I refuse. I simply refuse to lose this battle. all this...this crap, it's not my fault. No.Why am I so stubborn? Why do I only indulge in myself? I let her die. I let them both die. I have to pay the price. But i refuse to go into the cat's room. As I pass the cherry blossom trees, I can only wonder if they know that one day they'll simply die and fall off the tree? Well anyways, that doesn't matter. None of it does. they'll only just grow back. Staying the same, unchanging. Just like the curse. It'll never change. Eternity is eternity after all. But she understands. She's like a beautiful flower that got mixed up with the wrong pesticides, because i know that me being with her will only hurt her. But i love her. If i had one wish, it would be that she stays happy forever. Even if it doesn't caused by me, I'll do whatever it takes. Regardless, she'll only say that it would be a waste on her. But i beg to differ. So like Tohru. As i open the door to my house, i know I'll hear her say "Welcome back, Kyo-kun!" *creak* "Welcome home Kyo! knew it! "yeah, hey" she looks a little frantic... "um... is Shishou doing well?" oh "yeah, he's okay i guess" I wonder why she's so nice? i thought that ever since the night that i transformed, that she would be more distant, but for some reason i'm starting to see her more and more. and i feel like it's not a coincidence. I wonder if she's still thinks about that night from time to time. Maybe I've become a man, or am i still a 17 year old child? Whatever it is, i know that i'll make her smile one way or another. " um... Kyo-kun, there's been something I've been wanting to tell you...

to be continued in Tohru: A face in the hall and a man in a throne.