dumb ass...
I laughed,Kendall looked at me then i started to fake a cough.Logan laughed.
Kendall:when do you get out of here?
Logan:tomorrow.
Me:that's great.
The doctor came in finally.it was a woman who was probably in her mid 20's.
Doctor:hello how are you!
She shook our hands.
Doctor:aww,you guys are such a cute couple!
Kendall and i looked at each other at the corner of our eyes.i was waiting for him to say something like "she's just my friend" but he just looked at me.
Me:uhh.. we're just friends.
Doctor:oh,im sorry,but you guys just look so happy together.
Kendall gave me a one armed hug and never did let go.
Doctor:anyways,you guys are gonna have to leave in a few minutes,we're gonna do a few more tests on Logan just to make sure he is ok before he goes back home tomorrow.
Kendall:ok,we were just about to leave.
The doctor smiled and headed out.
Me:well,bye Logie Bear.stay well.
I played with his hair.he looked depressed.it was probably because the doctor thought me and Kendall were a couple,Logan told me he loved me that one time and we kissed when James and i were dating,that's why he's in the hospital and James in jail. (Read parts 8,9,and 10 to know about the drama and why and also how it happened.you can read 11 and 12 too if you want)
Kendall:are you ok?
Logan nodded yes slowly while looking at me with that same depressing look on his face.i could sense that Kendall knew why he seemed so hurt.
Kendall:we're gonna go now,take care!
Kendall waved before we left.we were singing along to HeffronDrive on the way home.i got ready for bed in some appropriate lingerie and went outside on the balcony as soon as possible.i looked out at the stars and just thought some things through.then suddenly i felt two hands grab my waist.
Kendall:are you feeling alright?
Me:yes,i just have a lot on my mind.
Kendall:like what?
Me:things you wouldn't understand.
Kendall:i see.
Me:Kendall..
Kendall:yes?
Me:thank you so much.
Kendall:for what?
I turned to face him,i put my hands on his neck and he kept his on my hips.i stared into his perfect eyes for about five minutes.
Me:for everything.
I kissed him.his lips felt so good against mine.it was perfect.we kissed repeatedly and our bodies pressed up against each other's.he held my face and we kissed once more.we finally released our lips.i felt a spark.we stared at each other for a while and smiled.i then turned back around to look at the stars,and he held my waist and whispered into my ear.
Kendall:those stars aren't even close to being as beautiful as you,not even halfway or almost.
He kissed my head and i smiled.it was very silent then,i broke the silence after 15 minutes.
Me:I'm tired.
Kendall:yeah i guess we can go cuddle,i mean... go to bed.
He smirked.he held my hand and walked me to bed,he get in first and i laid my head on his chest and he had his arm around me,he whispered sweet things in my ear before i fell asleep.
Kendall:i wish we can lay here forever,but we can only stay here until morning.
Me:if only there was no such thing as a morning.
I said against his chest.
Kendall:i love you.
I freaked.i didn't know what to say back,i didn't expect for him to say i love you so fast,and when he said it,i tingled inside.when James said it,nothing went off in my body.
Me:i love you too.
We both then fell asleep.
