Tears of goodbye
Tears of fear
holding onto you
it consumes your heart
it rushes to your head
you shake and cringe
you stare and you wave
you grab your chest
as if it is now hollow
you whisper a note
you whisper a love
you turn to walk
but find you can't move
you take some breathes
and count to 10
you hold on to chest
once again
you start to calm down
you start to see
you find a mirror
and see what he now see's
you whisper soft
but yet still clear
you take one more breath
and start to quiver
you shake away the fear
and begin to trust

'how come i could love you and still it was never enough?'

what happens next is very suprising
your sure its just a dream
because a girl with a broken heart
just stopped crying her fears
and its then that you realised
you were more than enough
and you always had been
it wasn't you
it wasn't you and him
it was him that you didn't see
who played you along
and then who broke apart such a beautiful song.

As you know, I live in New Zealand, a place abundant with clouds, mountains, and sheep (I know, right!!!). This means that whenever we go on a school trip we're seeing lakes, or mountains, or, and this is my personal favourite, bush ('cause that never gets old). This time it was Mount Holdsworth.

After the trip we were asked to write some poetry that the bush had inspired. There was all that "If beauty could speak" cr*p, and some "Listen to the whisper of the trees", you know, all that. This is what it inspired for me...

ATTEMPT #1

The water running over the rocks,
makes me want to pee,
I think of Niagra falls,
The pee trickles down my knee.

ATTEMPT #2

The wind whistles in my hair,
makes me want to itch,
I scratch my hair a little bit,
Whoops, there goes a flying nit.

ATTEMPT #3

The bird chirping in the trees,
Makes my ears real sore,
Dad pulls a gun from his bag,
BOOM! Birdy chirps no more.

Drift apart, this world is an art.
How so many people can come together as one,
and they learn to have fun.
It's amazing how, in times of need,
we all can overcome, and be one indeed.
No one wants to remember the bad times,
but those things can rule our lives.
Happiness is all that matters
until the happiness is shattered.
All we really need is each other
to grow and love another.
I think too much time is spent being sad,
when all we really should be is glad.
We have light, color, beauty, sound!
So why are people sad when no one is around?
It's the thought that counts, that's what people say,
so we'll be fine as long as we keep them in our hearts everyday.

P1 - I swear i stil do
Is this the way we are going to end?
I still remember those days when we held each others hands.
And let out our feelings.
Those days when we never had a fight,
Those great nights we spent just looking at the stars.
How can we just leave like this?
How can we not believe one another?
Because everything I said was true.
And when I said I love you, I swear I still do.


P2 - Catch me
I thought you would be there through the times that I needed you the most.
I thought you would be there to help me
When your love was needed the most,
But I guess I was wrong.
I guess I was just so blind to see that I’ve never fallen so hard thinking you would be there catch me.

some amature suff

Dream Of My Love So Far
Through my dreams,
I see you,
And me,
Kissing and holding hands forever.

On this roller coaster
i'm so scared
but your right there
holding my hand so safely

But they don't agree
This love is out of hand they say
I am taken away
And our connection is broken

But more dreams to come
Say you're okay
But I wish always
To see you someday


Butterflies
The gracefull butterfly,
Flies so very high,
Her beautiful winds flapping in a rythmic beat.

Sometimes I wish,
That I could fly so gracefully,
And to leave my fears down on Earth.

To Forget all my troubles,
To let go of all grief,
To be as free as a butterfly.

My feet would list,
My head held up high,
Soon I would be in the sky.

To fly like the butterflies,
Is all I ask for.
Freedom at last.

I don’t think I could ever love someone like I loved you
You are my first and last love
You go I go
You stay I stay
And you might think that’s weird but that’s the way it goes
That’s the way love is
And no matter how hard we try to let go
You will always find your self coming back.

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Let’s go on a first date
Where it’s cold in the night
So you can hold me close in your arms really tight.
Let’s wait for the train.
And if it starts to rains you can be my shelter.
I will tell you my feelings and you will tell me yours.
We can laugh and kiss and imagine always being like this.
And when the train comes
You can take me home
I will let you hold my hand until we arrive to my doorstep.
Were we will say our goodbyes?
And with a touch you give me
I will be satisfied.