That night me and Nathen talked all night, and not once did it cross my mind again that Nathen from what I understood had imprinted on me. It did cross my mind that Nathen never told me where he lived in La Push. It was sorta weird at first but then I totally thought about how he was always coming here, never had to be anywhere, he didn't have anywhere to live.
Once I finally thought about it I had to ask him if I was right but I didn't know how to come about it. I didn't want to be all weird or acuse him of something he wasn't. So I went to Carlisle, or I had that planned. That morning I had the same not that Nathen gave me yesterday saying;
Dear Love,
Sorry I wont be able to be here when you wake up. I'll be back in time to drive to school of course.
Love you,
Nathen.
I got out of bed and hurried to Carlisle's office.
Carlisle I said as I was walking into his office, Where does Nathen lived? I ask.
He stays here or at Jacobs house most of the time. Carlisle told me.
Oh, Okay.I was just wondering. Thanks. I said.
I left thinking about how it is not to have a home, but I had to get ready for school.I got in the shower and got out put on my make-up and dried my hair.When I finally got out of my bathroom, I had clothes lying on my bed.
Thanks Alice. I yelled.
No Problem. I heard Alice calling from down stairs.
I put on my dark bluejeans and then Alice's favorite blouse on me that is. It was a blue not to dark and not to light with perfect round toed hills, they were really cute and helped with my height when I stood next to Nathen. I grabbed my backpack and headed downstairs. Nathen wasn't here yet so I went to the kitchen and got something quick to eat for breakfast. I went back up stairs to brush my teeth and then when I returned Nathen was standing at the door with my backpack in hand. Nathen was so sweet he always cared about the little things, like when he walked into a house he always took his hat off that he wore and then he always open doors for me and always just cared more than other guys seemed they would. I always told Nathen thanks for opening a door for me or for anything.
Nathen drove to school and when we got there everyone was giving me weird stares again. It's because I'm always missing school or getting hurt and like news always traveled fast in Forks and La Push. I wasn't very talkitive today, I had all these thoughts in my head and soon Nathen noticed during biology. We started writing notes back and forth.
Whatcha thinking about? He wrote down.
A lot of things. I said or wrote.
Like what? Its killing me. Nathen wrote.
How everyone is always starring at me... I wrote.
Its not because of you missing He wrote and continued writing: Its because you are very beautiful and can pull off anything. He said.
thanks, I wrote.
We didn't write much more and then it was lunch so we ditched the rest of the day.When we did get into the car from lunch Nathen waas making me talk.
Okay Addi, whats up with you? Nathen ask.
I don't know, I've been thinking about a lot and school didn't help. I said in one breath.
What have you been thinking? Your killing me not knowing what your thinking, I usually know what your feeling. Nathen said.
I'm sorry. I've been thinking about how much of a gentlemen you are and how I don't know where you live. I said.
Its not your fault, I never said where I lived because I didn't think it would matter. He continued. I didn't want to freak you out, by saying I've imprinted on you. I want you to love me because you do not because of some stupid wolf thing. Nathen said.
I would have loved you even if you would have told me and I wish you would have told me that you didn't have a home. I said.
How did you find that out? Nathen said sort of sounding mad.
I ask Carlisle. I said. I wouldn't have cared, I would have told you, you could have my bed and I could sleep on my couch in my room. I said.
No, I didn't want you to be all worried about me. He said getting mad.
Ok. I said. Now you know what I feel like. I said.
No you don't. He said now really mad. Girls arn't suppose to worry about their boyfriends. He said.
Yes we can worry about them. You don't know what goes on in my mind. I said.
Luckly we were at the house now because I grabbed my backpack out of the backseat and headed for my room. I knew everyone inside had heard our some what of a fight. It bothered me that he thinks that girls can't worry about their boyfriends, when that all girls do is worry and get jelous with their boyfriends. I went up stairs and put on my pajamas and climbed under my covers and just started crying. I thought to myslef how cold my bed was without him and how lonely and huge my room felt. I ended up falling asleep in my room all alone.I woke up about 2:30am, I stumbled over to my door and went downstairs. Emmet and Rose were sitting in their usual position on the couch, Carlisle was in his office and I didn't know where Esme was. Edward, Bella and Renesme were at their house and Jacob was leaning on the couch while he slept and Jasper and Alice were sitting on the loveseat talking quietly to each other.
What are you doing awake? Emmet ask.
I don't know, I just woke up. I said.
Oh. Emmet said and then he went back to watching tv.
I walked into the kitchen to get me some water from the refridgerator and Nathen was sitting at the island looking at me when I walked into the room.
Oh my gosh. I said. Please warn me the next time you do that.
Sorry. Nathen said.
I got my water and then left the room.
Once I finally thought about it I had to ask him if I was right but I didn't know how to come about it. I didn't want to be all weird or acuse him of something he wasn't. So I went to Carlisle, or I had that planned. That morning I had the same not that Nathen gave me yesterday saying;
Dear Love,
Sorry I wont be able to be here when you wake up. I'll be back in time to drive to school of course.
Love you,
Nathen.
I got out of bed and hurried to Carlisle's office.
Carlisle I said as I was walking into his office, Where does Nathen lived? I ask.
He stays here or at Jacobs house most of the time. Carlisle told me.
Oh, Okay.I was just wondering. Thanks. I said.
I left thinking about how it is not to have a home, but I had to get ready for school.I got in the shower and got out put on my make-up and dried my hair.When I finally got out of my bathroom, I had clothes lying on my bed.
Thanks Alice. I yelled.
No Problem. I heard Alice calling from down stairs.
I put on my dark bluejeans and then Alice's favorite blouse on me that is. It was a blue not to dark and not to light with perfect round toed hills, they were really cute and helped with my height when I stood next to Nathen. I grabbed my backpack and headed downstairs. Nathen wasn't here yet so I went to the kitchen and got something quick to eat for breakfast. I went back up stairs to brush my teeth and then when I returned Nathen was standing at the door with my backpack in hand. Nathen was so sweet he always cared about the little things, like when he walked into a house he always took his hat off that he wore and then he always open doors for me and always just cared more than other guys seemed they would. I always told Nathen thanks for opening a door for me or for anything.
Nathen drove to school and when we got there everyone was giving me weird stares again. It's because I'm always missing school or getting hurt and like news always traveled fast in Forks and La Push. I wasn't very talkitive today, I had all these thoughts in my head and soon Nathen noticed during biology. We started writing notes back and forth.
Whatcha thinking about? He wrote down.
A lot of things. I said or wrote.
Like what? Its killing me. Nathen wrote.
How everyone is always starring at me... I wrote.
Its not because of you missing He wrote and continued writing: Its because you are very beautiful and can pull off anything. He said.
thanks, I wrote.
We didn't write much more and then it was lunch so we ditched the rest of the day.When we did get into the car from lunch Nathen waas making me talk.
Okay Addi, whats up with you? Nathen ask.
I don't know, I've been thinking about a lot and school didn't help. I said in one breath.
What have you been thinking? Your killing me not knowing what your thinking, I usually know what your feeling. Nathen said.
I'm sorry. I've been thinking about how much of a gentlemen you are and how I don't know where you live. I said.
Its not your fault, I never said where I lived because I didn't think it would matter. He continued. I didn't want to freak you out, by saying I've imprinted on you. I want you to love me because you do not because of some stupid wolf thing. Nathen said.
I would have loved you even if you would have told me and I wish you would have told me that you didn't have a home. I said.
How did you find that out? Nathen said sort of sounding mad.
I ask Carlisle. I said. I wouldn't have cared, I would have told you, you could have my bed and I could sleep on my couch in my room. I said.
No, I didn't want you to be all worried about me. He said getting mad.
Ok. I said. Now you know what I feel like. I said.
No you don't. He said now really mad. Girls arn't suppose to worry about their boyfriends. He said.
Yes we can worry about them. You don't know what goes on in my mind. I said.
Luckly we were at the house now because I grabbed my backpack out of the backseat and headed for my room. I knew everyone inside had heard our some what of a fight. It bothered me that he thinks that girls can't worry about their boyfriends, when that all girls do is worry and get jelous with their boyfriends. I went up stairs and put on my pajamas and climbed under my covers and just started crying. I thought to myslef how cold my bed was without him and how lonely and huge my room felt. I ended up falling asleep in my room all alone.I woke up about 2:30am, I stumbled over to my door and went downstairs. Emmet and Rose were sitting in their usual position on the couch, Carlisle was in his office and I didn't know where Esme was. Edward, Bella and Renesme were at their house and Jacob was leaning on the couch while he slept and Jasper and Alice were sitting on the loveseat talking quietly to each other.
What are you doing awake? Emmet ask.
I don't know, I just woke up. I said.
Oh. Emmet said and then he went back to watching tv.
I walked into the kitchen to get me some water from the refridgerator and Nathen was sitting at the island looking at me when I walked into the room.
Oh my gosh. I said. Please warn me the next time you do that.
Sorry. Nathen said.
I got my water and then left the room.
