a crowd always cheers.
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I don't understand it,
but it brings me to tears.
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It thrills people silly
to throw me around
and make me go bouncing
across the hard ground.
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What have I done
to deserve this cruel fate?
I've gone from just mad
to completely irate!
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I'm battered by bats
just to make the crowd shout.
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I am sick of this game-
it's not safe, I want out!
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WHO AM I?
rough like the sea
of my memories.
Those live
inside me
and speak
through my eyes.
Sadness
is hidden there,
but was seen...
How apt
can you be
to hide your
feelings from
the others?
Can they see,
can they feel?
Sleepless nights
for noiseless cry,
rough feelings
to encourage
the pain that
still lives within.
Pain is waiting
to be fed
by these precious
memories
I still keep
as if those are
significant.
And yet
this very night
is all mine,
waiting for me
to confess.
Oust the pain
that chokes you,
unburden your soul
by talking
only in nights,
silently,
so nobody can hear,
nobody can hear
your cry,
the cry screams inside.
You have built
the wall around
yourself,
so nobody can see,
so nobody can feel
the cage
you live in.
Nights
spent in thinking,
spent in turmoil,
but who will know,
who will see,
who cares
to think
of the cage
you live in?
The same song
over and over again.
The same song
inside your mind.
But who will know?
Who cares?
Nobody
can hear
anyway.
Nobody can see
the cage
you live in.
It's only you
inside your agony,
along with your pain,
your demons
are feeding with your
toss,
they live inside,
they remain in fear,
nobody can see
the cage
you live in.
They crawl
inside your skin,
poisoning your blood,
disturbing your mind.
Your demons,
they live inside.
Your demons are
pent in your mind,
so they can feed
by the riots
of your soul,
so they can remain
in your fear,
but nobody can see
the cage
you live in.
She Doesn't Know
By Cody Herman
Through the window I stare next door
When is she coming out
She's the only one I adore
But then why do I doubt
Her hair is golden like the sun
Shining bright and strong for all to see
She looks at me and I'm undone
I didn't foresee that she was the one for me
Why do I hesitate
It wasn't too long ago
My heart beats at a faster rate
But she doesn't know
The power she has over me
I putty in her hands
She just couldn't leave me be
Her wish is my command
When will I find the courage
To tell her how I feel
Am I able to break this bridge
Will I stand or I kneel
I can't do it
I'm afraid she'll say no
I need to get a grip
She still doesn't know
By Cody Herman
Through the window I stare next door
When is she coming out
She's the only one I adore
But then why do I doubt
Her hair is golden like the sun
Shining bright and strong for all to see
She looks at me and I'm undone
I didn't foresee that she was the one for me
Why do I hesitate
It wasn't too long ago
My heart beats at a faster rate
But she doesn't know
The power she has over me
I putty in her hands
She just couldn't leave me be
Her wish is my command
When will I find the courage
To tell her how I feel
Am I able to break this bridge
Will I stand or I kneel
I can't do it
I'm afraid she'll say no
I need to get a grip
She still doesn't know
cause it might come true
ive learned that lesson the hard way
i wished that no one would care for me
i got that wish and everyone turns there backs
on me thanks to me and my stupid wishing.
thanks to me people are gone in hell were they think they belong i hope they know they dont belong in hellthey should be in heaven .
thanks to me people leave me i wish i could go away and stay away thanks to me everyone hates me.
nobody cares for me im all alone someone save me from me living a living hell help me now if you even care!
odoriferous
and soft,
and yet
tainted by
your touch.
Dirt
I can not wash
of myself
still remains.
I can sense you.
My skin,
covered with
sins that
can not
be washed,
can not
be cleaned.
I still feel you.
My eyes,
empty
and filled
in the same time.
You're still
hiding here,
in tears
and memories.
I still see you.
Heart,
trapped
in lies
and
sweetness
is trying to
forget
all you
gave,
all you
took away.
It still lives
in longing....
She walked across the frozen lake carelessly,
It cracked under her feet threatening to break
She breathed in as she reached the middle
The ice had numbed her feet but she did not care
She liked the feeling of numbness, there was no pain
The cold night breeze numb the rest until she was shaking
She fell to the ground holding herself
She heard her name being called in the distance
But she did not call back to them
Instead she laid there waiting for death to take her.
It soon became silent and her vision faded.
Her breaths became shorter and her heart weaker
Soon she stopped shaking and was motionless
It cracked under her feet threatening to break
She breathed in as she reached the middle
The ice had numbed her feet but she did not care
She liked the feeling of numbness, there was no pain
The cold night breeze numb the rest until she was shaking
She fell to the ground holding herself
She heard her name being called in the distance
But she did not call back to them
Instead she laid there waiting for death to take her.
It soon became silent and her vision faded.
Her breaths became shorter and her heart weaker
Soon she stopped shaking and was motionless
I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this poem because it is quite personal but I figured why not...
Brother
Are you my brother or are you a vicious stranger?
How could you stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?
You wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face you portray nothing but lies and hate...
Day after day you throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...
No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and you will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery
While you will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you
Brother
Are you my brother or are you a vicious stranger?
How could you stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?
You wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face you portray nothing but lies and hate...
Day after day you throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...
No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and you will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery
While you will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you
FAR FROM THE DARK
BY JEREMY GOULD
Here I am
spitting in the face of adversity
There you go
closing the door on our destiny
Sat up all night
as my mind swelled up with fear
I was alone again
with nothing to stop the tears
I walked outside
as the moon rose
The night became foggy
Silence as I froze
Life's my partner
My partner in crime
But with every thought of you
I wish to die
Lived through hardships galore
Searching for the slightest spark
Trying to get closer to the light
Just to be far from the dark
BY JEREMY GOULD
Here I am
spitting in the face of adversity
There you go
closing the door on our destiny
Sat up all night
as my mind swelled up with fear
I was alone again
with nothing to stop the tears
I walked outside
as the moon rose
The night became foggy
Silence as I froze
Life's my partner
My partner in crime
But with every thought of you
I wish to die
Lived through hardships galore
Searching for the slightest spark
Trying to get closer to the light
Just to be far from the dark
Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living by the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my bitter existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living by the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my bitter existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
1, 2, 3, and 4, and 5
You split from me to stay alive
6 and 7 and 8 and 9
I can't keep track - which one am I?
Though some are new, I'm friends with you
Who got stronger, and I just knew
The ones who hid, never spoke to me
They're empty personalities
The system's heart, the person's mind
Are pieces of a different kind
You're just another part of me
Yet I need you; we'll never be free
The broken place that we called home
Had crumbled away long ago
Embrace me in a falsified world
I might believe, then, what I've heard
Your fury seemed unjustified
But I saw the past and realized
And in your voice that carried through
I heard it then…
"I'll protect you"
....no notes on this one, except: it was short and I wrote it a bit too quickly. Also, I'm aliiiiiiiiiive!! I've mostly been blogging and drawing over the past 6 months, so. Um. I'll babble about this somewhere else.
You split from me to stay alive
6 and 7 and 8 and 9
I can't keep track - which one am I?
Though some are new, I'm friends with you
Who got stronger, and I just knew
The ones who hid, never spoke to me
They're empty personalities
The system's heart, the person's mind
Are pieces of a different kind
You're just another part of me
Yet I need you; we'll never be free
The broken place that we called home
Had crumbled away long ago
Embrace me in a falsified world
I might believe, then, what I've heard
Your fury seemed unjustified
But I saw the past and realized
And in your voice that carried through
I heard it then…
"I'll protect you"
....no notes on this one, except: it was short and I wrote it a bit too quickly. Also, I'm aliiiiiiiiiive!! I've mostly been blogging and drawing over the past 6 months, so. Um. I'll babble about this somewhere else.
The line 'love is a fallacy' isn't justified,
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when love is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.
Know that gold has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
Love cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that love can hold, can only be caught.
I would not compare love to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
Love is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.
The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
It's beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when love is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.
Know that gold has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
Love cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that love can hold, can only be caught.
I would not compare love to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
Love is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.
The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
It's beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.
be quiet!
Let it burns inside!
Let my imagination
to be wild!
Be quiet!
Let me feel this moment
the way I want.
Let me feel,
I long to be with him.
Lust,
be quiet.
This thought
should be
locked inside.
He'll hear,
so be quiet,
he'll feel,
so be quiet.
A touch,
that's why
I dream even
when I'm awake.
Oh lust,
be quiet.
Those kisses
burn on my skin
and I want
to remember
that feeling,
I want to keep
that moment
as if it's
eternal.
I want
to dream.
Oh lust,
Be quiet.
He'll hear.
