Not when I reminded Jasper of Bella’s birthday party, not when I tried to kill Charlotte, and definitely not when I kissed Jeremy instead of ripping him to shreds. Maybe I should check on him again. I sat on the nearest log and closed my eyes to focus harder, but I didn’t have to focus long. “Hi Alice.” I opened my eyes got to my feet and looked him dead in the face. I don’t think he liked what he saw. Did I look horrible? I hope so, maybe if I look bad enough he will listen to me. After I calmed myself I looked down ashamed and sat back on the log. “Hi.” I wasn’t happy. I wanted to get him, not him get me. It might have been better if I got him. “Alice? I wanted to let you explain again. Maybe I miss read your face. You just looked happy instead of hurt like I thought you would.” “I was happy Jasper.” “Why? Because you kissed that fool? Or because you liked to see me hurt?” “Neither.” He lifted me off the log put me down and looked me in the eyes. “Then why were you so happy?” I didn’t even need to think about it. “Because you woke up Jasper! Because you moved, you didn’t listen to his little game! Plus I was happy because you ripped that fool to shreds.” I didn’t smile. I put my head back down. I didn’t deserve to have him, well, not anymore. I still wish I didn’t kiss Jeremy. “Alice. That’s your reason? That’s all? You were happy to see me?” That fool! Of course but maybe he would still leave me. Maybe he wouldn’t believe me again. I looked at him. “Of course that’s my reason. That’s my only reason, I was laughing because I could see over your shoulder and I could see that idiot trying to put himself together again, too bad you didn’t set him on fire.” He let go of me and I sat down again and watched him. He looked at me surprised. I don’t see why though. I said the same thing I did when he held my throat. “You wanted me to burn him?” “Of course! Why wouldn’t I? Didn’t you see me slap him or anything?” “Yes I was watching. I don’t know I just, some people slap there husbands and then they apologize and they start kissing so, whatever. But you told me to watch you so I did. I didn’t like what I saw.” I tried something else on him. Just to make him understand better. “Jasper? What were we doing when we left home?” “We left so we could do whatever we could to save our family.” “Right. Now what did I do a few hours ago?” “You kissed that fool and you claim you did that just to save me from his stupid little mind game.” “Exactly! I did what I had to, to save you! That was the only way I could see how!” “No.” “What do you mean no?” “No.” “You still don’t believe me do you?!” “Not really.” “Fine.” I got up and walked away.
“Alice? Where are you going?” Me leaving him is going to kill me but I’ll endure it. “I’m going to the Volturi. Maybe with any luck they are still in Volterra.” I kept walking without looking back at him he matched my pace but he stayed behind me. “What? Are you going to kill yourself?” he scoffed. “I was tempted to do that, but why waste my talent? I’m going to join them!” He stopped. Then started walking again. “Alice? You’re not serious are you?” “I’m as serious as you when you said you didn’t believe me!” “Why?” “Why wouldn’t I? I might as well. I can’t go home because they’re going to want to know what happened to you and I can’t tell Bella that you left me. They would blame me because I would have to tell them what happened. I can’t stay with Katrina and her sisters because I’m going to make everything worse for them when everything got better. So I planned in the tunnel after you left to give up everything. Everything I believe in, everything I love, and even my name. So don’t call me Alice! It’s Mary now. Aro is going to have to call me that too. I’m letting my eyes turn blood red and I’m going to help them everyway I can. If I have to I’ll be like Heidi and fetch breakfast, lunch, and dinner.” He stopped again but I kept going. Why should I care what he does? It’s not my fault he has too big of an empty skull to realize when someone is telling the truth.
I suppose it’s final now. I have separated from him, I’m no longer attached. I know he hears it in my voice. My final command. I started running. I’m almost in Volterra. I stopped, now that I was far enough away from him, I can get it out of my system before I join them. I sat down on the ground and I started to sob, seems to be the story of my life now, ever since we started this journey I’ve cried almost everyday. “I can’t believe he’s gone. I should have tried harder. It wouldn’t have done any good though.” I started talking to myself, well; I thought I was talking to myself. “All this because I didn’t believe you? Well, I believe you now. Do you want to come with me Mary? I still love you, I never stopped. I just thought you stopped loving me. So I left. So Mary do you want to come with me?” I looked up. Was he joking? “That’s not funny.” “I wasn’t trying to be.” I held out my hand and he helped me up. “ My name’s Alice and I never stopped loving you either. So let’s go, but before we go. Answer this. Will you believe me In the future?” “You tell me.” “I’ll take that as a yes. Now let’s go. We have a lot of time to make up.” I started walking but he didn’t he pulled me back to him and grabbed me in a hug. “I was thinking more of a kiss. Is that ok with you?” “Oh shut up and kiss me.” I kissed him and he kissed me back. “You definitely kiss better than Jeremy.” “Come on Alice. And let’s try not to get into anymore trouble. Ok?” “That sounds perfect to me.” Then we started running hand in hand to our next destination. As we went farther and farther from Volterra I wondered what was going to happen next. But under no circumstances will we ever split up again! I will make sure that never happens again.
