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!~Xanatt~! 3.19.13

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Matthew Lucien Lake, I am so in love with you <3

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Boys Pop Bottles Girls PTA - DOT DOT CURVE :)

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Never Gonna Leave You

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You know you love me...I know you care c:

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how to have fun in your dorm room

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even though I still hate u xante I thought I would do this(this is no sign of friendship!)

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Shitty Situation with Dahvie Vanity <333 *-*

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California Dreaming - The Mamas and Papas

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♡2 Months of Love♡Part 2♡

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"Pfft," scoffed Matt, "Who goes to stores?"
"Um...I do. I also do other things." I winked seductively at him. He instinctively sat on top of me and chuckled. "Oh, I see how it is, muthadude."
"What's that babe? I'm so wrapped up in you that I don't have time to listen to your voice."
"Oh shut your face."
He kissed my neck and whispered, "I can't heeeaaar youuu..." I couldn't helped but giggle. Again. Like I always do. "OMG BABE YOU GIGGLED AGAIN! Why are you so cute?" He looked at me with his big, blue, puppy dog eyes.
"Matthew Lucien Lake...marry me..." I said as I laid back down on the bed. He...

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♡2 Months of Love♡Part 1♡

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I woke up groggily on Sunday morning with a headache. "Ugh, every single day...I hate migraines," I complained. It was almost true. Then there's the almost. I was dizzy, still tired, and pretty hungry.
"What happened?" asked Matt as he yawned sleepily. "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I just have a headache." I buried my head on the pillow, next to him.
"Aww, want me to get some aspirin and water?" I shook my head. I can't take aspirins on an empty stomach. I laid back a bit more and relaxed my body. I was so tense and frustrated. He put his arm over my chest and kissed my neck. "I think you'll...

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♥ I Love You ♥

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I love his soft brown eyes
and the way that he catches me by surprise and he never has to wear a disguise.
I love the way that he kisses me
and the way that he misses me.
I love the way that he said that I love you first. But baby I really love you the most.
I love you the way that you just love me and only me. This is how life is suppose to be me loving you and you loving me. I know this is meant to be and that is what you told me. Baby I love you and this is true. I love you more than words, can ever say, I love you more when you take my breath way. I thank God for you everyday.

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Blue - Eiffel 65 [For Iron Man 3]

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Rock Me - 1D

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Sometimes...</3

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Sometimes the one you take the bullet for is the one who pulls the trigger. </3

Just before you die, you see a reflection of the one you love and you realize that you gave everything and got nothing.

But sometimes you're just imagining that you're seeing them.

Sometimes, the person you take the bullet for is yourself.

Sometimes it's you that's pulling the trigger and you can't, you just don't want to, admit it.

And sometimes, you find yourself so lost in the midst of the blood that you don't realize that maybe it wasn't you whole pulled the trigger on yourself.

You pulled it on someone else...

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Being Gay is Okay ^.^ <3

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The Same Thing O.O

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The End and The Beginning

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This was what he wrote on his birthday this year:

Two decades - a bit more.
The tears, the scars.
The sweat, the pain.
23 funerals.
The toils of life.
Life itself.
FUCK. The struggle.
I. CANNOT. EVEN.
But today is a different day.
The beginning of a new me.
The end of the old me.
I can lie no longer.
I've got to be true to myself.
All I've lived up to begins to
unravel
to reveal itself.
Today.
No longer am I the
bastard of ole.
The dick of yonder.
I am
XANTONA
ESTAFANO
EVINVALDO
da SILVA
SANTOS
RIVEIROS.
I'm gonna be a fuckin' legend.
I'm gonna be in the books.
But I have already been
bathed
in 21 years:
252 months:
7,560 days:...

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March 5th, 2013

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This is an entry from Xante's journal. It was on his desk and the page was bookmarked:

I shall die forgotten
Yet I live unremembered.
I shall died uncared for
Yet I live neglected.
The hatred.
The push-pull of life.
The tears.
The push-pull of love.
I am not over here.
I am not over there.
I am not purgatory.
I am not nowhere.
So where do I belong?
DO I belong?
How would I know if there's a path worth taking?
What's dark is light.
What's light is dark.
What I once thought was mine belongs to someone else.
I don't even belong to myself.
I shall die unquestioned
Yet I live unasked.
I shall die under-worked
Yet I live...