This is gonna be a good chapter for all the Joshley fans who read this story. Once again I'm not back yet, well not permantly. It's just really boring at the hospital so I'm publishing some new chapters.
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“I don't blame you.”
“What?” Josh asked looking up from the sheet of lyrics we just got done writing.
“I don't blame you.” I repeated in the same low murmur.
“Blame me for what?” He was definitely confused.
“For hating me.”
He dropped the lyrics and came over to sit beside me.
“Hayley I don't hate you. Why would you think that?”
I was afraid to look at him, so instead I looked down at my tightly clasped hands. “Well you barely ever talk to me. Ever since we got back from tour, and I started dating Chad, 5 weeks ago, I just feel like we never see each other. I just wanted you to know that I don't blame you for hating me. After what I did. I'm just a cold heartless bi –.”
“Don't beat yourself up over it Hayles. I'm not mad, we both knew it wasn't going to work. I guess I was just not thinking. It was what's best for the band. And besides I'm a man of my words, and I believe I made you a promise. I'll always be your friend, Hayley, no matter what you and I say or do.”
I sighed with relief. “So really you aren't mad? You don't mind that I moved on so fast?”
He put his arm over my shoulder just like the old days, and I reflexively layed my head onto his shoulder.
“Nope I don't mind it. Chad's a pretty cool dude. Besides I met someone, too. Her name's Jenna.”
I stared at him in complete shock. Josh was seeing someone new? I couldn't believe it. That was the last I would expect to hear from him, but isn't that ok? I mean it's not like we're anything more than close friends. But why did news of him seeing a new girl hurt me so much? I'm with Chad now, not Josh.
“Wow. That's...great!”
“Yeah, she's really amazing, smart, funny...”
“Aww it sounds like Joshiekinz is in love.” My heart started ache realized what I just said.
“I think I am.”
“That's great. I'm glad we're both moving on.” Deep inside I knew that I was lying.
“Yup. Hey! We should double-date sometime.”
“Yeah um how about Saturday night?”
“Sure. I'll just clear it up with Jenna to make sure.”
“And I'll clear it up with Chad.”
“Ok then sounds like a date.”
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“I don't blame you.”
“What?” Josh asked looking up from the sheet of lyrics we just got done writing.
“I don't blame you.” I repeated in the same low murmur.
“Blame me for what?” He was definitely confused.
“For hating me.”
He dropped the lyrics and came over to sit beside me.
“Hayley I don't hate you. Why would you think that?”
I was afraid to look at him, so instead I looked down at my tightly clasped hands. “Well you barely ever talk to me. Ever since we got back from tour, and I started dating Chad, 5 weeks ago, I just feel like we never see each other. I just wanted you to know that I don't blame you for hating me. After what I did. I'm just a cold heartless bi –.”
“Don't beat yourself up over it Hayles. I'm not mad, we both knew it wasn't going to work. I guess I was just not thinking. It was what's best for the band. And besides I'm a man of my words, and I believe I made you a promise. I'll always be your friend, Hayley, no matter what you and I say or do.”
I sighed with relief. “So really you aren't mad? You don't mind that I moved on so fast?”
He put his arm over my shoulder just like the old days, and I reflexively layed my head onto his shoulder.
“Nope I don't mind it. Chad's a pretty cool dude. Besides I met someone, too. Her name's Jenna.”
I stared at him in complete shock. Josh was seeing someone new? I couldn't believe it. That was the last I would expect to hear from him, but isn't that ok? I mean it's not like we're anything more than close friends. But why did news of him seeing a new girl hurt me so much? I'm with Chad now, not Josh.
“Wow. That's...great!”
“Yeah, she's really amazing, smart, funny...”
“Aww it sounds like Joshiekinz is in love.” My heart started ache realized what I just said.
“I think I am.”
“That's great. I'm glad we're both moving on.” Deep inside I knew that I was lying.
“Yup. Hey! We should double-date sometime.”
“Yeah um how about Saturday night?”
“Sure. I'll just clear it up with Jenna to make sure.”
“And I'll clear it up with Chad.”
“Ok then sounds like a date.”
time goes by
as i think of you
staring in the mirror of my room
your lips are warm
my mouth it lingers
i think of you
with fiery eyes
i want you now
my sweety pie
you are my life
my world my earth
time goes by
with you in mind
i stare off silentl;y
wisshing you were right beside me
looking through
you are my air
the only thing
that keeps me breathing
my darkess images
are disapearing
you are my love
just like a dove
peacefull and beutiful
with oh such beuty
you call to me
through the waves of life
you are my baby
my lil muffin
my one true love
that i cannot get enough of
I love you bree with all my heart
forever you will have my love
as i think of you
staring in the mirror of my room
your lips are warm
my mouth it lingers
i think of you
with fiery eyes
i want you now
my sweety pie
you are my life
my world my earth
time goes by
with you in mind
i stare off silentl;y
wisshing you were right beside me
looking through
you are my air
the only thing
that keeps me breathing
my darkess images
are disapearing
you are my love
just like a dove
peacefull and beutiful
with oh such beuty
you call to me
through the waves of life
you are my baby
my lil muffin
my one true love
that i cannot get enough of
I love you bree with all my heart
forever you will have my love
What would life be with out friends like thee
I'll tell you, like no longer being free.
Imagine what life would be so sad and blue
To go through life without that special you.
And I know we live so far away
Through the internet we are like castaways
Never get to touch or hug you for this I only pray
For some day I hope we can meet
To hug and laugh and dance to the beat
I know this would be a treat
For now this is all I see
Is my good friend here with me
Just think what life would be
Without friends like thee
I'll tell you, like no longer being free.
Imagine what life would be so sad and blue
To go through life without that special you.
And I know we live so far away
Through the internet we are like castaways
Never get to touch or hug you for this I only pray
For some day I hope we can meet
To hug and laugh and dance to the beat
I know this would be a treat
For now this is all I see
Is my good friend here with me
Just think what life would be
Without friends like thee
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Goodbye my love
goodbye my bride
I will give you time to get your head straight
you mean the world to me
and will always be
the only one I love
my heart it beats
for you
and you only
Goodbye my sweetheart
i will see you in time
goodbye my one and only
goodbye my bree
my loving fool
You are my life
and Ill give you time
goodby my life
goodbye my wife
I will miss you every second you leave
but goodbye
my love
my sweetest friend
my otherhalf
I love you more
than I ever knew
so goodbye my baby
Ill see you soon
goodbye my bride
I will give you time to get your head straight
you mean the world to me
and will always be
the only one I love
my heart it beats
for you
and you only
Goodbye my sweetheart
i will see you in time
goodbye my one and only
goodbye my bree
my loving fool
You are my life
and Ill give you time
goodby my life
goodbye my wife
I will miss you every second you leave
but goodbye
my love
my sweetest friend
my otherhalf
I love you more
than I ever knew
so goodbye my baby
Ill see you soon