I lay in my bunk above Gwen, thinking of what I would do if I won.
It was 3:00 A.M.
Then Gwen woke up tired and asked me why I was awake when she climbed the latter to my bunk.
I told her what I was thinking about, she told me what she would do as she sat down next to me.
I asked her a question aside to the subject.
me:"Do you think Noah likes me?"
Gwen:"I don't know...you should ask him."
me:"Well...I'm kinda shy and I am afraid if he's gonna say no in my face."
Gwen:"Well, then I'll ask him."
me:"You would go that for me!"(I screamed whispered quietly so I wouldn't wake the others)
Gwen:"Of course, your my friend and that's what friends do for each other, right?"
Then we both went back to sleep, and said goodnight.
I couldn't go to sleep that well that night, because I was thinking about what would happen if Noah said he did.
I had so many questions like:
What would happen if he said yes...or no?
What difference would it make?
Would we be together then?
If he did like me, would he tell me right after he told Gwen?
Is he even right for me?
I had all those questions cramped in my head...and I also had another question, the most important question in my mind that night...
"DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM?"
After I said that question to myself my eyes closed slowly and I fell in a very deep sleep.
The next morning I woke up so happy, but still so curious.
When I saw Gwen just waking up and streching, sitting on her bed, I went down the latter and reminded her about Noah and she said she said
"I know Christy!Calm down!"-in a friendly yell though.
Then I inhaled and exhaled in so much excitment, but I tried not to get to hopefull, cause I might just be in for disapointment...I tried...and failed.
I got dressed in my normal clothes and of course out of my pajamas, after that I brushed my teeth right after Heather, as I left the bathroom I bumped into Izzy and I said
"Oops, sorry Izzy"
and Izzy just shruged and said "It's ok"
I wrinkled my eyebrows in curiousity of why she wasn't all insane as usual when she talks, but I just shurgged it off and thought about another subject, and of course that subject was...NOAH NOAH NOAH NOAH!!!!!
When I came out the cabbin, of course not surpised that we don't have a challenge today, cause it's actually Tuesday, and I just noticed we all woke up at the same time, which is weird, and it is 12:00 P.M.
Even the guys were up.I saw Noah just sitting at the wooden picknic table just reading as usual.
I saw Gwen come out of the cabbin talking to Lashawna, I looked at her, and she looked at me and told Lashawna she'd talk to her later and then Gwen winked at me and walked towards Noah.
Then I wondered if she had been thinking of Trent lately, and it seemed weird cause she hadn't really talked about him since like 3 days ago.
But then I set my mind once again on Noah then I saw that Gwen was already sitting next to him talking to him...then I noticed I had been staring at him since Gwen winked at me.
Then I looked away scraching the back of my head.
Gwen stopped talking to him and walked up to me, then she told me he hadn't thought about it.
I kinda felt sad, but not to sad that I thought I would have been.
When she put her hand on my shoulder she said:
Gwen:"It's ok, it doesn't really mean that he doesn't like you."
me:"I guess so."
Gwen looked at me with a soft smile and relaxed eyes.
Gwen:"Look, I'll ask him again tomorrow and see if he likes you then."-still with the soft smile and relaxed eyes looking at me straight in the eyes.
I looked at her with the same expresion and said "Thanks Gwen, your a real good friend."
When she walked away to go talk to Lashawna that was just sitting on a chair in the middle of the 2 cabbins, I thought "Will Noah ever realize that I totally fell in love with him the minute he stepped off the boat???"