---mkay, i've never written one of these, so here goes!!!

disclaimer: i don't own anything to do with ncis, except 3 seasons of the dvds. ;( haha

-----2 days after ceremony------

Ziva was working on a case file at her desk, trying without success to ignore the liquid green gorgeous eyes studying her expression. This was making the wall around her heart all the more feeble. "some ex-assassin" she thought. She went into the girls room to collect herself. Why were looking in those eyes so hard? Two days ago, she would have wanted nothing more in the world. But in her heart of hearts, she knew. Nothing in the world could compare to the way she felt when he singled her out, but there was still that new found twinge of doubt. She needed some sort of clue that he felt the same way. Breaking a promise wasn't the best way to keep their new "understanding" going steady. "going steady" she scofffed to herself. 6 years ago, she never would have dreamed she would be feeling this way. or even wanting to. Then, an idea hit her like a bolt of lightning. That was all she had to do. Remind herself of the way she felt when she looked at the empty white seat beside her, without any warning. Worse than the ballet recital. No call, no note, no text, no email, no anything. But perhaps the most tear-serking of all, no explanation or apology. That might have something to do with the fact that she had been ignoring his calls and avoiding being with him alone at all costs (she'd have to apologize to palmer....she didn't need to hit him SO hard....but hey, she was MAD!) but that' not the point. it doesn't matter anymore. She imagined tony's face when she finally does talk to him, and all he gets is the frozen shoulder. Wait, cold shoulder? "i like my version better" with a smug smile. Leaving the cowardly, obsessed ziva behind her, she walked into the squadroom with a bravado she hasn't been able to master in 5 years. She could feel the pairs of eyes staring at her, wondering what in the name of sweet NCIS had gotten into her. Too bad her new swag was stronger. She got into her chair and spun around a few times, just to feel the wind. Her phone rang. No time to talk, she was having too much fun. "Special Agent Ziva David, NCIS. Leave your case after the beep and we will be in touch as soon as possible" Beep! [i]Z, it's me. Tony. I know me not being there really made you upset, and I'm sorry. I was under orders, and you know how that is. Just tell me anything I can do, anything at all. Want to help me beat up your father? DONE. With pleaseure, in fact. Have a necklace you can't afford? I don't care about money if it means loosing you. You and I have something more than just the partnership, and I can't quite put my finger on it, but I know it's really powerful and I never felt something so wonderful or scary before. I know I don't usually say things like this and mean it, so just call be back with a way to prove it to you. i'll be waiting.[/u].......this was going to take a while.

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