Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living by the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my bitter existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living by the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my bitter existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
if the love of your life died,
what would you do if they died a terrible death,
would you get revenge,
would you hate everyone,
would you become a murderer in return,
would you cry your life away,
or would you take your life away?
What would you do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would you do if they died terribly,
would you laugh because no tears will come,
would you cry until it is all over,
would you do the same,
would you run away,
or would you just throw it all away?
What would you do,
if you were hit by a car,
what would you do if you were dying,
would you feel sorry for yourself,
would you cry until the end,
would you remember everything you have ever done,
would you call your mom,
or would you hate the person until your life has gone away?
What would you do,
when everything ends for you or a friend?
What would you do?
Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My heart is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen by the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to swallow me forever
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My heart is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen by the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to swallow me forever
There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if heart is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with love that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if heart is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with love that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
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Only knew you for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
You always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
You always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
You just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew you would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
You and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
You ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never said goodbye
I wish i could of said goodbye
For you are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss you and you will never be forgotten
____________________________________________________
Only knew you for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
You always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
You always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
You just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew you would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
You and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
You ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never said goodbye
I wish i could of said goodbye
For you are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss you and you will never be forgotten