Be nice please- this ones completely true and its alot closer to my heart. Im still not over it for whatever reason but I have to get it off my chest....
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I was happy being myself and being loved by the people that mattered to me but then something or well someone happened that threw my happiness into a spiral of confused happiness. I had went to school like usual, half asleep and grumbling about how stupid it was that school started so freakin early when I saw him. He was slumped in a chair wearing a Blood On the Dance floor t-shirt, black skinny jeans, had his ears pierced and generally just pretty much screamed ‘I’m not normal.’ Of course this got my attention, I lived in a tiny town where the high school consisted of about 300 people including the faculty and so not many people went against the usual trends.
Me doing something completely out of the ordinary walked up to him and started a conversation. We instantly clicked and he became my absolute bestest friend in the world. We were the 2 invincible teens in a world of drama and hurt. He was good for me or so I thought at the time. He made me pay attention in class and he helped raise all my grades. But I spent less and less time with my family of friends, not that I noticed at the time.
Me and him were always together, sitting in the hallways listening to music, him being my pillow as I slept in class. He became my everything and nothing else mattered to me, I loved him to death and he loved me. We held hands, we hugged, we went to the movies together but we were never actually dating. We told each other everything and as far as I knew we had no secrets. And I liked things that way.
There was no struggle to be perfect and no worries about anything. We were just us and that’s all we expected of each other. No matter how comfortable I was with my family of friends, he was the only one I could be totally me around. He didn’t care that I screamed, jumped and snuggled up to him during scary movies. He didn’t care that I had trust issues or that I was easily depressed. He was always there for me with open arms and loving help.
I never knew why but he’s the only person much less guy that I ever trusted 100% instantly without a second thought. I never thought we’d ever leave our happy bubble of just us but we did. And I’m still not over it…..
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I was happy being myself and being loved by the people that mattered to me but then something or well someone happened that threw my happiness into a spiral of confused happiness. I had went to school like usual, half asleep and grumbling about how stupid it was that school started so freakin early when I saw him. He was slumped in a chair wearing a Blood On the Dance floor t-shirt, black skinny jeans, had his ears pierced and generally just pretty much screamed ‘I’m not normal.’ Of course this got my attention, I lived in a tiny town where the high school consisted of about 300 people including the faculty and so not many people went against the usual trends.
Me doing something completely out of the ordinary walked up to him and started a conversation. We instantly clicked and he became my absolute bestest friend in the world. We were the 2 invincible teens in a world of drama and hurt. He was good for me or so I thought at the time. He made me pay attention in class and he helped raise all my grades. But I spent less and less time with my family of friends, not that I noticed at the time.
Me and him were always together, sitting in the hallways listening to music, him being my pillow as I slept in class. He became my everything and nothing else mattered to me, I loved him to death and he loved me. We held hands, we hugged, we went to the movies together but we were never actually dating. We told each other everything and as far as I knew we had no secrets. And I liked things that way.
There was no struggle to be perfect and no worries about anything. We were just us and that’s all we expected of each other. No matter how comfortable I was with my family of friends, he was the only one I could be totally me around. He didn’t care that I screamed, jumped and snuggled up to him during scary movies. He didn’t care that I had trust issues or that I was easily depressed. He was always there for me with open arms and loving help.
I never knew why but he’s the only person much less guy that I ever trusted 100% instantly without a second thought. I never thought we’d ever leave our happy bubble of just us but we did. And I’m still not over it…..
This is for you♥.
Hey everyone- this is kind of a story but it might not be set up like one so just stick with me here lol. It's in first person but its like reflecting on the past, and theres not a really a plot there just some thoughts about my life that i kind of mixed with how i wish my life was like if that makes since. Maybe some of you guys have had similair thoughts and such so ya. Its pretty much my wierd way of venting instead of having a diary. But don't just brush me off, go ahead and give my story a shot- what harm could it do? Anyway ill go ahead and post the first chapter in a sec so ENJOY and try not to be too harsh please, these are just my ideas and nothing to take offense to or anything
