When Emmett kept telling me no it was making me mad but not enough to where I could shift.
Emmett, remember that time that Bella Ickes your butt at arm westling? I asked.
Yeah, why? He asked.
Ugh! I swear, can't you just piss me off enough to where I'm shaking and about to shift. I said.
Samantha, you are mad. Your not going to shift. He told me.
Yes I am. I said.
I started thinking of the fight between Garrett and I. Oakley didn't even try to stop the fight. He just ignored me and stood back to watch. Surely he didn't know that the fight was going to happen.
No, he didn't know. Sam said.
I didn't bother looking his way to know that he was looking at me with his sorry face. I thought about how Jacob can change really easy. I started running towards where Edward and Bella live. I was running really slow for a wolf.
Jacob. I yelled.
What is it? He asked.
Piss me off, please. I begged.
Why? He asked.
Ask questions later. I demanded.
How am I goig to make you mad? He asked.
I don't know. I said.
What are you trying to do? Edward asked.
Trying to make Samantha mad or as she put pissed of. Jacob said.
Why? Edward asked.
I don't know she won't tell me? Jacob answered.
I went over to Jacob and punched him in the face as hard as I could.
What in the hell was that for, Samantha? Jacob asked.
I'm fighting. I said.
I threw another punch at him again but this time in the stomach.
Samantha, stop your going to hurt yourself. Edward and Jacob said.
No i'm not. I said.
I threw another punch this time but Edward got between Jacob and I.
Edward move. I demanded.
No, your going to hurt yourself. Edward said.
I am not. I'm a wolf and i'm strong but I'm aging trouble shifting but that's all. I said.
Samantha, it's not like that. Jacob said.
I don't know how to put this but females are more likely to loose their wolf gene when they are seventeen. Jacob said.
But, am I going to get it back? I asked.
We don't know. Edward said.
I moved my gaze from Edward to the woods and then took off running. I was winded before I had even ran two miles.
This isn't good, Samantha. I thought to myself.
Samantha, it's gonna be okay. You can live without being a wolf. Edward said has he was jogging beside me.
No, it's not going to be okay. I loved being a wolf even though everyone thought differently. I said.
It was dark by now and of course I was so exhausted from trying to shift all day. Edward picked me up and ran me back towards the house. I was asleep before we were at the house.
The next morning when I woke up it was sunny and peaceful. I got up and went to the beathroom and brushed my hair. When I came back out Sam was sitting on my bed.
I need to talk to you Samantha. Same told me.
Okay, what about? I asked.
I don't love you like you love me. He said.
That's okay we can be friends. I said.
No, I don't like you. He said.
I'll change. I said.
He stared me right into my eyes.
You cant change, we're nothing alike. Your not that cute and not that fun to be. You have all of these problems and your are a control freak. You don't love me. He said.
I do love you. I said.
I don't love you. Repete what I said. He told me.
You don't love me, I'm ugly. I said.
Don't try to find or look for me. I don't like or love you in any way. He said.
Before I could say anything Sam was out of my window and gone. Within seconds I figured outthat he tried to control my mind but it didn't work.njext thing I know Emmet, Jasper, Alice and Rosalie are in my room.
Samantha, eerything that he said isn't true. Jasoer told me.
Samantha. Emmett yelled at me.
I jumped quickly snapping back to reality.
I think I'm going to go surf. I said.
I went to my bathroom and put on my bathsuit and went towards the garage. I pulled on my wetsuit and grabbed my board. I got to La Push pretty quick being that I drove over the speed limit. I ran towards the surf even though it was flat, smooth no waves whatsoever. I layed on my board for a long time until Jacob swam out to where I was lying on my board.
You know what he said wasn't true? Jacob asked.
I don't know. I said
Samantha, you are beautiful and strong. If a guy doesn't want to be with you that is his lose because you have the best personality. He told me.
Thanks. I said.
I paddled in while Jacob swam beside me.
I brought you towel. He said.
Thanks. I said.
I layed my board in the sand to put the towel around me and Jacob picked it up and carried it my car. He drove the car and we didn't talkthe whole way home.
How was surfing? Emmett asked.
Flat. I said.
Oh. He said.
I thought about going to climb the cliff but I didn't know if I could still climb now that I'm just a stupid human. I went to the garage and set my board in the corner and then pulled my wetsuit off. I went upstairs and changed into some shorts and a log sleeve t-shirt.
I'm going climbing. I said I ran down the stairs.
Be careful. Emmett told me.
I'll be fine. I'm still a wolf. I said.
I couldn't dare to think that, my wolf gene was going to be gone forever. I just couldn't. I drove my car back towards the cliff. I decided that I was going to jump off and then climb back up. When I jumped from the cliff it was like I was free no worries. I hit the water and it took my breath away. It was so cold. I climbed back up and I was shaking I was so cold. It was amaizing climbing back up and then jumping off again and then climbing back up. I did this probably three times and the last time I climb up I just sat on the edge and thought about everything. The sun was setting and it was getting colder. I Jumped at the feeling of a blanket being gently wrapped around me.
Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Emmett said.
It's okay. I said.
You are so going to be sick tomorrow. He said.
Let me guess Alice told you to come out here. I said.
No, she told me you were going to be sick but I came out here on my own. Well permission of the mutts though. He said.
I continued to stare at the beautiful sunset.
You really liked Sam didn't you? He said.
Yeah, he was my only friend outside of the house. I said.
I'm sorry I didn't stop him. He said.
It's fine he wanted to go so he left. I said.
Let's get you home. He said.
Emmett picked me up and carried me to the car and we were home within a minute. It was funny how all of the Cullen's didn't bother going the speed limit even past Charlie's house.
When we got home I went upstairs and took a hot shower. I didn't realize how cold I was until the hot water hit my body. I got out of the shower dried my hair and went downstairs to get something to eat. I made me a bowl of grits. I went and sat on the other end of the couch away from Emmett and Rosalie whil Jasper and Alice got up and went to their room. I felt so odd sitting there while Emmett and Rosalie were talking quietly to each other. I quickly got up from where I as sitting and went to eat in the kitchen. Everyone had someone to love them. Alice and Jasper were together, Emmett and Rosalie couldn't be seperate, Carlisle and Esme loved each other so much then there is Edward and Bella, Renesme and Jacob, my mom and dad, Oakley and his girlfriend and there was just me. All of the guys I'd been with just left or was stupid. After eating I went back into the living room and Rosalie was gone which I guess she was gone to work on her cars.
Sorry about earlier. Emmett said.
It's fine. I said.
Surfing is on, you want to watch? He asked.
Nah, watch what you want. I told him.
Do you want to go to school the Reservation? He asked.
I don't know. Everything was fine back home until stupid Garrett came home. I said.
Yeah, man you can fight. Emmett said while laughing.
Thanks, I think. I said.
Looke Samantha, a guy is going to come along and fall in love with wether you are a wolf or human. He told me.
Thanks just sometimes it's hard to remember. I'm the only one in this family that doesn't have a boyfriend. I told him.
I don't have a boyfriend. He said.
You know what I meant. I said.
I continued to sit on the sofa until the clock chimed at two o'clock. I layed down on the couch and continued to watch television. When I was almost asleep I felt Emmett pick me up and take me to my bed. Once Emmett layed me down in my bed I fell asleep.