Omygosh! I got my first medal! :O :O :O
End of Pt. 25:
Next thing I knew, all I saw was darkness. I could feel the ground, so I figure I tripped. I felt something go in my left arm, and I was suddenly sleepy. I was alseep in under five minutes, hoping I would dream of something better than this reality I was living in.
Dream
I stood still in the middle of the forest, in an area I wasn't familiar with. I was crying silent tears, looking at the ground. I felt betrayed, like I had just lost a best friend. My hands were balled into fists by my side. Everything around me seemed to get blurry. I was suddenly standing in my room. I heard something coming in and looked towards my door. It ... It was me. I was running with a huge smile on my face, but ... Oh. I was running for ... For my jacket.
I knew who was going to appear next, and what would happen. I couldn't bare it. I saw him come in and me drop the jacket. I squeezed my eyes tight, hoping I wouldn't have to watch this. It hurt too much already. I looked up and everything was blurry, again. I was walking up to his house, taking a deep breath before knocking on his door. I knew what would happen; He would answer immediatly and I would be blown away by the work he had put into the evening. I couldn't relive these things, no matter how much I wanted to. It would kill me. These were some of the greatest memories I had with Damon, that I just couldn't seem to let go of or let myself remember them ...
I shut my eyes again, hoping that my vision would blur up and I would go somewhere else. Anything but this.
I was right. All around me became blurry.
I appeared back in the woods, where I started off. I didn't understand - this place had nothing to do with Damon. I felt the same feelings I did when I was here the first time. I felt betrayed, anger, sadness ... love ... all bundled up in one. I really didn't know exactly what to feel. I was so fed up with everything that I dropped to my knees and started bawling. I wanted so badly for this strange dream to be over ... These memories would haunt and eat me alive if it wasn't over soon.
I woke up in a dark room, sobbing silently. Where was I? And why was it so dark? I couldn't see anything ...
Just then the lamp on the bedside table turned on, and I almost jumped out of my skin. Stefan.
"What the hell, Stefan! What are you doing? Where am I?" What the hell?! He was not the person I wanted to wake up to, though I better watch my mouth around him. I'm sure he hadn't forgotten the last time we met ... I wonder if he was still mad ...
"Shh," He stroked my hair. I just shook my head, looking at him.
"Are you still mad at me?" I asked in a small voice, tentavily. I held my breath until he answered.
"No, Elena. I'm ... dealing with that now." His answer seemed true enough for me.
"But ... why? Why aren't you mad?"
He took a deep breath. "It was ... the past. And now he's gone. Nothing more to worry about."
I burried my face in my pillow before he finished talking. I was shaking, I was crying so hard. He just sat there until I was moderatly attentive to him and said, "I'm sorry. I didn't know it upset you ... that much."
I just shook my head, "Happens all the time." And it was true. I could be sitting there, and start bawling my eyes out over nothing. It was just so hard ...
"Go back to sleep, Elena. It's too early for you to be up."
The last person who told me that was ... Damon.
I cried myself to sleep, for the second night in a row.
Another dream .... I hope I'm doing those alright .... :\
End of Pt. 25:
Next thing I knew, all I saw was darkness. I could feel the ground, so I figure I tripped. I felt something go in my left arm, and I was suddenly sleepy. I was alseep in under five minutes, hoping I would dream of something better than this reality I was living in.
Dream
I stood still in the middle of the forest, in an area I wasn't familiar with. I was crying silent tears, looking at the ground. I felt betrayed, like I had just lost a best friend. My hands were balled into fists by my side. Everything around me seemed to get blurry. I was suddenly standing in my room. I heard something coming in and looked towards my door. It ... It was me. I was running with a huge smile on my face, but ... Oh. I was running for ... For my jacket.
I knew who was going to appear next, and what would happen. I couldn't bare it. I saw him come in and me drop the jacket. I squeezed my eyes tight, hoping I wouldn't have to watch this. It hurt too much already. I looked up and everything was blurry, again. I was walking up to his house, taking a deep breath before knocking on his door. I knew what would happen; He would answer immediatly and I would be blown away by the work he had put into the evening. I couldn't relive these things, no matter how much I wanted to. It would kill me. These were some of the greatest memories I had with Damon, that I just couldn't seem to let go of or let myself remember them ...
I shut my eyes again, hoping that my vision would blur up and I would go somewhere else. Anything but this.
I was right. All around me became blurry.
I appeared back in the woods, where I started off. I didn't understand - this place had nothing to do with Damon. I felt the same feelings I did when I was here the first time. I felt betrayed, anger, sadness ... love ... all bundled up in one. I really didn't know exactly what to feel. I was so fed up with everything that I dropped to my knees and started bawling. I wanted so badly for this strange dream to be over ... These memories would haunt and eat me alive if it wasn't over soon.
I woke up in a dark room, sobbing silently. Where was I? And why was it so dark? I couldn't see anything ...
Just then the lamp on the bedside table turned on, and I almost jumped out of my skin. Stefan.
"What the hell, Stefan! What are you doing? Where am I?" What the hell?! He was not the person I wanted to wake up to, though I better watch my mouth around him. I'm sure he hadn't forgotten the last time we met ... I wonder if he was still mad ...
"Shh," He stroked my hair. I just shook my head, looking at him.
"Are you still mad at me?" I asked in a small voice, tentavily. I held my breath until he answered.
"No, Elena. I'm ... dealing with that now." His answer seemed true enough for me.
"But ... why? Why aren't you mad?"
He took a deep breath. "It was ... the past. And now he's gone. Nothing more to worry about."
I burried my face in my pillow before he finished talking. I was shaking, I was crying so hard. He just sat there until I was moderatly attentive to him and said, "I'm sorry. I didn't know it upset you ... that much."
I just shook my head, "Happens all the time." And it was true. I could be sitting there, and start bawling my eyes out over nothing. It was just so hard ...
"Go back to sleep, Elena. It's too early for you to be up."
The last person who told me that was ... Damon.
I cried myself to sleep, for the second night in a row.
Another dream .... I hope I'm doing those alright .... :\
Ok guys, I've decided to stop writing Rebecca Alice. At least for right now. Of couse I will continue the others, rest assured of that. I'm excited about the possibilities for Creatures of the Night (COTN). I have a vague idea of what I'm going to do with Stares, but I can tell you that everything's only going to get steamier from here. ;)
Please comment and let me know what you think of COTN or any plots ideas. I would love to use some of yall's ideas. (Are you listening, Gabstaaa?! :))
Thanks guys! :D
Love,
B
Please comment and let me know what you think of COTN or any plots ideas. I would love to use some of yall's ideas. (Are you listening, Gabstaaa?! :))
Thanks guys! :D
Love,
B