For starters... It wasn't summer school. It's computer orientation. We get our computers and learn how to use the programs on it and how to actually use the computer. It's complicated. Anyways!
Right, so I was nervous. I didn't know anyone so I sat in the back of the room. Non of my old school friends had gotten there yet. I checked in and found out who my teacher for the week was and everything and I pulled out my phone:
Me: Where r u?!
Peanut: We got stuck n traffic on the interstate! Sorry!
Me: I'm so scared! Idk anyone here!
Peanut: Chill! We got off, almost there!
I put my phone back in my bag and looked up and saw my friend Elizabeth. I ran to her and gave her a huge bear hug. "Thank gawd you here! I looked like a loner for the first ten minutes I got here!"
Elizabeth laughed at me, "Where do we check in? I thought you weren't coming this week."
"Right over there and change of plans. We won state and regionals is during the week of my class."
"That's good. I don't want to be alone at lunch."
We sat in the back and talked for a little bit and Peanut got there late so in the middle of the orientation she text me and my phone wasn't on silent so I sat on my phone all embarrassed and chiz.
When I got to my classroom I realized I was the only one from my school in there. Status: Loner...again. I was assigned to sit next to a girl I didn't know at all, so me being me, I popped a joke the first five minutes of class and got her laughing. Okay good, I'm funny. Nice way to start off. So we became friends fast and later that week I made probably around 20 friends. I was feeling pretty proud of myself. And the thing was, I wasn't feeling any bit of attraction to any of the girls here. I mean, sure they were cute and fun, but I was fine. I mean, I was making jokes, being out there, mingling and all that fun stuff. You could say I was a bit of the class clown. But there was this one school that was throwing me off a bit. They kept playing as lesbians and messing with me and stuff so I kinda laughed at them nervously with my hands in my pockets. So on Friday, our last day, I was hanging with my old friend who left our elementary school when we were in 4th grade and transferred to a different school. She introduced me to all her friends and they asked me to show them the Drive By Drill joke they all heard about from my school. And there was this one girl I kept glancing at. Her name was Anna. I don't know what I thought was so special about her. She was quiet. She had long brown hair and brown eyes. And she had this crazy blonde friend she stuck to named Caroline. She was hilarious. They all asked for my number so I gave it to them. It was a good day. My mind had drifted away from Anna.
I was walking around downtown with my friends. I had posted something quite depressing on instagram earlier. I had gotten into a fight with my best friend so I put up a quote regarding our situation. So I get a text from Anna:
Anna: Hey, i saw your post on instagram. If you need anything, I'm here.
Me:Thanks, how've you been?
...
Our conversation went from there then it got to this very touchy spot for me:
This is sorta in the middle of the conversation. I was hanging with my friends and we went to eat lunch away from our own team.
Me: We ditched our team
Anna: bad girls!
Me: Yes, I'm very bad
Anna: Bad AJ!
Me: Haha! You know you love it!
Anna: Turns me on!
Me: yeah baby
Anna: Date me! hahahahaha
So I'm staring at my phone like, Is she serious? Course not. I'll play the I care about you and I barely know you so I won't accidentally admit I'm gay card.
Me:....but...your talking to someone besides me
Anna: Aww darn
Me: Shame, I'd take you to Disney World
Anna: uhhhh yeah I'll cheat! hahaha jk
Me: Oh Anna! You bad girl!
I've got it so bad for this girl and she doesn't even know she was being a tease. Later that night we were sorta flirting and she says Lol, we're so gay. Wow she really doesn't know.... I told a girl that I met at our new school that I was gay yesterday and she sounded like she didn't believe me at first and then I told her I was as serious as a heart attack. And to my relief she said that she supported me. I had to explain to her that just because we were going to an all girls school didn't mean I was going to be out of control or however you want to put it. Out of the 100 girls I saw that week, I fell for 1. And I fell hard. Eventually everyone will find out...but I guess that's how it's gotta go. And when people do find out I'm just going to look them in the eye and say, "I doubt I'm the only girl at this school who's like this. And with all due respect, I don't care what everyone thinks of me. I'm still the same girl you met over the summer. If this one difference changes your whole thought process of me, then that's your problem. Not mine."
When I mention something like "this one school" or something, I mean that there are groups of girls who came from the same school who are hanging with each other. Just so y'all aren't confused.
Right, so I was nervous. I didn't know anyone so I sat in the back of the room. Non of my old school friends had gotten there yet. I checked in and found out who my teacher for the week was and everything and I pulled out my phone:
Me: Where r u?!
Peanut: We got stuck n traffic on the interstate! Sorry!
Me: I'm so scared! Idk anyone here!
Peanut: Chill! We got off, almost there!
I put my phone back in my bag and looked up and saw my friend Elizabeth. I ran to her and gave her a huge bear hug. "Thank gawd you here! I looked like a loner for the first ten minutes I got here!"
Elizabeth laughed at me, "Where do we check in? I thought you weren't coming this week."
"Right over there and change of plans. We won state and regionals is during the week of my class."
"That's good. I don't want to be alone at lunch."
We sat in the back and talked for a little bit and Peanut got there late so in the middle of the orientation she text me and my phone wasn't on silent so I sat on my phone all embarrassed and chiz.
When I got to my classroom I realized I was the only one from my school in there. Status: Loner...again. I was assigned to sit next to a girl I didn't know at all, so me being me, I popped a joke the first five minutes of class and got her laughing. Okay good, I'm funny. Nice way to start off. So we became friends fast and later that week I made probably around 20 friends. I was feeling pretty proud of myself. And the thing was, I wasn't feeling any bit of attraction to any of the girls here. I mean, sure they were cute and fun, but I was fine. I mean, I was making jokes, being out there, mingling and all that fun stuff. You could say I was a bit of the class clown. But there was this one school that was throwing me off a bit. They kept playing as lesbians and messing with me and stuff so I kinda laughed at them nervously with my hands in my pockets. So on Friday, our last day, I was hanging with my old friend who left our elementary school when we were in 4th grade and transferred to a different school. She introduced me to all her friends and they asked me to show them the Drive By Drill joke they all heard about from my school. And there was this one girl I kept glancing at. Her name was Anna. I don't know what I thought was so special about her. She was quiet. She had long brown hair and brown eyes. And she had this crazy blonde friend she stuck to named Caroline. She was hilarious. They all asked for my number so I gave it to them. It was a good day. My mind had drifted away from Anna.
I was walking around downtown with my friends. I had posted something quite depressing on instagram earlier. I had gotten into a fight with my best friend so I put up a quote regarding our situation. So I get a text from Anna:
Anna: Hey, i saw your post on instagram. If you need anything, I'm here.
Me:Thanks, how've you been?
...
Our conversation went from there then it got to this very touchy spot for me:
This is sorta in the middle of the conversation. I was hanging with my friends and we went to eat lunch away from our own team.
Me: We ditched our team
Anna: bad girls!
Me: Yes, I'm very bad
Anna: Bad AJ!
Me: Haha! You know you love it!
Anna: Turns me on!
Me: yeah baby
Anna: Date me! hahahahaha
So I'm staring at my phone like, Is she serious? Course not. I'll play the I care about you and I barely know you so I won't accidentally admit I'm gay card.
Me:....but...your talking to someone besides me
Anna: Aww darn
Me: Shame, I'd take you to Disney World
Anna: uhhhh yeah I'll cheat! hahaha jk
Me: Oh Anna! You bad girl!
I've got it so bad for this girl and she doesn't even know she was being a tease. Later that night we were sorta flirting and she says Lol, we're so gay. Wow she really doesn't know.... I told a girl that I met at our new school that I was gay yesterday and she sounded like she didn't believe me at first and then I told her I was as serious as a heart attack. And to my relief she said that she supported me. I had to explain to her that just because we were going to an all girls school didn't mean I was going to be out of control or however you want to put it. Out of the 100 girls I saw that week, I fell for 1. And I fell hard. Eventually everyone will find out...but I guess that's how it's gotta go. And when people do find out I'm just going to look them in the eye and say, "I doubt I'm the only girl at this school who's like this. And with all due respect, I don't care what everyone thinks of me. I'm still the same girl you met over the summer. If this one difference changes your whole thought process of me, then that's your problem. Not mine."
When I mention something like "this one school" or something, I mean that there are groups of girls who came from the same school who are hanging with each other. Just so y'all aren't confused.
