My heart was crying the whole time that I was fighting against the you, my brother, on that fiery planet. Did I not keep the promises I had made long ago? What happen to us my brother? When did you decide to travel down that dark path of the Sith? Why couldn’t you have told me that you planning this before it was too late for me to save you? I loved you.
I had grown to love you. I grew attached to you. I’ve sacrificed everything so I could train you against my better judgement. I knew from the beginning that you were dangerous and that your future was clouded, but if only I had known that your destiny now lies in the darkness.
You gave me a reason to live after I had lost my father to the Sith? You were my soul reason that I hadn’t strayed to the dark side of the Force?
Could you not have seen what I had lost, just so I could honour a promise I had made to you and to Qui-Gon.
Not only have I lost my father, my Master, to the Sith, but now I have lost a son, my brother and the best friend I could ever had to the Sith.
What is it about the Sith that had encouraged you to embrace the darkness, my brother?
Only with the Light would you have seen your beautiful children being born. Only you could have given your beautiful wife something to live for. Padme had lost the will to live because of you, my brother and now I must travel through this Sith forsaken Empire alone without you by my side.
With out you I have nothing.
I have lost so much since you’ve been gone.
I loved you, but I couldn’t show you my true feelings to you. I am a Jedi, I could not afford to love someone again. For it will only bring me pain in the end. I have lost the ones I had truly cared for because of you.
Because of you and your Emperor. The Jedi are no more. Even if there were some Jedi living in this world that you have helped created, my brother, you would have hunted down every Jedi and kill them like animals. Have you not learn anything after you have massacred Tusken Raiders? They may have been the ones to have killed your mother, but surely you must’ve learnt that lesson. Killing things out of anger, hate, fear, and all of the other ingredients that strive a Sith to do their worst to innocents, is not the way to go.
You have driven away all of those who have truly cared for by your actions. I am not even sure if I could ever face you again after what you have done to my family and friends.
I trusted you and look what you have done to that trust I had for you and for you alone. I should’ve known better the day I had decided to train you. I should’ve gone along with the Council’s wishes and to against the promise I had made to Qui-Gon. It probably would’ve saved me from this pain in my chest.
Could you not hear my heart breaking as our lightsabers clashed against one another? Could you not see the tears burning my eyes? Could you not see that I had come to save you, not kill you – but your hatred had taken over the goodness within your heart.
You couldn’t see past through the lies that Palpatine had spun right in front of you? You had killed innocent younglings because of your blind faith in that evil, twisted man. Did I not tell you not to trust politicians?
Why didn’t you listen to me when I had told you specifically to be aware of your friend Palpatine? You would trust him, but not me, with your dirty little secrets.
All I have ever done is the best I could, but you wouldn’t open your eyes up. Your anger and your lust for power had driven you to madness.
I guess that the Council was correct all along. You were dangerous and someone not worthy of my trust.
After what you have done to the Jedi, to Padme, and to yourself. what have you have you learnt? What did you gain after our heart wrenching duel back on Mustafar? Have you learnt your lesson, yet? You were always a slow learner, my brother, but that didn’t stop me from loving you until the very end.
My heart is still crying after all of these years since you’ve been gone, my brother. I wish you have been here to have seen your son to grow up to be fine young man, who is still ignorant of his destiny. He is the hope that everyone has been waiting for.
And one day he’ll be ready to face you, unaware of you being his father, he has been graving to know for so long. I wish I could tell him, but that will only break his spirit. Perhaps turn him into you? I don’t want to see that child to become the next victim.
My weary old bones wouldn’t be able to handle it.
I know that one day we’ll be meeting again, but not yet, not yet I say to myself. For I know that will be the last time I will see you, my brother.
I have been sitting, or laying about, in my little hovel on Tatooine remembering the good old days that are long gone by now and I will never have the privilege of spending some quality time with Bant, Garen, Reeft, or even with you, my brother.
For it was because of you that my friends have now become one with the Force and I am anxiously waiting for the day when I will be meeting with them again. Perhaps I will even see my old Master again and to ask him why? Why did he make me promise? What did he see in you that we could not?
Until we meet again my brother. I will be staying right here in my hovel and wait for the opportune moment. I will never forget the goodness of your old heart, which has now become consumed by your hatred.
You were my truest friend, Anakin Skywalker. Never forget that. I wish you were still alive. I never again want to see what you have become. but we will. For it is the will of the Force and I have always been, always will be, a loyal servant of the Light side of the Force. I am a Jedi, just as you once were my brother, and so will die as a Jedi.
Because of you I am recollecting all that has been lost and forgotten. To even remember what it was like to be a guardian of peace and justice is what I wish I still was. And not as a broken Jedi Master.
Until the end of time, I will live on.
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