Seeing the world through a different perspective
Different
But mismatched
Like the squares on my quilt
That I thought were the same
For so many years.
I see the world through different eyes
I see beauty
Sorrow
And forgiveness
Envy
Betrayal
Oh so differently
For most, the color of hope
Is a pale pink or white
But while others see purity
I see, what I've heard described as,
A festering, pus yellow
The color of an open wound.
For most, the color of mistrust is black.
For most, black is the color is deceit
But when others see black,
I see a blinding white.
White like the robes of the nurses and doctors
My family has hired to
Examine
My twisted, crooked, sick, gnarled mind.
The poke and prod at my body,
Trying to discover a mutilation
Or deformity that
Has made me bitter.
Little do the know.
For you who do not see as I do
Black is the color of comfort.
Of escape
From the harsh reality of the world.
White is the color of falsity,
Of a pure white gown
Covering
The dried and crusted blood
On my body.
Little do they know,
My sickness is not in my mind,
But in my eyes.
The way I see the world.
All because I am
Color blind.
Different
But mismatched
Like the squares on my quilt
That I thought were the same
For so many years.
I see the world through different eyes
I see beauty
Sorrow
And forgiveness
Envy
Betrayal
Oh so differently
For most, the color of hope
Is a pale pink or white
But while others see purity
I see, what I've heard described as,
A festering, pus yellow
The color of an open wound.
For most, the color of mistrust is black.
For most, black is the color is deceit
But when others see black,
I see a blinding white.
White like the robes of the nurses and doctors
My family has hired to
Examine
My twisted, crooked, sick, gnarled mind.
The poke and prod at my body,
Trying to discover a mutilation
Or deformity that
Has made me bitter.
Little do the know.
For you who do not see as I do
Black is the color of comfort.
Of escape
From the harsh reality of the world.
White is the color of falsity,
Of a pure white gown
Covering
The dried and crusted blood
On my body.
Little do they know,
My sickness is not in my mind,
But in my eyes.
The way I see the world.
All because I am
Color blind.
No matter where you go guilt will follow you there
Don't be scared or affraid
Guilt will show you all the mistakes you've made
It can eat you alive
The only way to survive is to tell the bitter truth
If you live out the rest of your days
You'll never escape it you'll be trapped in it's maze
Struggling to forget the guilt in your shallow soul
That is forever rising like a fire when you add coal
Your guilt drives you insane and follows you forever
You'll go to your grave with it unless you
Never tell another lie as long as you live
The End
For Now Anyways
Don't Be Affraid
Romance, who loves to nod and sing,
With drowsy head and folded wing,
Among the green leaves as they shake
Far down within some shadowy lake,
To me a painted paroquet
Hath been a most familiar bird
Taught me my alphabet to say
To lisp my very earliest word
While in the wild wood I did lie,
A child- with a most knowing eye.
Of late, eternal Condor years
So shake the very Heaven on high
With tumult as they thunder by,
I have no time for idle cares
Through gazing on the unquiet sky.
And when an hour with calmer wings
Its down upon my spirit flings
That little time with lyre and rhyme
To while away- forbidden things !
My heart would feel to be a crime
Unless it trembled with the strings.
Eldorado
Gaily bedight,
A gallant knight,
In sunshine and shadow,
Had journeyed long,
Singing a song,
In search for Eldorado.
But he grew old –
This knight so bold –
And o’er his heart a shadow
Fell, as he found
No spot of ground
That looked like Eldorado
And, as his strength
Failed at length,
He met a pilgrim shadow –
“Shadow,” said he ,
“Where can it be, -
This land of Eldorado?”
“Over the Mountains
Of the moon,
Down the Valley of the Shadow,
Ride , boldly ride,”
The shade replied,
“If you seek for Eldorado!”
- Edgar Allan Poe
Gaily bedight,
A gallant knight,
In sunshine and shadow,
Had journeyed long,
Singing a song,
In search for Eldorado.
But he grew old –
This knight so bold –
And o’er his heart a shadow
Fell, as he found
No spot of ground
That looked like Eldorado
And, as his strength
Failed at length,
He met a pilgrim shadow –
“Shadow,” said he ,
“Where can it be, -
This land of Eldorado?”
“Over the Mountains
Of the moon,
Down the Valley of the Shadow,
Ride , boldly ride,”
The shade replied,
“If you seek for Eldorado!”
- Edgar Allan Poe
cry, cry, let the tears roll down.
the willows will weep for thee.
by the river i see thine frown.
and thine bloodshot eyes see me.
the flowers covered in morning dew.
droop and hang their heads.
the water runs on one or two.
they cry into the riverbed.
i wade across the water cold.
to embrace you in my arms.
for be you young or be you old.
a hug will do no harm.
you see me fight the current.
as i try to get across.
i see the helping hand you lend.
and i see the tears have lost.
you smile and, despite being sodden.
you wrap your arms around me.
the darkness inside you has finally fallen.
and i know that sad you will never be.
the willows will weep for thee.
by the river i see thine frown.
and thine bloodshot eyes see me.
the flowers covered in morning dew.
droop and hang their heads.
the water runs on one or two.
they cry into the riverbed.
i wade across the water cold.
to embrace you in my arms.
for be you young or be you old.
a hug will do no harm.
you see me fight the current.
as i try to get across.
i see the helping hand you lend.
and i see the tears have lost.
you smile and, despite being sodden.
you wrap your arms around me.
the darkness inside you has finally fallen.
and i know that sad you will never be.
and each one of us lived their lives.
Can't you see where you are now?
You and me where now?..
I am very sorry for us,
that parting shouldn't have happened to us.
But what can I say?
My heart has expired!
But I can't blame you,
this was the life fault.
Oh darling, even if had passed billion years would never forget who eased my mind such as you!
Come back please!
Who's else you can feel the peace of mind with?
I swear my life without you isn't a life,
you still on my mind.
Come back again!
Wasn't me, weren't you, but the life fault.
That sound...where have I heard it before?
* Tick tick tick tick tick*
That sound.....it sounds so fimliar...where have I heard it before?
My heart stops as I remember......
That the sound of my memories fading into nothing...but vague dreams.
Vague dreams that I do not want to remember....but have to...or everything will stop.
*Tick tick tick tick*
How much time left...until it all disappears?....
* tick....tick...tick...*
Ah, there it goes...the memories I had of you...of them.
They are starting to leave ...to fade.
*Tick.*
Haha, there....it's done.
*Click*
Remember Forever....nothing ever really disappears ....
I will never involve myself
in any-thing that isn't estranged
from me being inside your heart
and soul that you expose only
to me.
As you find an impylse to
any-kind of reason that will
imply me being amazed by
what you do with your life as
it comes to you.
inside your heart and
your soul, lies a man
that cannot stand on
his own two feet alone,
as he looks for ways to
escape the terrifying
out-look on the life that
he wants and needs to
leave out now.
But you carry the weight
of love on your shoulders
as you give away your delayed
response to the questions that
seem to be playing around inside
your mind as of right now.
in any-thing that isn't estranged
from me being inside your heart
and soul that you expose only
to me.
As you find an impylse to
any-kind of reason that will
imply me being amazed by
what you do with your life as
it comes to you.
inside your heart and
your soul, lies a man
that cannot stand on
his own two feet alone,
as he looks for ways to
escape the terrifying
out-look on the life that
he wants and needs to
leave out now.
But you carry the weight
of love on your shoulders
as you give away your delayed
response to the questions that
seem to be playing around inside
your mind as of right now.
Their hooves going
"Clippity clop, clippity clop"
Running faster than the wind
Its mane flowing in the air
Around and around the track it goes
Not stopping
Faster and faster the heart is pumping
Heaving, breath after breath
One hoof goes over the other
Nostrils flaring
Its green eyes lighting up
The bit squeezes the jaw
The whip thundering down onto the horse
Crossing the finish line
Being rewarded with glory
And back into it's lonely stable it goes
Your words trasform me
And shower upon me like a water fall
Your touch so calm as the sea
Makes me come alive
Only to be turned off when you leave
The thought of you helps me to survive
I stare at you from affar
Waiting for you to notice me
My love for you slowly burning out like a star
And finnaly dying out
With no feelings left at all
Why do I feel this way
Like I want to scream
Like my mouths on mute and I have nothing to say
Do I need you to be my cruch
When I'm hurt
Do I rely on you depend on you and such
And why do I dream of you every night
And think of you everyday
Even though your out of my eyesight
And shower upon me like a water fall
Your touch so calm as the sea
Makes me come alive
Only to be turned off when you leave
The thought of you helps me to survive
I stare at you from affar
Waiting for you to notice me
My love for you slowly burning out like a star
And finnaly dying out
With no feelings left at all
Why do I feel this way
Like I want to scream
Like my mouths on mute and I have nothing to say
Do I need you to be my cruch
When I'm hurt
Do I rely on you depend on you and such
And why do I dream of you every night
And think of you everyday
Even though your out of my eyesight
Love is enough: though the world be a-waning,
And the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,
Though the skies be too dark for dim eyes to discover
The gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,
Though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,
And this day draw a veil over all deeds passed over,
Yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter:
The void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter
These lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.
And the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,
Though the skies be too dark for dim eyes to discover
The gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,
Though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,
And this day draw a veil over all deeds passed over,
Yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter:
The void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter
These lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
Life
What if Life Happens
Life dose happen
What if i Cant Take it
ill Take it
What if.....,
You say ur nothing
i know ur Everything
Cover ur heart With my Soul
I Hate u
Hatred
Sarrow
pain
Love
You
Forevever
Tonite stay with me
Close ur Eyes And Let the Heavans dream
Tomorrow Love me say my name
Your Voice like Angels
Everything
u are
Nothin
i am
Love
We are
Compadable
never leave me
I Never Hurt
Sorrow
Despair
Pain
Anxiaty
Never
you
Never
Me
Come to me i will love you in a world That has Forgotton
I Rember
I Rember ur Name Frome the first time we met
I Rember
Sadness Tell me You
You Cant Tell a Sad Story To Heart Thats Been Torn
You Can Tell me cuz my Torn heart Just Morns
Groken peises Falling Down
We Are
I am
Coming to an End
Hatred
Me
Love
You
Never Fix me
Never love Me
never HURT me
What if Life Happens
Life dose happen
What if i Cant Take it
ill Take it
What if.....,
You say ur nothing
i know ur Everything
Cover ur heart With my Soul
I Hate u
Hatred
Sarrow
pain
Love
You
Forevever
Tonite stay with me
Close ur Eyes And Let the Heavans dream
Tomorrow Love me say my name
Your Voice like Angels
Everything
u are
Nothin
i am
Love
We are
Compadable
never leave me
I Never Hurt
Sorrow
Despair
Pain
Anxiaty
Never
you
Never
Me
Come to me i will love you in a world That has Forgotton
I Rember
I Rember ur Name Frome the first time we met
I Rember
Sadness Tell me You
You Cant Tell a Sad Story To Heart Thats Been Torn
You Can Tell me cuz my Torn heart Just Morns
Groken peises Falling Down
We Are
I am
Coming to an End
Hatred
Me
Love
You
Never Fix me
Never love Me
never HURT me
There are times
when I feel your presence
at my side
There are times
when I hear you say
it will be alright
There are times
when I see
your face in a crowd
and I turn around
There are times
when I miss you
and my heart begins to ache
and I smile through the pain
But then there are times
when I realize
this is just the way
it has to be
there’s no you and me
This poems (not written by me) are dedicared to my best friends who I missed very badly.
There are times when
I feel strong
and I know that I
can finally move on
There are times when
my mind is at ease
and I can enjoy life
and all it can bring
There are times when
I miss you
and times when I’m okay
it’s getting better everyday
No matter how much time
there is in this life
I’ll think of you
from time to time
and remember you with a smile.
when I feel your presence
at my side
There are times
when I hear you say
it will be alright
There are times
when I see
your face in a crowd
and I turn around
There are times
when I miss you
and my heart begins to ache
and I smile through the pain
But then there are times
when I realize
this is just the way
it has to be
there’s no you and me
This poems (not written by me) are dedicared to my best friends who I missed very badly.
There are times when
I feel strong
and I know that I
can finally move on
There are times when
my mind is at ease
and I can enjoy life
and all it can bring
There are times when
I miss you
and times when I’m okay
it’s getting better everyday
No matter how much time
there is in this life
I’ll think of you
from time to time
and remember you with a smile.
In this night
composed of beads sprinkled
of the memories and remembrance of
the days that sill live in the hearts of sorrow.
In this night
I search for one soul
who can understand my thoughts,
in this night I whisper...
Your name like a blessing,
your hug like a consolation.
In this night,
magic is real,
weakness of the past has been stopped
by this moment of fidelity,
this moment belongs to us.
Make my demons go away,
I know,you're the only one,
the only one who can stop the pain.
Beads are sprinkled all over,
this beads of past,
rolling to the floor to my foot
just to remind me,
just to punish me
for the days when my strength
was gone,
when I was gone,
burried by the thoughts of darkness and grief.
But this night belongs to magic,
the magic of your presence,
this night will forgive my weakness,
so I shall forgive,
I will pick these beads and I will be free,
fear won't find me,
the night will forgive me.
composed of beads sprinkled
of the memories and remembrance of
the days that sill live in the hearts of sorrow.
In this night
I search for one soul
who can understand my thoughts,
in this night I whisper...
Your name like a blessing,
your hug like a consolation.
In this night,
magic is real,
weakness of the past has been stopped
by this moment of fidelity,
this moment belongs to us.
Make my demons go away,
I know,you're the only one,
the only one who can stop the pain.
Beads are sprinkled all over,
this beads of past,
rolling to the floor to my foot
just to remind me,
just to punish me
for the days when my strength
was gone,
when I was gone,
burried by the thoughts of darkness and grief.
But this night belongs to magic,
the magic of your presence,
this night will forgive my weakness,
so I shall forgive,
I will pick these beads and I will be free,
fear won't find me,
the night will forgive me.
your thoughts
you hear the wind of
past.
Wind of memories,
wind that whispers
the most powerful words
that are locked inside your heart.
In the silence of
your words,
you feel the strength
of the things that have never
been revealed,
the unspoken words that
are hidden in your heart.
In the silence of
your dark
you see these memories
that are never going to fade.
In the silence of
your heart
you hear the calling,
you hear the whisper of
the wind which is sent
by the dearest one,
the one that has a special
place in your heart.
That's the silence
of your heart.