A Million Love Songs Later

A/N: Now I just have to say how sorry I am for how late this chapter is, but you know it's summer and I've been really busy at the beach and stuff like that. But honestly I just haven't had the energy to write anything in the last few days so I thought I've got to start writing again so here goes on chapter 18! Jeez not many to go now. Anyway please read and review I really do appreciate all the feedback. Thank you xoxo

Chapter 18: Giving In?

        The days seemed to be getting longer, for Chuck at least. He had Gabby going on and on about some holiday she wanted them to take to Hawaii or Barbados but Chuck wasn't interested in going anywhere with Gabby the only woman he wanted to go away with was his Waldorf. By now it was back to how it used to be, it felt like high school all over again. It was torture. Waiting for Blair's answer made it worse. He knew she the answer she was going to give him but he couldn't help but have a small glint of hope that she would make all his wildest dreams come true once again. They had been together once why not again, and Nate had been in their way before and they had overcome that- Twice. However this time it was different. They were engaged, Blair would not make that commitment if she couldn't honour it and Chuck knew that if Blair had made someone a promise she would keep it. Chuck only hoped for once she would make an exception.
“So baby can I book it?”
Gabby zoomed around Chuck's apartment clutching tight onto the Hawaii holiday brochure.
“What?”
Chuck finally came out of his day dream and saw the brochure being shoved in his face.
“The Holiday? Hawaii? Two weeks? Have you been listening at all?”
Gabby laughed and pointed at the hotel she wanted to stay at.
“Sorry. I've had things on my mind”
He brushed the holiday thoughts aside and tried to get Gabby away from the subject of a vacation.
        While on the other side of town Dan was on his way with his Starbucks into work. On his way in he had bumped in Blair who was just returning from visiting Eleanor and Cyrus... and Dorota. It wasn't long before Dan brought up the Chuck subject again.
“So been to see Charles recently?”
Dan muttered while sipping his Starbucks Latte.
“Hmm why do I sense judgement in that sentence?”
Blair's eyes widened and didn't want to be judged for a little mistake.
“Because I'm thinking of Nate who is my friend”
Dan stepped out in front of Blair stopping her from avoiding the subject any longer.
“Okay I'm sorry. You're not going to tell him are you?”
“No. Are you?”
Dan reassured Blair he would not be judging her and he was not going to betray her trust.
“NO! I've done it to him once I wont do it again”
Blair shouted at him.
“Are you sure about that?”
Dan asked as they arrived at the New York Times building and made their way inside. They had decided earlier that Blair wanted to see Dan's new Editor office.
“Yes! I love him”
Blair said, now reassuring herself.
“You weren't giving off that impression last week”
“Well I... I was...”
Blair mumbled and muttered.
“Well...”
Dan hung on for an answer but was not going to get it.
“Look can we please... How are the twins?”
Blair asked as they stepped into the elevator.
“Nice change of subject”
Dan nodded.
“Thank you”
“They're great. We got the six months scan the yesterday”
“You did!!?”
Blair jumped up with excitement making some of Dan's colleagues look at her with a very dazed expression on their worried faces.
“Yeah. I have the photo in the office”
Dan answered with Blair still smiling at him.
        They finally arrived at the 60th floor and Dan's office. He even had a PA. Dan had it all. As they stepped into his corner office which had a view of the city and central park. Dan got straight over to his desk and pulled out the scan of the twins.
“See there's one head and there's the other”
Dan held it very close to Blair's face to make sure she saw everything right.
“Can you tell which is the boy and which is the girl?”
“Yeah that one is the boy and that's the girl”
Dan pointed
“Still same names?”
Blair handed him back the photo and went to sit on the couch in the corner of the office.
“No we've decided to change them”
“To what?”
Blair enquired.
“Zachary or Zach and Grace”
“Oh they're adorable names”
She smiled and approved of Dan and Katie's choices. “Even though I was planning on Grace”. She mumbled.
“You?”
Dan sat down in his swivel chair and raised and eye brow in surprise.
“Yeah why is that weird? I had them planned out since I was sixteen, but I've changed my mind now”
She had never told anyone that. But back in those days Blair had her life all planned out but it didn't go that way.
“So what were they?”
“Well Grace Louisa and Lucas Jacob”
If it were anyone else she wouldn't be so ready to tell them but it was Dan, it was her best friend.
“So what instead of Grace?”
“Madison but I'm also changing another one. Not Lucas Jacob anymore”
She admitted.
“What then?”
“Lucas Daniel”
She had thought of that when they were at Yale, it only made sense. Jacob was a name that meant nothing to her, she just liked the name but Daniel was someone who was important to her and that made so much more sense.
“You serious?”
Dan grinned almost thinking Blair was joking.
“Yeah so if you have another one after the twins and it's a girl I'm expecting for you to do the same”
Blair pointed at him.
“Of course you do. You're Blair”
Dan shrugged as they both laughed.
After a few more minutes of chatting Blair thought she better leave Dan to his work of he would be getting fired and that would not be good since he had worked so hard for it and having twins on the way didn't make things any easier.
        Later that afternoon Blair had returned home and after an afternoon of watching crap daytime TV she got proof reading one of her new books, not something she wanted to do but luckily her other best friend always knew when Blair needed rescuing.
Blair's cell phone rang and it said 'Serena', Blair picked it up without a second thought to her work.
“Hey Serena”
Blair got up and started to walk around or as far from her work as possible.
“Blair! Hey. How are you?”
“I'm good. How are you? How are things going out there?”
Blair wanted to tell Serena about all her Chuck worries but Serena was even more of a friend to Nate than Dan was and she didn't want to worry Serena with her problems. Serena was busy enough.
“Awful. I just wanted to call tell you what's going on. The shoot is going a little longer than planned. I wont be back in New York for a week or two. But it gets worse, now they want to make a TV show”
Blair could hear Serena's anger through the phone. She was not happy.
“They do?”
“Yeah, they follow me everywhere and make a reality show out of it”
“That's great S”
She didn't know if that was good or bad news. She just shrugged and went with a predictable answer.
“No! No it's not! I don't want that!”
Serena yelled back.
“Well tell them that then. It's your life and if they don't have you they don't have a show”
Serena was the star of her very own show already, her life was one big show only she didn't realize that.
“True! You know what B you're right. I'll go give them a piece of my mind right now. I'll call you back later”
Serena hung up quickly and filled with her rage she was going to give her agent what for.
“Bye”
Blair said even though Serena had already gone. Oh how she would love to be a fly on the wall during that conversation. Serena gave as good as she got and she was not going to make some stupid TV show about herself. She was just not that shallow...
        The next few days were filled with boredom. Dan spent nearly every waking hour at the office, Blair took Katie shopping for even more cute baby clothes and Chuck was swamped with holiday brochures, Gabby now wanted them to go skiing together. It just came to the point where Chuck could not keep lying to her.
“Gabby I need to talk to you”
“Okay but make it quick I need to call the airline to get the jet out for us”
Gabby said dashing around looking for some more of the brochures which were lying around the apartment.
“We wont need the jet”
He mumbled.
“What we're flying commercial?”
Gabby shouted in shock. That was not Chuck Bass.
“No. We're not flying at all”
He mumbled again.
“We're not going?”
Gabby sat down on the couch disappointment scribbled all over her face.
“No”
Still mumbling.
“Why?”
“I... I don't... I don't think this is working Gabby”
He finally spat out the words he had wanted to say for weeks.
“What isn't?”
She knew what but was hoping she was wrong.
“This thing we have. Us”
“Are you breaking up with me?”
She sighed and let go of the brochure for the first time in days.
“Yeah”
“Why?”
She started with the tears.
“I'm just not ready for a relationship”
He used a good old Chuck Bass line.
“Oh please, give me a proper reason”
She yelled back at him!
“That's it honestly”
“No it's not. You think this is the first time a guy has broken up with me... For someone else.”
“No it's not that...”
“The truth Chuck? Show me a little respect”
Gabby stood up and cut across him. He couldn't say it out loud. He nodded and agreed.
“You love her don't you?”
Gabby's tone lowered and she spoke more calmly.
“Yes”
He admitted it to her.
“And there's nothing I can do to make you love me more than her is there?”
Gabby cleared the tears away finally realized they were wasted on Chuck.
“No”
He shook his head.
“Then tell her don't waste more time and use someone else to hide it”
“I'm sorry Gabby”
He genuinely meant that, he had no intention of hurting Gabby the truth was he should never have got together with her. It was a mistake.
“It's okay. We were never anything special. I just go then”
She tried to be strong but knowing all the long who it was Chuck was in love with.
“Yeah...”
He muttered and turned away from her. When she got to the door Gabby turned around and mumbled one last line.
“Ohh and Chuck tell Blair she's one lucky bitch”
Gabby said those words and dashed straight out the door. Leaving Chuck with time to think out his next plan.
        That night or the next morning it was two am when Blair was awoken by a banging at the door. She thought it might have been a very bad burglar trying to break in, she grabbed the baseball bat Nate always hid by the side of their bed and made her way to the door. She looked through the eye hole in the door to see. It was no burglar. She answered the door
“What do you want Chuck? It's two o'clock in the morning”
Blair looked at him angrily and annoyed that her beauty sleep had been interrupted.
“You're not going to hit me are you?”
His eye instantly went to the bat she was clutching so tightly.
“No, or maybe I will for getting me up at this hour”
“I know but I couldn't wait”
“For what?”
Blair shrugged before the next thing she knew Chuck had grabbed onto her and was pressing his lips against hers again, but this time she pushed him away.
“What are you doing Chuck?”
“I broke up with Gabby”
“So...”
“For you”
He smiled thinking she would be happy and impressed.
“You shouldn't have. I don't care who you date”
“Funny thing cos you do”
He knew her too well.
“Chuck read my lips. I. DON'T. CARE”
He grinned as Blair tried not to giggle, she gazed down at the floor and bit her lip while he gave her a second to try to stop herself from laughing. His thumb and finger held onto her chin and brought her face back to look at him but he couldn't stop himself from kissing her once again.
“Nate will be back tomorrow”
She said but this time she didn't push him away.
“He's not here now”
That wasn't a statement. It was a question. If Blair wanted him to stay he would.
“We can't do this”
He was worried, he wanted Blair right there at that second but there was only one thing that was going to make her decision final.
“I love you”
Those three words. Hearing him say them made Blair's decision for her.

TO BE CONTINUED...

A/N: I really hope that was worth waiting for. Anyway now we're nearing the end so quite a bit will be happening. I will also be updating Getting There in a few days too. But don't expect it to be up as fast as it used to be. I'm really busy all summer so I hope you'll all bare with me and keep reading. Thanks so much for all your support and comments, and just keep reviewing. It makes it all worth it. Thank you so much xoxo