I know that this is a place for the soda Crush, but I've seen other people talking about crushes and stuff here so I thought 'why not?'

The Positives

1) He laughs at some of the things I say.

2) I always catch him staring at me, or his friends looking at me whenever I'm walking in the halls.

3) He blushes whenever I talk to him.

4) My friend has told me that whenever I talk to him he seems sort of 'smug' about it and he's always watching me in class.

5) He's a piano player and singer, and whenever he's singing he's always looking in my direction.

6) I used to sit near him all the time in English. He sat diagonal to me (meaning he sat next to the girl who sat behind me) and he'd always lounge back and have this sort of casual 'douche' appearance about him. On our last seating chart we were moved up front and I was right next to him, and he ended up sitting really composed and refined and you could basically drown in the awkward vibe he was giving off. He'd always put his hands to his face and cross his ankles, and he would never talk to me and talk to the people around us. I'd look at him a few times and when I would he'd always be watching me and quickly turn away, covering his face.

7) I have mentioned that I like guys that dress classy and smell good. Since then (I don't know if this is coincidental or not) he's started dressing in classier clothing (not like he didn't before). But he always tried to look his best and he started wearing classy collared, button up shirts which I'd never seen him wear before.

8) My mom told me when she dropped me off for school one morning she saw him look at me (because we both arrived at school at the same time) and he'd turn to his friends and start smiling about something. She said at first he looked really pissed and tired like everyone else (because it was a Monday, who wouldn't?) but once he saw me he seemed to brighten up almost.

9) His friends used to never care or pay attention to what I said or did, but now I always feel as if they're watching me; whenever I walk past them in the halls they're always looking at me and even sometimes in class they watch me sometimes. It could mean nothing but I've been told it's a sign that usually the guy's friends will pay attention to the girl their friend likes.

10) He can never talk straight around me. Either his voice trails off when he talks to me or he stammers about something. Other times he can talk casually but I guess it depends on the topic we're talking about. If we talk about magic tricks or music or something, he's cool about it (or something school related) but if it's about something else he kind of loses his 'cool' around me.

11) He used to never address me by my name. Now he calls me it a few times (and to be honest, I used to hate my name but now I like the sound of it when he says it).

12) We had this end of the year school dance & him and his friend were looking everywhere for someone. I just assumed it was another student body officer/popular girl so I ended up leaving the gymnasium. When I was outside my crush's friend was as well, and when he saw me he seemed kind of mad. When I asked him if he wanted help cleaning up the confetti and streamers (since the student body officers have to do that) he said "no, thank you" in a really rude tone and kept glaring at me. The next day I arrived at school and my crush's friends were all glaring at me at my crush looked really upset and sad when I made eye contact with him.

13) When I had finished performing two one-minute monologues for theatre, everyone loved them and was clapping. My crush looked kind of flustered and leaned over to talk to one of his theatre-friends who nodded, saying, "yeah, she was good!" I don't know if that means he told him that he thought my monologues were good or something, but I think it means something.


The Negatives which may not seem negative to you, but I wouldn't really count them positive either

1) He's fairly quiet around me sometimes.

2) I always have to start the conversation. Sometimes he will but he seems really nervous.

3) Sometimes I feel like he doesn't want to talk to me.

4) We had exchanged numbers for this theatre thing and we texted for a little bit about it. I didn't have a major part in the play he was "directing" (I was worker 2 and this other girl was worker 1), but nonetheless he told us that we should meet up at his place later to practice. During theatre class he told the other girl about something and he kept looking at me, however, he never told me to come up and listen to what he was telling her. The girl and I were talking later (because were friends sort of) and she was telling me that she was glad we didn't have to go to practice. I got confused because he had never told me that so I went looking for him, but I couldn't find him anywhere.
Later on I found him after school (since apparently we were supposed to meet up that day) and I asked him what was going on. He looked sort of flushed when he told me that I didn't need to come to practice because they weren't going to get to our scene. I was mad, because we had never held a practice and we were performing for the class tomorrow. I told him that it was sort of a "shitty move" of a director to not tell me that sooner and that he didn't want to practice the whole entire play. He lost his douchey-aura and got a little bit more flustered as he continued telling me that "as long as you're memorized I'm happy." I got mad, telling him "whatever" and I called my mom to come get me (because earlier he had said we would just walk to his house so I told my mom that so she wouldn't need to come pick me up.) As he was leaving I felt him glancing at me, and I looked up from talking to my mom to make eye contact with me. He was carpooling with his friends and he seemed sort of hesitant to get in the car (but he did later on).

5) After that he ended up texting me (I didn't have his number then) that he was "sorry about the rehearsal" and told me that he just "wanted to get this done because everyone has to leave early." He told me, once again, that "as long as you're memorized I'm happy". I got so pissed and embarrassed that he had texted me that (I assumed I appeared too emotional about it) and I didn't respond to his text for two hours. He texted me, yet again, telling me that it was him, which actually made me laugh a little. [As if I would think it was someone else. Sorry to break it to you, bud, but the other kid directing the play I'm in never told me I couldn't make it to practice].

6) I still don't understand why he told me I couldn't come to practice. The scene I'm in is the very last scene. If everyone had to leave then I could have just stayed with him at his house (since the other worker girl was going to be absent the day we practiced) and practice the scene with him because he said he would fill in for her. Did he not want me to know where he lives or something? I honestly couldn't care less about going to his house or where the practice was going to be, but I was worried if I was doing an okay job and wanted him to know that I needed some help with the lines (like how I should say them... etc. It's an actor thing).

7) SO many girls have crushes on him, so I guess that means a lot of competition.

8) It's rumored that he has a crush on this girl who he's known since preschool. I don't think it's true, though, because he never talks or looks at her in the classes I have with him. I think they're just friends. Also, on his ask.fm, people have asked him about it [they would say "come on guys, everyone knows that ____ has a crush on _____", to which he would respond "well I didn't know that".]

9) On the last day of school we had this 9th grade promotion party. There was dancing and stuff, and again, he and his friend were looking for this girl (the same girl from the dance for the entire school beforehand). I didn't dance with him but he danced with other girls, two of them being his friends. I'm sort of friends with them as well, but lately they've been kind of... bitchy to me.

10) Girl A I've been closer to. I sit next to her in math and she's really pretty and funny. We also have theatre together. Before the promotion party and before the school's last dance, she asked me who I had a crush on. I thought it was odd she wanted to know it, since we weren't that close to share that sort of information. (here's how the conversation went"
Me: Someone.
Her: Is it (insert my crush's name here)?
Me:
Her: Have you ever hung out with him?
Me: Um, no.
Her: Oh... He's a completely different person when you hang out with him outside of school. Do you ever talk to him? I mean, I know he's kind of a condescending person in school and all... But do you talk to him?
Me: Sometimes.
Her: Oh, what do you talk about?
Me: Um... I don't know. Stuff.
Her: Hm. Do you have his number? Do you guys text or something?
Me: Uh, no. (this was back when I didn't have his number).
Her: Oh... Well, do you think he likes you?
Me: I have no clue and I honestly don't make assumptions like that.
Her: Well how does he act around you?
Me: I don't know... Kind of awkward.
Her:
Me: Um... anyways, do you have a crush?
Her: he goes to a different school. )
Judging from her tone of voice and attitude... I don't think she meant all of this in a 'friendly' way. I knew I should never have claimed I liked him, so I got scared she would tell him (she told me she wouldn't but I just got scared and all) so I told her I didn't like him anymore and I liked someone else because she asked my 'why'. It was the dumbest decision of my life. She was the first person to dance with him when the first slow song came on, and I was kind of upset because I wanted to ask him to dance. When I looked over at them she was talking to him as if trying to console him and he looked really upset about something. I left the gymnasium after that to go outside and look for my two friends.

11) Girl B is the girl from 8. She was the second person to dance with him and I didn't really watch or listen in on their conversation, I just left the gymnasium again because my two friends didn't like how stuffy it was in there.

12) After all the girls he danced with and the dance was over, all the 9th graders were waiting outside for our parents (since the dance started at 6 and ended at 8). I was waiting for my mom by myself since my two friends had already been picked up or walked home, and throughout the whole time I was standing there I could feel someone glaring into the back of my head. When I turned around it was my crush and he looked really really pissed about something.
Earlier we had taken a group photo all together and I was standing next to him. When I turned around to ask him about something (because after all the slow songs he ended up avoiding me the rest of the dance) but he just ended up glaring at me, and he scoffed, walking away. I was both embarrassed and shocked he did that and just walked away. But he continued to glare at me, even while I was waiting for my mom to come get me.
His friend was with him and kept looking at him and back at me and he looked slightly confused. I didn't know why he kept glaring at me, and it kind of hurt my feelings. After that my mom came and got me and we went home.

13) It's summertime now and I've been wondering about his rudeness for a while. I finally ended up texting him, going to ask him about it so I just said "hey". A few minutes later he responded saying, "Sorry who is this?" I got really worried that I had the wrong number so I didn't respond to that, but after looking through the previous texts I knew it was him. Either he deleted my number or never put it in his phone and deleted our previous text conversations. I don't know why he did... But he did. I should have just told him it was me, but it would be awkward if I did... since I'm not necessarily his friend and all so it'd be weird if I texted him suddenly like that.


I honestly sometimes thinks he likes me, but I don't want to make assumptions. I don't want to seem full of myself or irritating when I say "oh he likes me", because I could be looking into all the positive things too much. But sometimes I get a feeling he does... and then he goes ahead and does something that makes me feel like he doesn't like me. So what do you all think? I'd really appreciate some advice... I don't really have many friends I can talk to this about because I feel uncomfortable mentioning it around them. If you can leave something kind of detailed I'd appreciate it a lot. (: