this is a different version of New Moon, which takes place two months after Edward and the Cullens leave Forks.
I used to wake up, get dressed , go to school, come home, cook tea, do my homework, then go to bed despite not being able to sleep. This is the format my used to take, just a reoccuring list of normal day to day things... as now my life means nothing, i did all that for Charlie as if it weren't for him i'd of crawled up in my bed under my duvet and never resurface.
But even that was an improvement on two months ago.i just cried and cried all day long, i missed a whole week off school as i couldn't bear to see people to watch them look at me piitingly, and have them say to me "i know how you feel" "you'll get over it" as they had no idea how i felt as they hadn't had their heart ripped out from their chests and just left to suffer without the only thing that could keep them alive. So no they had no idea.
My life has started to get better in the last two weeks because of Jacob Black, he manages to make me laugh with his clumsyness even worse then mine.
Fridays used to be bad as i would dread the long weekend where despite myself i would think about them. i call his mobile every night hoping that maybe he might answer but every night im left with that same feeling of regret for calling him and causing the hole in my chest to gape even bigger reminding me that my heart is still not there.
But now ive started to look forward to fridays as i'd go down to the Quilette Reservation and spend all day with Jacob but still call him when i got home.
"Bella, youve got a visitor" Charlie shouts up the stairs, and for one short fraction of a second i thought that maybe he'd changed his mind and he'd come back because he does still love me, but then i remember his emotionless last words "A clean break, you'll never see or hear from us again".
as i head down stairs i can hear a familiar laugh coming from the kitchen and as i enter the kitchen there he is, over six foot tall, even bigger than yesterday, My best friend and werewolf Jacob Black.
"Hey Bells, you ready?" he asks
"erm.." i quickly rack my brain to think of what i planned with him, its only thursday..."for what?" i have to ask embarrased for not remembering
"you said you'd come with me when the car is done..."
"Ahh you've finished Jake, thats amazing" i exclaim giving him a hug, but Jake's alot stronger than me and starts to crush me against his body.
"erm... Jake.. cant breathe" i gasp trying in vain to push him off me
"oh sorry bella" he laughs. "So... you ready?"
"yeh, just give me five minutes" i say as i head upstairs.
i run into my room and quickly pick up my phone and dial his number already knowing that he wont answer but still dial all the same.
the tone rings three times and just as im about to hang up some one picks up. i freeze not knowing what to say as i never thought that any one would ever answer.
"h-h-hello," i say not being able to think of anyhting more inteligent.
but no one says any thing but i can hear background noise.
i can hear his voice Edwards talking to some one as i listen i automatically reach to my chest to where my heart should be but the hole is getting bigger as pain soars through me as i hear his musical voice, all the times ive thought of him, remembered his voice, i never did it justice. As i try and hear what he is saying and who he is talking to i hear a females voice, but not one i recognise, then i hear Edward laugh and i realise who that female is as he says "tanya" and she just laughs.
i sit there frozen listening to their laughs as i try and register what just happened. Edwards with Tanya one of the other "vegitarian" vampires in Denali, the one who has always had a thing for Edward. So Edwards moved on i think as sobs take over my body and my chest aches more then ever. "Bella,Bella?" its him he's picked up the phone and is talking to me, but i cant bear it i hang up and through my phone across the room.
"Bella are you ok?" Jake asks worridly from the other side of my door.
"Erm.. yeh im fine, just comin" i reply as i try to pull myself together and head downstairs to a worried expression on Jake's face. i just shake my head "come on then lets go" i say as cheerily as possible.
Once in the car the innterogation begins. "Bella whats wrong?" "why do you torture yourself by calling him every night? you know he wont answer" "its jus-"
"some one answered"i exclaim cutting himk off mid rant as Jakes the only one who know that i still call
so i fill him in on the phone call.
"see he's moved on Bella its about time you did"
by now we were back outside the house and charlies car is gone.
"wheres charlie?" i ask confused.
"oh he said he was going to see my dad"
"bella.." jake says all serious. "You've got to get over him, he's left you, he was never any good for you, you need to be wth someone that can protect you without the possibility of killing you with a touch. Some one thats goin to be there for you and never leave, some one that always has and always will love you."
oh my god. what was i going to do, Jacob is declaring his love for me, and i cant bear to hurt him but i cant lie and pretend i feel the same.
"Jake, i love you too, but its not enough, its not fair on you to be second best bebcause my heart will always be his" i reply not daring to look a his face.
"But i can live with that Bella. And maybe who knows in time you might be able to love me more"
"i know i wont!" i shout back getting angry that he wont just leave things as they are.
"You wont know unless you try" he whispers, i turn round and look at him and he's staring right back at me, as i look into his eyes i try and imagine a life with Jake, i can imagine growing oold with him and maybe some day children. i can see the kids running round him laughing and me stood back watching, it could work and id be happy and i know Jacob would be, even if deep down i still ache for Edward- i wince as i think of his name and remember the ohone call. He's moved on why cant i? Staring into jake deep, friendly warm eyes, that life with Jake becomes more realistic,
Sudenly jake slams his foot down on the gas and is speeding away from th house, as i look back i see his car Edwards Silver volvo parked in MY driveway.
"STOP!" i yell
"Bella are you out of your mind?" he asks seriously with his hands clenched so tight on the wheel his knuckles have gone white
"Its them, the cullens. thats his car."
the car comes to a halt as Jacob just glares at me "You cant be sure of that Bella, it could be a trick"
"its not okay, just take me back"
"you cant be serio-"
without another word he reverses back infront of my house as i step out i look back at his face and can see him breaking down at the thought of me running back to them. I might of been happy with Jake but i cant let this oppertunity to see them, even just one of them.
i walk into the house slowly shaking and see a figure stood in the kitchen. A tall slim female figure.
I know this chapter has a lot in common with new moon but i promise that it will not be like New Moon after this.
Please read and comment and let me know if its any good or just plain rubbish so i know if it woul,d be worth continuing or just stop writing.
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